Friday, 10 April 2020

How I spend my RMO at home Part 1

17/3/2020- 10/4/2020
RMO 1st phase until RMO 2nd phase (ends at 14/4/2020)

Hi, so I have decided to start blogging again during this long restrict movement order since it would be extended for two weeks more. Probably, blogging will be added as a new activity in my schedule.

At first I thought RMO will be just like how my usual days since January 2020 as I am just at home doing house chores and no pressure at all. Plus, all my siblings have come home from their universities and boarding school. So, still thinking that it would be just like a normal life of me. But, I take the thought back because it is really exhausting when there are more work to be done and people are attached to smartphone and mind their own business or in better words they leave it to this sister who they believe is a superwoman and can manage the house chores all by herself. No, I'm not complaining but I just pray that Allah will make them love me more and blessed me with rewards, ease in life and of course patience and sincerity.

So the first week was okay. I woke up for Subuh and later helped my mother to prepare lunch since in the morning, No one usually wakes up for breakfast. So for those who wake up for breakfast, they would have lempeng, sandwich or toast. But, then I decided to cook fried rice for breakfast since Betty favors my fried rice a lot. Eheks. At first, I cooked the fried rice in the morning but then I was occupied with other house chores since I am the only early riser. So, I fried the rice before I sleep since RMO has caused me to sleep late around 1.30 am above. Plus, my siblings were usually very hungry around that time so they either had the fried rice that night too or made maggi for themselves and pancakes. and this is something that I was quite worried during RMO; gaining weight. Not for me, but for them. Plus, they would be sleeping very late after having heavy meals like that. Betty and Billy slept around 3-4 am. This is the reason why they barely wake up in the morning. On the side note, Betty has insomnia so it was like a norm for her to not be waking up in the morning unless I woke her up for fried rice.

Recently, I decided to join my siblings to sleep after Subuh longer than my usual routine. But still I am the earliest to wake up like around 10-11 am. At this hour, I will head to the kitchen to see what can I help my mum for lunch prep or just clear up the dishes in the sink. There's a lot of things to be done when youre at the kitchen. Plus, I cant stand to see dirty things. So, if theres nothing much left to give help to my mum, I would take that green sponge and wipe the cabinet, stoves, walls in front of the stoves and tidy up the refrigerator. Refrigerator is my favourite place in the kitchen. I could change food from large container to smaller one, wipe the panes and wash the top of the ketchup bottles and others.

If my mum does not need help preparing the lauk, she would assign me to fry chickens/fish or vegetables. and of course I always take care of the food servings on the table, wipe the dining table and cook the rice. So, people will never be worried of those scopes as I am always responsible for those work.

Other than that, Mia could sometimes be helpful and she would also go to the kitchen and get a task from my mum although she is a bit slow in doing it. it was not that kind of slow,but it is her nature to be at slow pace either walking and more. So I just have to be okay with that and not compare with myself as long as she is being helpful. It is more than enough. So, I could do the laundry ; washing and hanging the clothes and collecting when they dried up and folding them and putting them in the wardrobe. Sounds alot but they are achievable by me rather than waiting them to be done by others which I know it will take some delays. Update: they are able to fold the clothes after getting the dried clothes from the lines so my task is reduced as for now.

Okay enough with kitchen and laundry parts because they actually prevent me from getting bored. After having lunch, we would either join my mother watch movies from netflix or just laze in bed texting or playing UNO. But most of the time,we play UNO since Ahmad doesnt have phone and only UNO that could keep 5 of us united. or Ahmad would binge watch Anime while the sisters are attached with phone play PUBGY, watched BTS or Kdramas. Guess which one would be my activity.............

And Alhamdulillah also as we managed to fast during Monday and Thursday during this RMO and also recited al Quran after performing prayers. I was actually worried that this long holidays would not benefit me at all. Hence, I really take this opportunity of long breakkkkkkkk of doing nothing to do something that I should have been doing which is by getting closer to Allah. Covid 19 is a test from Allah to us. and it is a huge test that one must contemplate and "hijrah" from their old life. I dont want to be a person who ignore this sign that Allah is giving us. His test is for us to get closer to Him, beg for His forgiveness and realize that we are unbearable and helpless without His creations. Health, peace and freedom are important to us and they are from Allah that we have taken for granted. And I always keep that in my mind to include in my prayers. Sometimes, we tend to forget to request for healthy body or peaceful country as we take them lightly and seldom express our gratitude. But due to this ceaseless Corona virus that have been attacking countries, people without warning frightens me a lot even I just quarantine myself quietly in the house. Plus, I am not yet earning money so I am quite down as I feel that I barely do anything with my life.

So, I made up my mind to focus on doing some Ibadah although not alot but I push myself to be istiqamah.

Next, I also tried to cook new kind of dishes and desserts that I found from Facebook or Youtube. Yes, Youtube has been well used for me to watch cooking demo. Nevertheless, what satisfied me the most was that I finally tried to made own desserts/ kuih as usually Mia is the one who monitored us to make desserts because I dont consume too much sweets. Yet, I already tried to make Japanese souffle pancakes (twice), bread pudding (twice), butir nangka (twice). these were the new desserts that I tried. other than that, I only mastered doing Kek Batik. but this time, I used Hup Seng biscuits as they were about to masuk angin hehehe. Okay not so much and still cannot be proud of yet but still I already have a list of desserts to try but we are out of eggs now. Soon soon.

Okay last but not least maybe from me cuz I suddenly forgot what to write more about my RMO..

I have been enjoying doing workouts with Betty. Thankfully, Betty is willing to become my workout partners having partners would prevent my plan from becoming only a plan. Yeah, we do workout everyday and skip workout when we fast or when my mum need more helpers in the kitchen for dinner. but Alhamdulillah, we are still capable to help her in the kitchen after cooling down.

At first we did Tabata but then it was not quite challenging and burning our stubborn fats. and Betty suggested us to try HIIT workouts posted by Mira Filzah. and Alhamdulillah we still can follow HIIT workouts posted by Emi Wong. it is a full body workouts and we do the workout joyfully cuz we are both funny and have goals to maintain our shape from getting out of shape LOL. anddd we or maybe I also end up my night by doing workout on bed that was from Youtube as well. Pray that this consistency will remain until the end of RMO since I do not move a lot at home compared to when we were as free as before. Huhu.

Then, I also purchased only one item during RMO which is weighing scale that just arrived yesterday and thankfully my weight is still the same like before. I'm sure the workout has helped alot and the awareness that has been whispering to me whenever I want to eat a lot. I ate a lot during the first week of RMO cuz the dishes are tempting and varied by days. But, I prohibit myself from eating nasi berbukit , instead eat slowly or just add up vegetables in the plate. But don't worry, my rice is never too little. It is just like not more than 2 scoops or 2 scoops and a half (if I am unconscious and unaware with my wild appetite lel)


Andddd since my sleeping cycle is a bit distracted during RMO, my face is currently having a lot of constructions such as growing acne at many different places like below my nose, below my chin and at my jawlines. It was devastating to see the mirror everyday just to admit that I am getting uglier even I am just stuck under the roof; safe from air pollution and sunlight. Ergh. Okay, will try to sleep earlier and drink more water or just accept this as a part of my life.


p/s; I'm still a pubg and tik tok virgin though my siblings are currently active with those two games? video making? and will add some images during RMO soon when I am rajin to transfer them into this laptop.

Tata and please STAY AT HOME and may this remaining 14 days will be the last time for us to be quarantined like this. May frontliners do their jobs well and the patients get better. And may all Malaysian obey the rules and regulations that have been formed by KKM and other authorities that are meant for our safety. Much appreciated. DONT BE SELFISH!

Assalamualaikum.




sincerely Miss LOL

Sunday, 8 December 2019

December : This is why I'm broke

Upon constructing this title, I chuckled sheepishly knowing the truth that lies behind it. But for the sake of da bomb title, so lets get to explore why I decided to blame December for my draining account.

I dont think it is December since the crime was during November but I had used money from December in advance for November's damage. Okay, so here is how I did.

I have a big brother who I can rely on the most, who seldom appears in my social media since we dont meet often as much as I meet my other siblings.
UPDATE: I received my Nov's salary and paid him straight away.

So whenever I want to go for shopping spree or you know (you dont know right?) go for madness sale like I always did and DO, we need a huge stack of money.. As for me I need more than RM100, and below RM300. BUTTTTTT, I don't borrow his money often. This is due to my October's salary was well used on the early November. ( need to trace back where they went) Hence, how am I gonna shop on 30rd November !!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????

So this is when I can use my brother's role; providing money for his little sister uhuks. So, he lent me RM _ _ _.

First of all, I thanked Allah so much for never fails to give me lights for any sale advertisement be it at offline or online store. Phewww. He really knows that I am good in shopping stuffs with cheap price. The upside for going to sale is we (read: you and I) can purchase all things that we cant afford back then at this time! We get the chance to don luxuries that we buy them with unbelievable price like RM1, RM5, RM10 and more. Welll, this sale is not necessarily new items. it can be defect items or used items. Well, do we really need to be very picky just to get them with such price?

Picky here refers to some judgemental thought about others who don't wear preloved or maybe bundle stuffs. They really need to buy and try first. Then, they are irresistible. No harm done seriously. Some defects are not quite visible. what I reckon on preloved items is they just want to letgo the items and make space for new arrivals. Prelove to relove ! Thats it! I once did organize a preloved event in my college and I could see many of them were very excited to purchase my items that I no longer want to wear them. They gonna love them just like how I did before..

Well, there might be some items with severe defects that you could find in preloved sales. Do not just abandon them.. think ! think ! if the damage was like a slight torn or what not, sew them ! Sew them ! Be innovative ! If a plain blouse costs only like rm1, buy ! hahaahaha. Okay I think I'm giving a wrong advice. Well, look thoroughly on the design as well. is it too ordinary or is it hard to find at any store except like at ZARA, COTTON ON or FASHION VALET. Uhuks. Okayy, I guess I'm being picky too when picking clothes during clearance sales since I know I will be liking so much items, hence several criterion need to be considered thoroughly such as making sure I don't have such design yet, I don't have that colour yet, or does it worth my penny for such design/defect orrrr worth to just buy a new one instead????? Ha one more thing, at preloved place you can find soooo many bunch of brandeds stuffs.......... Don't worry about people's thought. They don't know where you bought them, but if they know, so what??????????? It is not that they could see the brand name inside your clothes. Ehek. We dress up to satisfy ourselves, not others. XD

Apart from preloved event, I always go to clearance sale boutique that mostly sell their off season items with 70% OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (especially Muslimah boutique like Wardatulbydha Hijab, Shawlpublika, Wadi Adra and more) We can even get hari raya collection from previous year with below than RM100 ! Phewwww.. I loike this very much Uhuks.. Hence, please constantly be alert with notification or post from their Instagram announcing any YEAR END SALE very soon.. I am waiting patiently towards the end of this month..

Thinking of making another post on the tips to buy items during sale.

Hmm, why should I wait again? I thought I said that I'm broke already. Okay, heres the problem of this girl. She never stops wanting to shop despite being cashless (broke).

I just love to see the clothes with price that I can (supposed to) afford.

Some of my friends who don't understand the feeling of a shopaholics would question me;

1) Mu nak pakai masa bilo?

2) Beli untuk raya ke sis?

3) Tak pernah tengok pon pakai

4) Banyak banyak beli ni untuk pakai sorang ke??

Whenever I answered I share with my siblings, they would respond like are you sure?
Do you really give your sisters to share your clothes? Never saw them wearing yours...

Little do they know, we even share our wardrobe and what are mine are theirs and I don't mine to let them wear any of my clothes before me (with my consent; I always say yes. I it just a matter of courtesy among us) But, for certain clothes especially white clothes, I tend to attach the clothes with few warningggg like.............

" DONTMAKEITDIRTY" "HANDWASHORWASHSEPARATELY" "USENET" "BECAREFUL"

And for that 3) question, I do not post most of my ootd in my Instagram or even snap them cuz I dont actually bother to have one and if I have it, not necessarily for others' view. Just keep them for myself as for now. I don't have the confidence all the time to post my solo pictures.

Ha, for 2) question the answer can be YES. I often grab this opportunity to purchase two-piece clothes and keep them until certain occasion like Eid, kenduri, bridesmaid duty or any annual dinner. there are four of us (girls) in the family. So, everyone can wear any of the clothes. No need to buy a new one since their sister already volunteered/sponsored to buy all the time.Lucky them.


Ok Ok. I forgot to actually explain on Nov/Dec damage.

Bibis and I made an impromptu plan to visit this one store in KL that advertised on massive clearance . In conjunction with the clearance sale, it also collaborated with one Muslimah model that would be selling her preloved stuffs. Preloved by model means you can wear attires that MODEL WEARS. Aha ! But still, the items were not all vogue. She also wears clothes like ordinary people (us). So, don't put so much hopes or excitement about the clothes. But still, her items were fineeeee but I guessed the clearance that the boutique offered has attracted us the most. All shawls costed only RM5 each, some raya collection marked down until RM40-RM80 from RM200 something.. All pants were only RM1-5 whilst all new pario skirt were only RM 10. Bibis bought many of them. I guessed it was really her catch since she managed to buy nice tops and skirts. (Me backgrounding my mistake and foregrounding bibis' catch ) Sorry bis ! Hahaha..

Okay, as for me I did not hunt for pario and top. I just snatched anything that worth the price. It is more dangerous you knowwwwwww. I'm risking myself and my moneyy.. Hence, I purchased two Raya collection, hmmm okay one batik skirt, white dress, white jacket, yellow floral top, pink top (planned to buy for my friend, but decided to own it ihiks) Hmm, I think that's all.

Going to such event is never enough for me. There will be always things that I recall and regret for not purchasing them HUWAAAA for example the pario was really cheap. I could buy and give to my friend as present. After all they are still new. Sigh. Past is past. Let's just pray for a better future. (better catch with better price)




Attached picture was taken by the photographer of the store and it appeared in the igshop. Huhu.. Somehow, I feel happy to be able to spend this toime with bibis since we rarely get this kind of chance (going to clearance sale) in KL. So, this is the first one and maybe, the last time ? ? :'(



sincerely Miss LOL

Tuesday, 26 February 2019

Do not add up my burden puhliss..

So today I felt mentally exhausted. like super tired, but not physically. It was not merely my fault, but others' fault. Sorry for not admitting my fault. But, I'm upset you know. I met one old friend who would be graduating very soon in my campus.So, we chit chat a bit about subjects that I currently take and how much subjects left.So the beginning was super fine.. I enjoyed the concern.. But later, she said why I did not take all subjects in this semester, total 8 subjects. So, I said oh I cant take that because it was overload and the campus wouldn't let me do so. then, she said oh it was fine. her friend did that too. So, she began to redesign my schedule like telling me that I made a huge mistake. I said Alaa its okay. The add drop session had already ended already (long time ago, almost a month) So, she said Rugi laa bla333333 and sort of a huge disappointment for my decision.

What she did not know was, I already thought thoroughly before stepping into this semester, before deciding that I will extend my semester, I will graduate later than my friends and many more. i have been upset, down and more. Of course I care about my future.. Please dont question the sensitive questions if you do not know what I am dealing with. I did not take all the subjects altogether because I want to maintain a good pointer. I don't want to spoil it just to grad faster. I know I am not a fast learner lately. Huhu.. So, I decided to just finish my degree at the end of 2019 and graduate on 2020. Huhu.. Most of my family members and friends already supported my decision and hope the best for me. And I am also fine to see my friends' achievement and we even planned to do the pre convo together. No jealous or upset feeling at all. But, someone has just ignited the sadness again ...

Well, this issue is not too big for me cuz I will forget about it soon as I just want to focus and end this degree very soon but with flying colors Inshallah. but there's another situation.

People just cant stand seeing my flawed skin and questioned about it ?????????????????
Well, it did not just happen to me but also to my friend...

Do you people know that we did not plan to grow these bumps on our skin?
Do you pi-pol know that we do not want to have these????????
Oh, do you know that we actually take care of our skin more than you??????
and we are really cautious when eating food. There's a lot of 'NO' instead of yes. We avoid nuts, dairy food and food that are too oily and sweet.

But, things cant just always result just like we want..
I have suffered from acne severely when I was 18 years old.
Maybe it was due to the pollution there but it continues until now and getting worse. Even it seems to heal, they start to grow and grow again...

So, some people would ask...
Tak jaga makan ke?
Ni mesti sebab asyik tukar produk.
Muke berminyak tu sebab makan benda berminyak lah.
Muke sensitif ni.
Jangan makan coklat.
Minum air banyak sikit.
Tryla produk ni.. Tryla yang tu,
cuba makan supplemen ni..
Patut takde yang nak pun... (well maybe I feel this )
Geram nak picit.

Or even worse, they compare me with my other beautiful siblings, and wonder why didn't I become flawless like them?

Well, I wonder it too but I never bother about it because we siblings never compare cuz we know it would hurt. SO dont !

I know I am not that pretty enough in your eyes, I am not that deserved to be a Kelantanese due to my flawed face and my sedo funny looking and boring and what so ever. I know it already lah... But, I can try to improve my personality or akhlak as those can be shaped and improved. The skin is very stubborn and takes time to improve. So let us just pray for me to own a better skin just like you, the judgmental people :D I think I should have taken this opportunity for being oppressed to pray as much as I could wholeheartedly to grant me a clear skin because I was hurt by people's words :')


I may not look like as someone who always have a problem or serabut or gloomy or stressed. Because they are unnecessary and temporary. So I just accept it with hope that people could cope and keep calm with my flaws. It doesnt bother me, so surely it would not bother you too. Just keep your mouth shut and just let the nice things to be expressed from it. Let me live serenely XD
sincerely Miss LOL

Thursday, 21 February 2019

Me and my same old grossed problem

I thought that I would get rid of my problem sooner after taking care of my face very precisely. I follow every rule and step that are required to protect my skin. Alhamdulillah, so far so good and my face is less dry than before. I used cleanser, toner, moisturizer and sunscreen just like most skincare freaks told in their social medias. And they are trusted so don't worry. I'm not going to blame any of them. My face is no longer invaded with acnes or any bumps so I feel like I want to add something new which is exfoliator. I cant really use physical exfoliator like St. Ives either green tea or apricot. So, I did some readings on chemical exfoliator. and I was interested with one stuff that consists of glycolic acid which claim for having low percentage of it and suitable for beginners etc T.T I tried it in just a small amount (patch test). I dabbed it at my left cheek but not all parts. I just dabbed it almost close to my ear because there were some tiny bumps like milia over there. And they were very stubborn to be killed. So, my major reason for adding this "holy grail" product was to make my skin clearer. (How I wish)

BUT NO ..
To have a flawless skin like other girls would just be a dream for me :')

I am terribly upset with the reaction happened on my face.
I just used it for three days at night, meaning three dabs only at a small part of my left cheek. but they did very great in welcoming itchy and big acnes on my cheek. For your information, my skin is very poor in recovering scars. and they can appear very red especially during day. So, people wouldn't see any clear part on my face as there are red bumps everywhere, and they even attacked my chins. they are irritating and I could not help myself from not touching them. I became more interested to look at the mirror, giving up with myself, not hoping too much for recovery because I know this would take a donkey year to heal. I thought it would end soon, but now it begins again. and I am healing them again starting from zero...………………….

So, SAY NO to glycolic acid ;D for me. not for others. I'm just not as fortunate as others who could try anything based on positive feedbacks and receive the same impacts too. No, I'm not. I just have to stick with my current skincare instead of planning to exfoliate my skin.

and I am not interested to cover my skin with stuffs like foundation etc so, me is redha if people see my with such flawed face. Just accept it. I can accept it, but I am just ashamed to deal with people that seem to judge my face. I don't know if such people exist, but if you guys happen to experience the same problem with me, YOU KNOW. :D It is 'our' problem for having such a bad thought while people don't even give a damn to our ugliness. LOL.
sincerely Miss LOL

Monday, 15 January 2018

DreamS

Okay xpela tajuk dalam English tapi nak tulis entry dalam Malay. macam pelik plak nak tukar tajuk jadi Mimpi atau Impian.. anyway, tahun baru kita mesti nak ada azam baru la, baju baru la #eh. Kebiasaannya, tahun baru kita tend to renew everything. tak kisahla dari sudut fizikal, mental, niat mahupun akhlak kita. Mesti konfem nak yang baru. Tapi tak semua org. ada yang dont give a damn to a new year. they just maintain, xde usaha nak berubah or what. and ada jugak yang upgrade diri tanpa perlu tunggu tahun baru. But to me, bile masuk je tahun baru, semangat jadi lain sikit. byk je thoughts and ideas yg dirancang utk tahun baru. Almaklumlah, kite mesti nak a better day ahead. Nak improve mane yang patut. Nak improve chapters dlm hidup kita so that ending pon best !

Tapi entri ni bukan nk tlis psl azam tahun baru ke ape, tapi more to dreams or angan angan mat jenin.

Harini byk berangan actually, tambah2 tadi laptop xnak hidup. sampai takleh nak google info pasal paper Khamis ni. tapi bile dah jadi ni, nak blogging plak. Huhu.

Baru2 ni berangan nak buat lasik.. sebab tengok kawan ade buat lasik. So nekad nak kumpul duit laa nk buat lasik. pastu cite kt kawan,pstu die ckp tunggu kerja laa sbb mahal. Pastu cite kt kawan satu lg, die ckp, lasik ni mcm xde pon bg jaminan yg kite akn xrabun slamanya. akan ad tendency uk rabun balik after few years. then, kawan ckpla better buat braces.

Pastu, rase nak buat braces plak. mmg berniat jgk nk buat braces.. tapi braces ni mcm amik masa jgk.. haish ain ni xpenyabar plak. dlm 2++ thun mcm tu rsenyer. tp bile pikir balik xde la lama sgt. lagi2, masa skrg cepat je berlalu.. plus, braces ni wayyy affordable drp lasik. so maybe, prioritizekan nk buat braces lah kot. braces skrg dah jd trend smpi ak fikir murah sgt ke braces smpi smua org pakat buat ni?!?!?!?!?!

Semalam tgk story keknis, dia posted feedback kawan2 retis die yg consume toujours advanced. terpengruh jap tgk feedback diorg. semua pakat positif even bru mkn like 2-3 days. huhu. keknis dhla skrang glowing gile pipi die. comel dooh. So, rase nak try toujours plak. tapi harga die ya ampun, mmg xsanggup den nak sacrifice rm200 utk stuff less than a month. yela, masih student lagi kan. Maybe kena mkn tomato jela setiap hari kalau nak floles and glowing. Let's pray for my skin renewal.

Pastu duit nak shopping, nak kawen and nak travel peciter?????????

susah kan bile unemployed ni tapi angan2 banyak. I cant sacrifice my shopping habit in order to attain any of my dreams. Hahaha. so pendek kate, xdapekla nk berbraces. huhu tapi nakkk. dapt2 inshallah. kite kerja partime bersungguh2 kali ni and jangan guna pon duit gaji sampai bleh achieve yg kite nak. Fuh, naseb baiklah tak trliur nak beli gadgets or stuffs mcm tu.

Pray for my road to unlock my dreams !


sincerely Miss LOL

Friday, 29 December 2017

me getting excited over my friend's happiness Lulz

there are times when I am so packed with stories. lots of stuffs had been hovering in my mind and I cant wait to spill everything in this blog.. but, they remained in this mind since Ive been to lazy to type on this blog. I chose to type in my mind. huhu

okay, lets begin with the first story. A story which I was excited upon my friend's happiness. both of them are my friends actually.

i have a bestfriend (girl). she told me that currently she is with someone new. guess what, the guy that stole his heart was the guy that secretly admired her since form 2 and we all knew that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was excited to know that my best friend had finally opened her heart to accept the guy and they guy came just in time. they did not contact since after PMR and the guy approached him again this year I guess. Huhu what a miracle.

I know exactly how it feels when your crush likes you back. it is beyond the happiness when walking on air. Im so happy on behalf of the guy LOL. both of them are so lucky to be together and I really hope they end up to marriage.

however, this girl she really deserves such guys after meeting previous guy that didnt appreciate her at all. I was dumbfounded as well knowing what he did to my friend. I was like, the guy was really dumb to dump her coz she is so precious. If I were a guy, I would be so lucky to have an intelligent, soft spoken and pretty girl as my life partner. but still, she finally with the guy that really deserves her. Alhamdulillah.. knowing her very sweet love story makes me wonder how my love story would be like. I am not hoping but surely Allah has planned the best for me Inshallah :')
sincerely Miss LOL

Tuesday, 14 November 2017

Regret

I was blaming myself for buying a denim shirt at a fest in my university. the reasons were the shirt was too fade and baggy for me. It seems like the shirt was not mine, it was like the borrowed one. though the size was S ( yeah, maybe I'm smaller than S) hiks.
then, I ranted and felt so guilty for wasting my RM19 for that shirt. I wondered what would I buy with that amount... I might get prettier stuffs and full with lace maybe, ruffles too. but kemeja surely is not my style. How can I buy such clothes? I failed in controlling my lust seeing SALE and rejecting my friend's plead.

so, I could not concentrate in studying. Even connecting the laptop with wifi turned out to be so hard. Not until my roommate returned from her usual night meeting. after she landed on her comfy bed, I went straightway to her room and sighing about my mistake .. and I asked her if she's interested with the clothes. I showed to her and she seemed interested. I know that kind of clothes is her taste ! yeah, finally I would get that RM 19 back but a month later. but better than nothing huhu. Okayyyyy , will update more soon inshallah :) more about my passion I guess. guess WHat ???????????
sincerely Miss LOL

Friday, 20 October 2017

Ikan Patin Asam Pedas versi MoMi

Asam pedas ni patut rasa macam mana sebenarnya? - Mia

Tak tahula tapi aku suka asam pedas MoMi
- Ain

Mama,
Masak je apa apa semua mesti nampak senang and rasa mesti sedap gile. Mostly, my family belah mama semua reti memasak and selalu buat event or org kelantan panggil jjamu. Dari baking tradisional,western sampai la cooking. Menjahit beads, renda, bunga and baju pon pro. Kitorang plak masih merangkak tapi dimana ada kemahuan disitu ada jalan.

Alhamdulillah, cuti tiga bulan baru baru ni memang gigih jugak memasak macam2 , isi perut dengan macam2. Paling kerap masak ialah menu begedil, tomyam, asam pedas, nasi goreng kampung dan menu ayam lain lain.

Hari ni sempat tengok2 mama masak asam pedas and fresh2 lagi dalam ingatan method yang mama buat

Bahan bahan utama

- Ikan patin
-sos cili
-sos tomato
-kicap sotong
-cili boh
-bawang putih & bawang merah yang diblend
-bunga kantan
-hirisan/tumbuk halia saiz ibu jari
-daun kesum
-tomato potong
-bawang besar potong cincin
-asam jawa

Cara cara

) Mula mula panaskan minyak
2) tumis bahan blend
3) naik bau, tumis bawang besar
4) masukkan cili boh, sos tomato, sos cili, air asam jawa
5) bila minyak menggelegak, masukkan garam, secukup rasa dan kicap sotong ikut suka.
6) masukkan air
7) masukkan hirisan tomato
8) masukkan ikan
9) masukkan bunga kantan dan daun
kesum
10) siap !


Sangat menyelerakan tapi tak cukup pedas. 🌸 Mungkin boleh letak lada kot nanti.
sincerely Miss LOL

Monday, 16 October 2017

Part time

I started to indulge in part time working approximately in 2013.

My first part time job was at Cupbon at KB Mall. I worked there for 2 months and 12 days as far as I could remember and it gave me quite a vivid picture of how hard it is to earn money for your own. It requires a very strong will and determination from you in not to giving in if you face any sorts of difficulties throughout the experience. 

anyway, I would not be telling you the experience or even the upside or downside of getting into part time job, but I would rather write about the kind of jobs that I had been involved during long holidays in my entire life.

after working at Cupbon, I applied for a partime job at Renaissance hotel at Kota Bharu. I worked as a waitress. it happened to be during fasting and Eid month. and you knew how tired I were working at particular months. but it was worth it to get such experience working and learning about the stuffs in a renowned hotel and I got to learn on how to arrange the cutleries, the name of different glass, folding the napkins, making smoothies and yes I got to taste every delicious dishes in the hotel. yummeh! of course I did gain my weight at the moment. *sigh


I did try applying a job at a bakery. but just the old and small one. I easily get attracted to a signboard highlighting "PART TIME NEEDED". After seeing it, I will jot the number and contact the employer without hesitation. It was my first day and the toughest one. The job was to roll on the flour into cookies size. plenty one. uncountable. and under a hut. it is like a garage. open one with the zinc as the roof. You would never imagine it, rolling the flour while standing and the sun was striking it rays so strong like it never wants to surrender just for the sake of me. It really gave me serious headache. The payment was quite a little. Not suit for the efforts that I had to put and how my energy got used up just rolling thousand "biskut arab".. I am done working at hot place. I am not choosy actually, but the place was uncomfortable. It was not like other bakery where the workers can work in a shop, rolling the biscuits on the floor with fans on the ceiling. there was not even a ceiling to shield us. It was just the zinc roof and a huge metallic table to roll the flour.. 

besides involving in food and beverage field, I also had expanded my experience by associating in fashion ! I started working at the field when I saw the advertisement through Instagram about an event called Mood Republik. the duration was only around 2-3 days only. my first fashion brand that I was hired was Rayyan Haya. It was great knowing that I would receive a free piece from the brand. though it was an outdated design,but who would not get excited to receive something free,isnt?

then, I started to become eager and always wait for such events to seek for part timers ! I love it and hope that I get the clothes by them LOL. next brand was Dhiasara Batik and the latest one was Fifa.Rasol. I did get the free clothes from them but my friend did not get any.and we assume that we could not anticipate anything free since the economy nowadays is at stake. So, just work with pure intention ; to seek experience and get paid XD

besides, I did seek my experience in part time job at my own institution!
UIA is such a good place to gain not only knowledge about the your course or islamic knowledge, but it also enhance the students' ability to start a business by organizing fests over the semester, (I guess two events within a week, it goes on until the end of semester). from the events held, me and my other friends are able to apply for part-time job since most of the booths will advertise "PART TIME NEEDED" to IIUM page. I had worked at several booths such as project tudung booth at Convest  hill and also flower shop during convocation ! i did learn how to arrange the flowers into bouquet, learn how to design the ribbons (I think I forgot about it already) and learn the new names of flowers and the small flowers that look like grass. they actually got names Zzzzzz


We( uia students)have several groups where some important people would post about part time advertisement or chance to work as part time during weekends or anytime that we are free. there are quite several groups such as vacant job hunter, UIA job part time and also group partimers. those are the names of whatsapp group. and yes theres another one named Part Time baby. the famous part time jobs are taking care of babies at a nearby daycare and catering at KLCC. I had one experience at the day care. and sorry to say that it was the first and last time, not because of the babies but the place was like a hut and super hot (which I cant withstand) it does not look like a nursery at all. it looks like a home for bachelors. the walls and floors are made of cements and not even with tiles! no bed and no playground. you can never imagine how it looks like until you reach there.huhu


currently, I am doing part time jobs in UIA which are at the photocopy service on Monday and Wednesday from 5pm until 9 pm and also as a seller at uncle best chicken over the weekend from 4.30 pm until 9.30 pm.. It sounds a bit hectic but no it doesn't (so far la huhu)

Actually working during weekdays after having classes was quite fun and it feels even better when your colleagues are happy go lucky and cheer you up, making you forget the hassle and bustle of the workload. but, though it just for a while but it relieves my tense a little.

As for working during weekends, I decided it just to avoid myself from berjoli with my friends over the weekend or every weekend coz u know, previously I hardly stay longer during weekend. I must sneak out and spend my money even just a little but it still counted as money.. now I am a bit better in savings. Hmm, not really but better than nothing right? my working hours are flexible because if I got to skip working for inevitable reasons like parents coming to KL or BIG sale (this one counts as inevitable hehe) I can ask for my partner to replace me. Hoho. sounds heaven but it will cut my wage for a day. but I always try to avoid that skipping part by replacing her working hours as well whenever she could not make it during her day. 

My dominant purpose of working is actually I want to collect some money to travel to Japan.I don't know how to save money or earn money since I dont even receive any scholarship or any extra money from any source. So I guess this is it ! My plan. but I do actually afraid that this might distract my focus in my studies. But, I don't want to take this whole thing as a heap that prevents me to achieve my dream to go to Japan or even to succeed in my studies. I am not greedy to achieve both. But I notice that if I don't do the part time job like before, it doesn't make me any cleverer at all. By working, I realize that time is really precious and I notice that I cannot waste any left time by doing nothing but to catch up everything that I might less understand during class. I really hope that this kind of idea (working during study) can occupy my time by doing useful activities instead of spending the weekend by watching movies or eat luxury stuffs that can be reached within a few minutes (life in KL, you know..) or yes, sleeping , doing nothing in mahallah over the weekend. valid for lazybones or moneyless. I have been there too. hehehe.  Pray for me fellas :) pray that I wouldn't use my wage for shopping clothes, flats or handbags. Just name it ... oh yeah, shawl as well.........


sincerely Miss LOL

Saturday, 2 September 2017

Insecurities

I bet that everyone has been dealing with this matter especially those who are around my age. Insecurities? What are those? We have heard this quite a lot and the girls face these the most rather than boys because they think too much and often worry about unnecessary stuffs.

Lets get this straight to the topic.

Me myself have a lot of insecurities and my friends too have fear of not getting what they want and what women should possess.

Beauty, wealth, intelligence, good in baking, good in cooking, nice clothes, good taste, flawless skin,ideal weight and height and countless stuffs to be mentioned within an entry. We can make our own list. We tend to feel this whenever we compare ourselves with others who got more than us in any categories. The 'others' most probably who appear in social medias, the instafamous clans and among their friends too. I notice that social medias or particularly instagram has become a media where people display their passion and joy. It is fine depending on their intention but sadly some of the viewers mistakenly reckon the posts as something that bother their self esteem.

Why do we afraid to be less than others? Why being ordinary or normal becomes exclusive? Why do we always want to be more or become the one who they look up to? Why? What is going on with today's generation? Let us not point to others because I myself have to admit that I am also the victim of this situation. I feel insecure and start comparing my so-ordinary-look-and-life with the other lucky girls. I ask myself why am I not flawless? Why am I not that intelligent? Why cant I have a vacation overseas? Why do they have a perfect pose in every post? Why they got so pretty outfit? Where do they get so much money to purchase this and that? The why and how would never come to the end until I begin to feel enough @ contented with myself and count the blessings that I always mislook :') We always forget to list down our unseen fortunes that others might not have them. We tend to appreciate physical things and the tangible one. We barely appreciate of having a long term memory, a good eye sight, loyalty, being a good listener, have good common sense and other stuffs that are not physically seen. Walla ! Have you ever thank to Him for the things that I mention or you might cross in your mind? Theres a lot to be grateful actually rather than screwing up your mind thinking of things that you cannot change or create or you even dont put effort to build them. And yes, you forget that some things cannot be forced. You cant force yourself to do things that you dislike. People might be good in things as they have passion in them, and you dont have that talent because you dont like them and effortlessly step into the phase. For instance, how can you dream to put on nice and smooth make up if you dont like to put the makeups? Why should you be jealous in negative way towards people who are good in musics or any other talents that you dont even dare or interested in the field? Forget about being too negative in yourself and start sowing the talents in you. Figure out your passion and sharpen them so that it would not be wasted. Count your blessings. It is not bad to feel insecure but do not exaggarate or it might harm you. Love yourself and then you can be relaxed seeing others in success. Everyone  is born different specialities and ability. We must not be sensitive and down for not having them. Cherish the moments and always remember if you feel unlucky during the moments in world, plan to get the best one in hereafter. Because the real journey is not to achieve everything in this temporary life, Allah is waiting us with tons of rewards soon. So be good :)

Sorry if I have a bad grammar or simple vocabulary though I am pursuing my studies in this field. Im currently in upgrading myself. Dont you worry peeps. Improvement consumes time ☺

Footnote X
whenever you suffer from this pain or sorrow about the worldy matter, put a halt from whatever youre doing and give some spaces for yourself to be with Allah. Tell Him what you feel, tell Him what youre lacking of, tell Him everything. Spend a time to pray at the mosque, perform jammah prayer even only for a one time prayer. Maybe you need a break in giving too much to life and people. Dont you feel fair to dream to many fancy stuffs without being so effortful? Yas, there are some gifted people but can you just not question about them? 😊


sincerely Miss LOL

Wednesday, 16 August 2017

Feelings

I got mixed feelings these days. Why cant I get rid of someone who never ever likes me back and never treats me nicely. Why should I ever worried about him quite a lot. I ve been trying to cut them off but at some time, it keeps coming back and I dont like it. I know it is so wrong for me to wait him any longer. But when I'm in the phase reminiscing him, I miss him a lot. In normal phase, I dont actually miss him and like what he had done to me. It is beyond that one could ever imagine. Leaving me text unresponded is one thing, and when he texted he never picked the nice words for me. There would be lots and lots of sarcasm and hint to stop me from keeping this feeling towards him. I got the hint already but it just at one time, I miss the memories that we had. It was like we were meant for each other. Everything was real. My love towards him was pure and sincere. I never had a thought to leave or treat him bad like how it turned out today. I wish he knows how bad I hurt when he comes and leaves me like it doesnt give impacts to me.
sincerely Miss LOL

Friday, 3 March 2017

So what have I spent for this semester? part 1

Now that we have entered March and it means that I have been in UIA for more than a month.  I did drafted my goals for this semester  and one of them that I really put efforts/steps on it (less shopping, less outing, more spending just in UIA and doing something that don’t need money) is menabung?????? Cut off all the budgets (unnecessary stuffs to buy, UNNEEDED stuffs or UNWANTED or just to fulfil your lust) USE YOUR BRAIN WISELY TO FILTER YOUR WISHLIST. Hoho emo jap.

My previous goals were ;

  • New phone with upgraded features (I phone, vivo siti :P)
  • Travel to overseas (once in a blue moon pon okay what?)
  •  Wear braces
  • Do Lasik treatment
But my latest (really2 latest one) I want to save money so that I can shop quite a lot and without limit during RAYA SALE, YEAR END SALE or maybe PRELOVED SALE. Yeah. Not to forget, saving so that I can have “best friends” trip again and shop at that place lol. Hahaha I really can’t resist sale but for now, I still can prevent myself from shopping as long as my goals hover in my mind. Please stay in there so that I can save a lot.
Congratulations to me because I have succeeded in managing my lust from shopping unwanted and unneeded things though they were cute, cheap and irresistible. But, I comfort myself and yeah good things worth waiting.

What I have spent for February was;

  • White palazzo from Bella Ammara which only costs rm45
  • 3 pieces of plain shawls for rm23 only
  • Candy bawal for rm24 only
  • Watching movies twice for rm23.50 only
  • Silky girl compact powder for rm20.00 lol
And I didn’t spend so much since yeah maybe due to the “still hot” spirit but I really hope that I it will last till the end of semester.

Recently, I have received several stuffs as my birthday presents like blouse from Bella Ammara, baju kurung wadiadra, candy bawal  and piggy bank and random things (fancy needles and hello kitty bracelets) I love all the gifts and the thought for me. I am so delighted because no need to buy lah, dah ada orang kasi kann.

Hurm what I crave now are

  • ·         Black palazzo
  • ·         Scarlet blouse from nenggeulis.co
  • ·         Rosey Kurung from wadi adra
  • ·         Pinafore top (yang trending sekarang)
  • ·         Cloverush Lily colour pink !

And this list will grow soon since the fashion is developing so fast and I can’t even chase them. Tak nak kejar pun huhu..

sincerely Miss LOL

Wednesday, 21 December 2016

SHOPPING is a satisfaction XD

Well I love december. Acewah bukan december je. I love all days where I can go shopping. tapi december ialah bulan yg ditunggu2 oleh para wanita khususnya insan yg bernama Ain Irdinaaa ni kots sebab Ain ni suka beli benda yang within her budget and I can afford to purchase it using my own pocket money. senang cite December ni byk YEAR END SALE, CLEARANCE SALE and macam2 ah. waduhhhh ! okay anyway sebenarnye semalam rase puas sebab dapat shopping even online. jarang sgt shopping online or maybe ni first time kot beli online from IG sebab biase mahal kan sebab postage and so on. mostly suke beli barang yg dah display kat kedai macam tu sebab senang nak pilih colour and jenis material and jugak saiz, muat tak muat longgar tak longgar. Tapi semalam shopping shawl. mengidam shawlll sangat22222222.. nak beli shawl maroon, skin colour, soft pink, light green, and many more. tapi tu je yg ade dlm kepala skrg ni. Lau xbeli mesti terbayang2.. tapi nak yg murah . hahaha. biasela. I'm very picky when it comes to shopping. so semalam, i bought from an IG shop that Ive been following all this while. selama ni mampu tgk je sebab harge die mahal ya ampun !!!!! memang tgk jela kerja. tgk and like. tp smlm dia announce SALE. ape lgi, ptg tu dh siap2 save number. bile die dh letak kt catalogue, terus I pm. kihkih. So, basically just nk menceritakan kelegaan bile dpt shopping. setelah menahan diri dr shopping due to exam week and study week and also last week of class ! memang hectic sangat222 sampai nak pecah kepala den. okayy, doakan Ain dpt jawab 6 papers sem ni. first paper on 24/12/2016 and today is 22/12. lets get started ! Bismillah ~
sincerely Miss LOL

Friday, 2 December 2016

Adab Meminta Tolong XD

This post is not dedicated to anyone, but I guess I really need to write a bit about the 'adab' since I feel like most of the people who are seeking for help mostly not seeking the real 'help' ( I mean they DONT really need the help, they are just too lazy to do it and not asking for help, but rather force ppl to help )

Okay, mcm ni. nak cerita serba sedikit pasal people who love to ask for my help. tapi don't get me wrong. seriously, I love to help people and I realise yg sometimes I really think hard to solve people's difficulties and even sacrifices my time or energy for them. tapi rasenyer org misuse my willingness and often tak consider pon bile mintak tolong. 


cara mintak tolong tu x macam mintak tolong pon.

it sounded like this :

"boleh tak kau tolong fotostat 10000 pages nota ni? aku xde mood lah hari ni nak pegi kedai fotostat"

"boleh tak kau bukak website ni, pastu tolong snap gambar tu pastu antar kat aku. cepat sikit wei. aku nak guna ni. ... .... wei asal xdapat lagi ni??????? aku tunggu ni.. online je kau ni.... "

"weh teman aku pegi tandas. teman aku pegi kedai tu, kedai ni. teman ak balik kampung. teman aku kemanaaa sahajaaaaaaaaaaa. transport kau bayar sendiri muahahahhahahaha "

Okay, maybe my example mcm hyperbola sgt kot. tapi points dia kat sini, the help that people ask mostly macam :

1) memaksa untuk buat

2) tak consider orang tu boleh tolong ke tak, free ke tak

3) tanya banyak kali, bertubi tubi..

4) still tanyaa even orang tu dah buat muka reluctant and dah tolak


okayy, so heres a few list of adab in requesting help from others.

firstly,,,, lau nak mintak tolong orang, tanya duluuu sama ada orang tu available tak free tak pastikan dia free dluuu before u go forward asking help from her. so that, kau pon xde terbagi harapan kat dia.... 

next,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, reconsider duluu help kau tu.. memanggg perlukan pertolongan ke? memang tak mampu nak buat sorang ke?  fikir banyak kaliiii.... sebab nak susahkan orang nii... kena simpatiii jugak. huhu. jgn terbiase mintak tlg, be independent.. 

pastuu, kalau orang yg kau ask help tu mcm  reluctant and xdpt tlg, jgnla pakse lagi.. jangan la buat die rase besalah xtlg.. make sure u dont do that. lau mcm pesen aku ni, ak jenis mudah rase bersalah. pstu, org mmg suke buat ak rse mcm tu. smpai kekadang, ak buat dngn terpaksa. huwaaa. nak pahala. tp jgn la mintak tolong kasaq2 and paksa. bg org suke rela tolong gittew.   

last but not least, kena tahu yg orang yg kau selalu mntk tlg tu ade masa utk diorg sendiri, dah organize hidup diorg sndiri. n kau xleh sewenang2 nye nk ubah planner diorg dgn pegi isi aktiviti "teman kau" "tolong kau" tuuu ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


"BERPADA PADALAH MEMINTA TOLONG :) "








sincerely Miss LOL

Monday, 22 August 2016

mati

Cuti kali ni or apparently bulan ni, aku banyak dengar pasal kematian. kematian sanak saudara, kematian saudara kawan kawan dan sebagainya. dah empat kematian yang aku dah visit. 3 from sedara + kawan mak aku, satu from ayah kawan aku. tak kurang jugak berita pasal orang yang ditimpa penyakit, contohnya kawan mak aku, baru find out kena kanser usus. yang accident pon banyak jugak. seram sangat. sometimes, pernah jugak aku mintak mati. hmm, ni pendek akal namanya. bile aku rase sedihh sgt or rase mcm the whole world doesnt need and love me, i think the best way is to die. -_- tapi xdela serious sgt smpi make efforts to end my life. just terfkir mcm tu.. tpi bile ditarbiah balik diri ni, ramai yg mati skrg ni mintak nk dikmbalikan kedunia. nak tebus balik dosa dosa lalu.. aku boleh imagine situasi tu. just like when u committed the sins, and you really regret with those sins, and mmg really2 want to putar balik masa dan tak buat. so mcm tula lbih kurang dgn org yg dah mati mintak hidup. both impossible. kite just boleh bertaubat n mintak Allah ampunkan dosa tu. bile kite selalu keep in mind such things, kite mmg takkan buat silap. tp tulah masalahnya. bile buat, tak ingat pulak benda2 ni.. im so terrified. i wish to die but am i ready ? x kan. so lepas ni, kena always be prepared untuk mati. elakkan buat dosa dan tingkatkan amal ibadah. kadang2, dosa yg kite buat tu, kite xnampak pun and kite sedar xsedar je buat. contohnye, dengki or bersangka buruk.. mostly benda ni berkait ng friends and family. lau ng family tu, rase xdisayangilah rse disisihkan la dan sebagainye. kdg2 tu baik xyah fikir la, buat serabut kepala je. truskan idup, buat kerja elok2, janji ade tmpt berteduh. gittew. lau kawan tuuuuuuuuuu, kawan kan ramai. kawan je ng semua. lau ad yg xbrp nak ikhlas tu, ramai lagi kan yang ikhlas. ok bai. nk tlis psl benda lain lak.
sincerely Miss LOL

Tuesday, 26 July 2016

Alhamdulillah sangat Allah kurniakan kerajinan kali ni nak menaip. walhal dari zaman ramadhan dan awal syawal lagi, bertimbun timbun dah citee nak taip kat sini. tp dek kerja rumah yang tak pernah habis plus malas lagi nak bukak laptop, sambung charger pe sume.. most of the stories mampu taip dalam otak je.. mostly pendahuluan je siap. yes, i wrote them in my mind.so antara yang aku nak cakap maybe pasal rezeki aku sejak cuti, mood yang swinging, rasa tak dihargai, rasa nak bercuti, rasa nak berjimat, cut off shopping, pondering about my future, treating my face and losing some weight. Fuhh, bnyak kan? tu baru some of them, oh yeah nak belajar menjahit, memasak, jadi wanita yang lemah lembut, ada ciri2 kewanitaan yang lelaki nak, no more childish, no more silly jokes and no more ugly appearance .

Ok, we begin with rezeki. hurm.. sedihla nak cakap pasal rezeki ni. cuti kali ni, rezeki aku macam kurangla. bukan nak cakap pasal xbersyukur ke ape tau. tapi, contohnya la, aku cari kerja di tesco, kb mall, billion, mydin and many more places.. semua tu reject aku. omgee. so memang ak menganggur sepanjang cuti tiga bulan ni. hu hu. so nampak kan xde rezeki part cari kerja ? so im jobless and moneyless. pastu ak ceritaa laaa kat si Nazhan ni. sape Nazhan ni? ekekekeke pujaan ati kitew la. yg comel2 manja tu. hu hu. pastuuu die pon citeee laa, die pon same jobless ng akuu. tp rezeki die murah jee kt umah. pastu die soal aku, aku ni bersedekah ke tak? aku pon mcm trfkir, sedekah ni byk jnis en. lau aku ni, ak bersedekah pakaian dan kasut mcm tu laa. pastu ak trfikir, mybe rumah aku ni selalu je buang mkanan.bukan la buang, tp makanan basi la , terperap lame dalam peti la. mcm tu jee. bknla mkanan aku pon.tp family and tetamu yg dtg suke tggl mkanan dlm peti. umah ak peti xelok sgt dan kecikkk gila. so xmuat la banyak2. and aku ni pulak bibik kt rumah. the one yg kemas every single thing in house include kemas peti, kosongkan sink and more. so mostly aku la yang pembuang rezeki tu. even ak pon mmg sedih and frust dgn benda2 yg terpakse dibuang. nak makan pon dah basi, berkulat hapee dah. kangg tercirit plak. so basically, moral dr cerita Nazhan tuu , kite kena bersedekah dan jangan berkira. die biase sedekah kt masjid tiap kali solat Jumaat. aku ni plak perempuan en so jrg p masjid. ok no excuses Ain Irdina. so ayuhla bersedekah kepada yang memerlukan and tanamkan niat nak tolong orang dan semoga rezeki yang Allah bagi ni halal dan berkat. 


Pasal mood swinging tu, aku xtau laa kenapa aku ni emo smcm jee. mungkin aku annoyed or mybe adakah ini perangai aku yang sebenar? oh no, nauzubillah, ok senang cite la en, ak cam geram n annoyed tgk aku jeee buat keje umah.. its ok buat keje umah. tapi org mcm wat dek je, mcm worsening je. like kau kemas ,at the moment kau kena berleter lagi suruh orang kemas and jgn sepahkan. contohnye, baju kotor letak dlm bakul, tuala sangkut lepas mandi, lepas kuar tandas tutup lampu, baju yg dah dilipat simpan dalam almari.. kasut susun leklok. yer, aku emo benda remeh kan. but benda senang kan? you all can do it. pastu aku jadi annoyed jgk sbb aku rase ppl see me as someone yg tegas, suke berleter n so on. n mcm aku ni lebih plak dr mak aku. sbb mak ak tak tegas. hu hu. maybe ad tegas die but not at house chores. so mmg part tu aku handle. rase mcm dah jadi mak pon ade. ok so aku harap those yg read this paragraph n jenis sepesen mcm adik2 aku ni, tlglaa jd responsible for small things ok? kasihanilah kakak mu. even die sulung, even die hold the largest responsibilities, help her by reducing the burden. adik2 pon sume dah besau kot :") but now im a bit ok, sbb bile ak tgk mak ak byk jatuh sakit lately and mcm sgt bergantung aku tlg die bereskan hal rumah, aku rase cm mak ak hargaila aku en. ak pon patut tlg laa kurangkan beban die and lebihkan bersabar . niat ikhlas, and percaya if kau ikhlas Allah akn bg ganjaran yg lg besar and tlg aku later. in shaa allah. stick to that points la kot, and kau akan kuat and seronokk je buat keje umah. mak aku banyak kali demam baru2 ni. and Nazhan dlu salu laa pesan suh picit2 mak kite even xdisuruh ke ape. ak mmg jaranglaa urut mak ak lau die xsuruh sbb mak aku ni jarang sakit n die mmg power urut2. bleh buang angin sume. so tringtkan pesanan Nazhan tu, aku urut mak aku.smpai menguap2.. alhamdulillah, even aku xtau die rase relieve ke x, but listening ppl appreciating ur efforts was such a relief ! even lau kite buat pape, kite kena expect nothing. ade org xkan ckp tq, xkan appreciate and so on. kite kena niat ikhlas je. but yeah, kite manusia , we tend to expect a thing even only a thanks ! barula rase mcm alhamdulillah, menjadik jugak aku urut, die lega sikit ak urut or something like that .K. xD


Sori sebab panjang lagi. wtv la kan, bukannye ramai readers pon. paling sikit pon, aku sndiri gak yg bace. keh3. pastu, aku sekarang memang nekad ya Allah sies aku nekad tak nak shopping dahhhh ! tolonglaa Ain stop shopping. stop rase nk beli benda comel ke ape unless benda tu PERLU and YOU DONT HAVE IT YET. aritu tgk kasut berkenan. td tgk beg kate spade berkenan. ya ampun. ak sbnrnye kena sedar , aku xde duit and aku kena start kumpul duit dr skrg. sbb aku nak kawen awal. hahahaa so probably lau nak kawen lepas keje tuu , tipis la sbb ak ni jauh lg perjalanan nak habis belajar. mungkin 3/4 tahun lagi. 2019 baru nk kawen.. umor 24,25 baru nk kawen. huwaa. mmg jodoh tak lari. tapii tulaa. ok tu mslh aku kot sbb tringin nak kawen. best sgt ke kawen tu? kwn ak ad yg xnk kawen. akuuu entahlah. berangan je lebih. tp in shaa allah nk kawen awal.nk kumpul duit. nak kerja part time mse cuti.. tapi cuti ni kite halal2 jela eh. hahaha burn 3 bulan. xpe ain. byk lg cuti, kite kerja betul2 yer. jgn malas2. nak kawen jgn malas. nak kawen jgn spend duit tuu. BERJIMAT WOI. huhu. kau dah ad byk kasut. beg,baju , skirt n semuaaaa.. gune je yg mane ade.. biarlaa adik2 kau tu nk shoping sakan.jgn peduli ! biarla diorg xnak dgr. diorg da besar dah.. fokus on urself.. be a better u. u re what u re in future. u r the resemblance of ur kids and hubby. <3 ok moral of this paragraph, simpan duit, berjimat, jgn shopping, bykkan part time, jgn spent, berkira la skit bab shoping tu ok simpan duit. simpan simpan simpan ! yeayy n kawen dgn prince charming. huhu .


 pondering about future ek? yela aku baruu je tuka course BENL english course.. ingt nk buat minor IT... n mybe mase degree still pnjg while kwn2 oversea kau dah kerja, dah bleh beli kereta, rumah n kawen. ok xpe ain. kite kuat, tabah, sabar. n yakin aturan Allah itu ade hikmahnye. so aku hrp byklaa keje ak bleh cri with sijil dgree mcm ni with benda yg aku minat sejak kecik. doakan yer. :')


treating my face and losing some weight. muke alhamdulillah, makin membaik sgtttttttttttt even still xflawless. kna rajin cucimuke, pakai skrub, pakai sunblok and pakai ubat jerawat, and also detox ! nk jogging tu xrajin lagi. bilaa la nak buang toksik thru exercises. pastuu berat badan en. mmg laa maintain kan, tp selera tu bertambah and pipi makin melebar and thigh gap dah kurang.. aiyoo mmg kna kurangkan nasi n ganti ng oat. hopefully it works la. sbb oat mmg sedap mcm nasik !  sies. cube laa mkn oat berlauk. just tuka nasik kpd oat. lauk same je. #ops 


pastuu cuti berbaki sebulan lagii.. sies bosan gilee asyik repeat benda same je kt umah. paling best pon weekend, adik2 balik , kuar ng kawan, borak2 ng mak or nenek (tu pon kalau rajin tido kampung) and driving. tu jela hiburan aku. nk tgk tv malas gile, xtgk pon sgt tv. haha. mmg mama kate hobi ak ni lipat kain. LOL . ma, ain buat ni dgn hrapan mama doakan ain sokmo n ain nk jd anak yg solehah. ckp psl solehah ni, ain tlglaa jgn tgk jee mama bgun pg2 tahajud. p laa join sekali. pemalasnyeee ain skrg.. pastu mintak mcm2. nak kawen ng laki soleh la, nk duit la, nk flawless la, nk peaceful mind laa. efforts tuu kena tunjuk. mintak saje xjadi Ain oi. rajin smyg sunat ok? so ak dh byk amik no yg tlis jtwn kosong, ingtnye nk mntk lg la keje en. tp kwn ak dh give up , n org xnak pakai part time sebulan je. n bulan ogos ni byk plan actually. so mcm xleh la nk commit keje sebulan kot. so Ain, pasrah jela xdpt keje en. ak ingt sebulan ni nk bljr menjahit. trtarik plak dgr cerita Hijrah td psl a girl jahit and baking for her boyfriend. highlight psl the girl yg ade skill baking n sewing. nak bakat sewing tuu. nk jahit skirt, blouse, jubah, dress and shawl. ! bantal pon nak gak. ingt nak berguru ng kubis, senang sikit. mudah faham sikit. tp x tny lg kubis. entah sudi entah tak.  


Ok, last but not least pasal memasak. hahahahaha. ok mmg kali ni mmg rajin gilee ak blajar n menyalin n mendengar mak aku ajar psl masak. tgk mama masak tp most of the time tlg basuh and potong ayam, ikan, sayur je. pstu tlis2 mase mama masak. masak sndiri were just kari ayam , tomyan and butter chicken.. tomyam je xbrp power lg . kna berguru ng kubis. pstuu ad bljr buat puding n triffle n mcm2 puding. tp sempat buat sendiri puding caramel je. ingt nk bljr congo bars and brownies lak. doakan sy istiqamah hokey. next post, lau rajin (doakan) nak share resipi2 memasak. nnt lau aku nak masak, bleh jenguk blog sendiri. alhamdulillah, ap yg terbuku dh trluah. ad 2 lg cite. psl resipi n psl Addah pny jodoh. best cite die. nnt next post. toodles !



sincerely Miss LOL

Sunday, 22 May 2016

gaining weight .

Kalau dulu, aku boleh je terime if org kate aku ni kurus la, slim la kering la even xdela smpi mcm tu sgt. or org kte mkn byk tp berat tak naikla. tp skrg ni, xramai dh kate mcm tu. maybe obvious sgt kot aku dah naik berat badan. pipi dah terase kembang skit. paling parah bile dah takde thigh gap. dulu ak xpenah pon nak amik kesah dgn "thigh gap" "pipi chipmunk" "double chin" yg most of girls salu emphasize dlm caption diorg. malahan, ak rse diorg tu exaggerate je. walhal, xnampak tang mane chubby , chipmunk nye. skrg ni, ak dah rase takut. selera time time ni, bukan main. bkn selera mkanan mahal or hipster or yg xberkhasiat tu. im more to nasik. nasik nasik nasik. lau duk UIA, nasi due kali. kalau balik rumah, tiga kali shari. tu xinclude tambah nasik @ amaun nasik yg ak senduk . huhuhu .. sies, xrase dh slim2. dah buncit dah skrg ni. berlapis2 rase perut. xnakkkkkkkkkkk gain weight. weight dah normal dah ni.. tp knp mls jogging ek? dlu tahan la jgk. mungkin sebab cuace? kurang galakan oleh masyarakat sekeliling? *cari alasan. pdhl ade je org ajak tiap2 ptg. ak ni yg xnk matahri sgt.. ingt org nak ke lau xde sunburn?????? byk lg karakteristik lain yg org tgk utk jdi isteri pilihan.. ak suke tgk girls yg join scout, hiking, buat aktiviti mencabar gittew.. kagumm. diorg xtakut panas. hehehe. aku plak pantang ade matahari.. huhu.. 

so bulan ni aku rase mcm dahsyat sgt sbb makan byk sgt. pizza (banyak kali), sushi, kfc, nasi mandy, chicken rice shop,nasi lemak, nasi ng keli tu xyah citer la kan, nasi goreng pon byk jenis. huhu asyik nasik je. ad try skali mkn kuey tiaw. tp kena sambung esok nya pulak .huhu.. so mmg ain dan nasik tiada terpisah. bahayanya nasik ni is calory die tinggi. lebihnye ain ni, die xminum air manis.. tp , still rase berlemak dah diri ni...

so, my target for this ramadhan, selain dpt tingktkan amal ibadah, dihrpnyer ain manfaatkan ramadhan ni utk kurangkan pemakanan, jgn jd pelahap and pelapar n sewaktu dgnnye. jgn tamak. jgn membazir,, makan jgn smpi kenyang. kena sebelum kenyang. ok bai. MISI TURUN 3 KG ! chaiyokkk !
sincerely Miss LOL

Thursday, 14 April 2016

I cant brain with these people --'

Seriously, I don't know why A has to hate B. hate? I can't find a suitable word for it. A seems to be okay with B in Instagram, but she acts differently at other social medias. She seems to hate B so much, I mean she can't accept her for being so close with me. That makes me want to be closer you know -_______________- I don't want to say this, but I want to highlight that please don't judge people based on their appearance, the way they dress up, the length@ width of their tudung. 

How can she leave lots of comments at a guy's pic with such "seeking attention" contents? She wear tudung labuh, bla bla bla ..

How can she tweet with such rude words, saying bad things about others without realizing ppl will see them? She attends usrah, talks and even recite du'as every time. She got so jealous when people doing exciting activities without her and mad at them.

How can a girl be so cheap , how can she text the guy, dm the guy, ask for number, flirt with many guys................................... and the lists go down. 

Have you heard such things before ?


As for me, I did say that too, but I realize we can't blame their attires or their ritual activities if they still do those things. People cant escape from making mistakes. But, they should hide it instead of expose them in public. It is such a shame you know.. I hope that you, who appear like ustazah to act the way you dress. I know, it sounds like an order. but, you're being like this for almost three years. please change before more people get annoyed with you. ( change means, stop being jealous, stop posting rude words, stop hating my friend for being clingy with me, stop stop stop !!!!!!!!!!!! in other words, just stop doing that to me and people around me. if you want to be jealous or sulk, just please not me) I'm tired. A good friend is a friend who understands you, accepts you , knows you , appreciates you. I know, I'm a kind of person who easily get attached with someone. and I know I cant please all of you. I also need time for myself and my family. What I'm telling you is, if we already went outing for that weekend, please don't say"sampai hati tak ajak" " tak tahu pun" "bile nk kuar ng aku plak" or any words that give the same meaning lah ! Judge me if you think I'm mean but you don't know what I feel at that moment. I spent my last weekend for you, and the next weekend for my other friends. Im being fair, cant you see? I'm not yours. I'm just your friend,just like others. Please be thankful , grateful as I did find time for you :) please, please understand me. If you want me to be with you for the whole weekend, please sponsor me NOT the other way round. I'm not pointing to anyone, but if you feel you're doing so. don't tell me. don't make me feel guilty. Just change for good. Its not good for me, but good for everyone. kbai


sincerely Miss LOL

Tuesday, 29 March 2016

alhamdulillah

Dah lama dah tak update blog since baru baru ni busy nak midterm kot or nothing to be shared. and busy sangat sambut birthday baby March. seriously, tak penah expect pon ramai kawan yang lahir bulan March. maka penuhla ig ku dengan gambar diorang. Antaranya termasuklah Sumayyah, Shyahirah, Pia, Ili, Epul, Wani, Dolly, Kak Dena, Tiyah, pastu budak2 kelas 5 Ammar ; Mas, Ijek, Timoh, Ica dan budak2 course IT ; Meyna and sape lagi tah xingat. ramai sangat.



Sumayyah's
Shyahirah's

Pia's


Despite all of this happiness, ingatkan penat lelah March ni just for birthday celebration. hehe. rupenya ade lagi kebahagiaan Allah nak bagi. Tapi serious , seriously rase nak nangis sebab terharu dan happy sgtla. cant describe and i cant even express it with action and words. just hrap sgt this thing might end in proper way :")

MY CRUSH LIKES ME TOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ye, I thought he wasnt serious towards me. So, act mcm biase la kan. ignore je, sebab serious bab2 perasaan ni lau deal ng someone yg kite mmg serious kt dia, lau die nk main2 i wont layan. sbb sakit tu perit. Tak nak dah layan layan perasaan main2 ni. I like him a lot, not just for temporary but permanent of course . dah 21 kot , takkan nak cari yang x elok kan. So, mcm ni la alkisahnya. .

Satu malam tu, agk midnight la , we use to chat at midnight sbb aku mmg xkcau dia siang hari or awal mlm coz dis guy is kaki studi and agk pandai la actually. so xnak la heret die membazir mase ng aku.lgpon aku bukanla ade topik sgt nk berbual lame2. then, mlm tu die ws, asking opinion mcm mne nk tau org benci kite ke x. pastu ak potpet2 n die habaq yg die ad mntk tlg smone tu, tp org tu mcm kasar2 kt dia but still tlg die. so he assumed that the guy msti xsuke die. alolo cian my crush -_-
and and and duk hurai psl "how to know whther ppl hate u or not" die suddenly kuar dr topik. and said that magic words to me. yer tiga perkataan tu. 143 . and I ignored it at first and continued babbled about the matter. pastu die ckp he doesnt know what he felt at the moment, he likes me but at the same time, he rejects me. pastu die pon ckp sorry  sorry sorry lalalalalala ~~~~~~~~  pastu, die pon ckp gak dont expect sweet2 things from him as he keeps it for marriage. tak tahula maksud kahwin tu kahwin ng aku ke general kan. so please dont go over the moon ain hiks ! tapi at least, crush suke balik tu kira syokla kan. korang hado? hahah ! then hari yg berbunga2 xberlalu smpai la skrg. :") Thanks ! I got nothing special but Ill try to do my best to be by your side, listening to ur sadness and happiness. baru baru ni kan cuti mid sem, and mase nak balik ke kampung masing2 tu, kebetulan kitorang contact. mase tu die xconfess lagi la. just bercia cia je tp tu pon improvement dh la. die dulu cold kot. ws pon kkdg je balas , ignore n sepatah2 je jawab. sabar kan aku suke org mcm ni? coz I am sure he has somthing spcial that he hides. ye ye je kan. dah suke tu mstila cakap benda baik je kan. xnampak dah buruknya. huhu. . Okayy continue,, we went to the same place, Kl sentral. die smpi lewat skit, so ak dh mkn time tu. n die terlepas train yg pukul 12.30. train strusnya kul 5. hehe. then aku teman die mkn. ohh ada akma sekali time tu. so bertiga okayyyy.  teman die makan kt kfc je. eventhough krik2, mmg aku jmp die tu teman die makan semata2. xcakap pon, die sibuk dk scroll 9gags n gelak sorang2. ak tny2 baru die jwb. tp die comel je hihihi. walau xckp byk pon, ak da ckup happy sbb dpt la face to face ng dia. mase nk jmp tu, bkn main lame lg ak mundar mandir dk fikir nk pegi ke x nak pegi ke x. peluang xdtg salu kot. kt uia, nk trsmpak pon susah, apetah lg nk betegur sapa. xtaula knp ng die ni, i was a bit nervous. a bit la sgt. rase mcm byk. lau dlu ,die tgur pon ak da xtau nk ckp ape. -_- padahal tgur tny bnda bkait ng kelas je. lau trsmpak pon aku lari. Auww pemalunya Ain . so not me right? okay , lps teman mkn kt kfc, pegi surau solat2 n xjmp dah pastu. waktu cuti midterm xws sgt pon sbb duk rumah kan. hari ketige kt rumah ak ws, tu pon sptah je ws n spth je die jwb. pastu mase die balik uia, baru kitorg ws lame sikit.LOL.  okay, xtahula korang rase benda ni happy ke tak but I to me, aku happy la jgk, sbb slame ni org yg nak kt aku, aku xnak. this time, ak nak, org nak jgk. so happy a bit. but kitorg kawan je ni even hopefully, perasaan tu ade la. maintain aku kau je hokayyyyyy.. still msg malam je. xmsg lame2 mcm org len pon n xbergayut pon. Im fine with this better. lgpon memasing ade life kan :) Pray for us hikhik <3


Muke happy hihi :P














sincerely Miss LOL

Sunday, 21 February 2016

Shopaholic

I have to admit that my bad habit is getting nauseating lately. What is it? The bad habit of  "can't see cheap things are sold" . When I see them and I think I afford to own it, I will buy it undoubtedly. I tried to prevent myself from buying them, some stuffs were saved from becoming my victims. But some were not. Luckily, I'm not that fan of shoes. So, I managed to control myself from buying more shoes. haa, and the skirts too !No longer buy them because I realize that I'm too lazy to iron them and end up wearing the only jeans that I'm comfortable in it. Hiks. For the bag, I failed. I bought cath kidston sling bag last week. It was the most expensive bag that I ever bought for myself. below rm50 okayy, at least.. But, I accidentally bought baymax sling bag (sling bag again) though the colour is maroon, not pink or white. but it is baymax. So I bought it -_- . n still, I can't forget the dirt cheap items that I didn't purchase from that garage sale. Where is the old me???????? who is very stingy to buy lots of stuffs, I used to use one item until it rots itself. but now, I tend to buy and keep them for future use . Hahahaha ! I asked my friend "how to prevent myself from reminsicing the items that I didn't buy?" She said, buy them sooner -________- Okayyy, there's no solution. I knew the solution is "don't step to such places , where the sales are happening . But still, I got the feeling that it would be awful to not buy items with low price. Grab the chances !!! said the heart.. hurmmmmmmmmmm... And for now, I am very sure that I'm gonna stop shopping for awhile as I know my savings is getting lower days by days. So, let's put a halt. But, I have to go out for other weekend to celebrate jiji's birthday and also meet Supi for the last time before he return to Queesland. and also sending off Jiji to Japan on 19th March . So everythin requires money, for the fare and food. Emm, it's okay for those stuffs, just cut off the shopping budget. No more shopping for clothes !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no more new bags. new shoes, new accessories except fare and food. and last but not least, try to avoid people who ask you to eat at expensive places or go to expensive places just for the views and galoks. No watching movies at cinemas (still succeeded to avoid this place on previous sem) No no for that. Prioritize the highlighted one ! Okayy. May this target come true <3
sincerely Miss LOL