dah perlu fikir pasal jodoh ker ?????

ade laa satu statement aku bace from a friend of mine, he wrote 

"dah kena cari jodoh ke kat Gombak?"

Gombak ni is a place for most UIA students yg degree la. sy masih stuck kt Pj. so xperlu kot nak fikir sal jodoh. tp kena fikir gk la kot. 

tgk most 1995 batch ni sumee dh ade partner masing2 kan.,.. siap status ig or wassap pon psl pakwe/makwe masing2.. semoga hubungan korang till jannah and paling penting, jejak ke alam perkahwinan tu. hahaha. yelaaa bercinta bagai nak rak. 

pastu, di usia sebegini pon lau nak bercinta sgt la kan, korang dah xleh nak bercinta monyet2 dah.kapel putus kapel putus. orang sekarang ni nak cari the real one dah. xde dh nak pakai buang sume. so be matured. jgn dk pasang due tige empat.. ni ad sorang kwn kpd kwn sy ni duk pasang tige laki senyap2. ya rabbi.sedih btul dgr . sian puak2 laki yg kena tipu tu.. moga one of them terpilih la.. 
nak cakap partner pon, rase mcm xsesuai je coz i dont have such special one pon. tp ad la sorang laki ni yg emm ade la.. we'll see soon. peace..

tahun ni, memang sy niat dh xnak contact ng sorang laki ni. so mase 31 dis aritu,sy nekad blok dh wasap die.sbb die duk sibuk mengade nk mengorat eventhough the whole world dah tau die tu ad gf. pastu tibr2 dtg wassap kate rindu cinta and tahik ape lar.. xsedar ke dh ade awek.so drp die xnak move on from me, so i stepped out from his life.nnt xdela kena ng awek die dah.sblum ni pon penah kena.tp time diorg dah clash la. tuptup kapel balik. ish3.. ikut korangla. yg pasti my heart dah trtutup utk laki2 yg bajet hot and jenis layan sume girl kt media social. lau boleh, nk cari laki yg xde twitter, instagram and sume la.. wujud ke mslhnyer? tp diri sendiri ni pon ade instagram, cane nk cri org camtu. kite nak yg baik, so kite pon kena la jd baik.. i did spend a night deleting gmbr yg teruk sgt kt ig. sbb kdg2 posting my ugly pose, actually humiliating myself jugak -_________- doakan one day i will sedar n buang account ig.skrg xsedar diri lg. sedar skit je.. 

pastu ad satu lg malam, my bestfriend laki ni , die duk citer yg awek die yg sblum ni tudung labuh dah berjinak2 pki tudung xlabuh. eventhough to me, dh labuh dh. cume die ckp,nampak susuk tubuh. and die rase kecewala.n he said too dont blame him if he likes other girls kt uia yg much more labuh tudungnyer.. ya rabbi, mase tu i feel so ashamed with myself . sbb selama ni kite pki tudung dh tutup dada n rase dh secure.tp rupenye ad gk lelaki yg mghrpkan lagi labuh. ni la lau duk uia kan, laki laki sumee nk yg serba molek. naseb baik kwn ak ni mmg org tau , die sememangnyee baik.so i hope the best for him.semoga awek die kembali pki tudung labuh tutup susuk tubuh jugak :) in shaa allah ,, kite yg 20 thun ni, xdpt nak pki selabuh mungkin pon, jgn pki baju ketat yg nampak susuh tubuh and pki tdung labuh tutup tmpt yg diken\hendaki. jgn pki tudung atas dada.. bak kate kema "style org bandar laa, jnis pki tudung ats dada".. Nauzubillah, semoga kite xterbukak ati utk expose that things. pffft -___________-  phm x ap yg sy bebelkan ni? hehehe

so conclusionnyer, xtau laa ptut fikir psl jodoh ke x.. korang rase????? bak kate kubis, kite kena hbiskan belajar dluu.. get a job. bru bleh nk berangan, nk dptkan laki kaye or nk goyang kaki je time kawen. lgpon , to me canelaa nk ngorat k\org2 kaye if kite pon xde ape2 speciality. keep prayingggg guys for the best jodoh.. mama pesan, mase muda ni laa nk doa utk dpt jodoh baik2.. in shaa allah mama. ain akn xlupe utk doa dptkan jodoh yg baik yg dpt jage ain .. 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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20 years old already

2015 and im now 20 years old. no more teen . 

problemnyer sekarang ni, nak pack barang bwk g uia tu, smpi tak terpack. konon kusut giler nak berubah masuk 20 ni. xnak bawak benda kartun la ape la. nak kurangkan pink la dan sebagainyaa.yg xtahannye duk memperagakan beg tangan my mum. acah2 dewase.. smpi mia pon ckp, "mg 20 doh eh? tua nyoo mg.. " ya Allah rase cm xcaye jee dh tua. ni la org kate tua tak sedar diri. sedih gk la sbb still xleh move on dr usia muda ni.. nk plih baju pon smpi kena cri yg kosong. masalahnyee xde baju kosong2. sume yg kiut2 and ade renda.. ade kawan laki tu, siap pesan lg " tahun ni ak xnak tgk ang bwk beg tahun lepas.. xkan nnt da kawen pon nk prangai cm budak jugak" siap offer nk teman bli handbag lagi -_________- 

tapi pagi ni, since dh dpt bukak laptop n dah bleh menulissssss. so i made up my mind to just be myself. buat apelaaa aku nak buang duit beli baju baru or beg baru semate2 umur baru ni. pakai jela ap yg ade..bukannye org tau your age. but tp kena la ubah skett even sket jee. kwn2 msti tau kite da tua kan. so kena cut down hello kitty stuffs. huhu.. and be more matured. xleh duk buat lawak bodoh sgt dh nnt. nnt xde laki la yg nk amik jadi bini. bak kate kubih " penyekk anok".. hahaha..

selain drp pemakaian, yes mase ni pon dah kena praktis masak and lebih berdikari. kena dependent dah.. kite xtau ap yg akn trjadi pd mase akn dtg.. mama pon salu dk ckp, nnt mama pon akn tggl sek awk.mama tua dah. papa xdok doh. ya Allah, i hate listening to that statement. xtaulaa cane my life is mama dh xde nnt. aku and my bro masih kecik. cane nk urus ahmad billy mia betty yg masih skolah lagi. sape nk byr gaji bibik.. sape nk tgk2 kan abah n umi kt kampung nnt.dengan ak yg xreti drive lagi.. pernah x korang terfkir utk khilangan mereka diusia muda? so sape2 yg msih ad parents.be grateful n jgnlaa dk manje sgt smpi xsume benda still depend on parents. im sad but what else can i do. i pray that my mum dipanjangkan umur, dikurniakan kesihatan and dpt tgk kami sume kerja ,dpt anak n sbgainyer.. sedih nyerr rase.. nak dpt kerja yg elok2, biar mampu nak sara keluarga.. hemm talking about marriage, sy nak kawen kt umah ni.. kt kota bharu ni. sbb mama n my aunty duk planning buat rumah kt tanah panji.. sbb rumah skrg ni , umah pusaka.dibahagi tige adik bradik.so enttahlaa. i wish i can buy this house. coz i love this house so much.byk sgt kenangan dlm rumah ni.hopefully, rumah baru yg xbuat lg tu,xsiap2 smpi la aku kawen dlu. hehee. tp nk kawen lmbt lg ni, degree p0n xlagi. jauhnyee ak fikir kan. xpela.. sekadar nk meluahkan rase syg trhdp rumah ni.. i love you Noorani Villa. :) 

anyway, selamat berusia 20 tahun kawan2... 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Phewww Finally ...

Alhamdulillah finally dapat jugak bukak laptop ni.. ya allah , sgt bersyukur laptop ni masih boleh hidup.. ni jee one of tinggalan my dad for us... xnak bg die rosak even die ni besar n xsekiut laptop org lain . but  ireally appreciate things from my dad to us. ok let me see.. byk sgt nk posts and ckp but laptop ni bleh bukak on my last dsy im in kelantan. so maybe i will just talk about two things in two different posts in shaa allah.

1) azam 2015 and last sem for my foundation 

2) no more teen. i m already 20 years OLD

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sincerely Miss LOL

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im so glad to have you

Im so glad to have you.
Im so glad to be your daughter.
Im so glad that you are my father.

Everyone has their own dad right? No matter how you address him, he is the first guy that you met when you open your eyes .

xkuat sbnrnye nak tlis psl papa, sbb tu xde lg entri psl die sbb sy xkuat. yer sy akn brenti utk lap hingus, genyeh mate. bkn ayt hiperbola ke ape. you will face it when u re in my situation  :)

Sume org ade ayah. tp stiap org ad ayah lain2.. ade tuu, yg contact ayh die just utk mintak duit je. ade tuu contact ayh sbb nk suh ambik kt skolah or whateva. ade jgk yg xcare pon psl die coz they love their mum much better. selalu kite prhati org mention syg ibuu je.. sbbnyer, diorg kate ayh diorg keje je, n jnis yg xtny kbr cmtu. well u know that kind of father.. anak2 biasenye akn kol their mother, telling everything and most of the things in their life are shared to their mum . sehingga die terlupe die sbnrnye ade ayah. bkn ibu je.. hargailah ayahmu. xrugi pom suwit suwit dgn ayah sndiri :D

alhamdulillah, sy dikurniakan parents yg due2 care psl sy. yg sgttttttttttt penyayang. and to be honest is, my father is my mother too. they are just the same. due2 caring, due2 funny. and i know and i can feel that my father love mee soo much.. tp cara diorg tnjukkan kasih syg lain. so i wanna share my happiness of having my dad coz he is such the sweetest guy ever to me..

dari sy duduk asrama sejak form1 lg, he's the one who calls me everyday tak kire siang malam. dgn die la sy bgyut tiap hari kt tangga. sape yg jd rumet sy, will know dgn sape sy otp slalu. mama jarang kol.msg pon jarang. tp lau papa kol mase kt rumah, ade la mama selit2 ckp ng sy. tp most of the time, i talk with papa. ya allah sedihnye hny allah yg tau sbb my phone is no longer functioning for getting call sbb sokmonye papa je yg kol.. bkn sy nk mama kol pon haha tp papa lg byk topik lau nk otp. mama ni die more pnyayang kt rumah. lau mase bjauhan, papa won . lau xkol pon, mmg papa sntiase wassap.antr gmbr die selfi mase dialisis, antr gmbr mknan die. or antr gmbr mama if time tu diorg lunch together.lau papa xkol haritu or xwassap, yes there must be something wrong with him.ade skali tu die xkol, and i wassaped him , called him. and he told me dia demam. sian papa.. yer, mase papa kt kemboja pon papa wassap lg sy on his first day there.antr gmbr kt lobi hotel. n die kate die rase xsehat sbb temperature tinggi. hari2 lps tu, sy wassap lg tp xberbls. and i remembered i wassaped him " pa bkpo xbls?kuat shopping teh" something like that la sbb papa xbls. tu pelik tu. sbb papa ni waktu keje ke, outstation ke, pegi vietnam ke, hat nyai ke. he's always keep in touch with me.. rindunye !!!!!!!!!!! n tu la moment pling sedih sbb die demam teruk rupenye mase tu :(

sejak duk uia , so dikira berjauhan la kan dr family sbb umah kt kelantan. papa selaluuu je tny bile cuti bile cuti bile cuti. sibukk die nk belikan tiket flight. bknnye tiket bas . tiket flight. ade tu pernah tiket flight rm89, die kate murah. sy ni mmg jenis yg berkire skit. sbb tiket flight pernah ade rm49 lau nk blik kb kan.so sy prefer naik bas lg la if flight rm89 tuh..tp die tetap nk suh naik flight. sbb katenye jimat mase, bleh jumpe cepat. sape tak terharu kan. haih.. yer, sy slalu terharu dgn his actionsss..biler hbis cuti jer,, keesokannye msti tny cuti bilo pulok... n lau die dtg kl pon, msti die suh dtg tmpt die ad keje tu sbb nk jmp. die xreti dtg uia n xsempat pon nk tgk uia :'(. sy xkan lupe saat ini biler mlm tu sy naik bas n mase almost nk smpai tu fon mati sbb xde bateri.. smpi je kt stesen tuuu, sy pon kol mama gune public. mama pon ckp " papa xdok ko tu?adik dk stesen mano? papa g duo2 stesen doh siap trtido lg" kt kb ade due stesen. satu kt kota bharu and satu lg kt tesco. due2 nye jauh. bknnye dekat.so lps sy kol papa, papa pon amik sy dr bandar ke area tesco tu.. papa xde kate pape pon. siap ajak nk breakfast lg. as usual, syla peneman die mkn. tu pon naseb baik awake. lau hari2 biase, kdg2 xnyempat nk teman sbb xbgun lg. sorry pa.and dluuu sy xpenah sempat pon nk berlame2 kt stesen bas or airport sbb he will be there before i arrive at k.b.. sukenyer ya allah, rindu saat tu..and lps papa xde tu, mama amik kt stsen bas. mase duk tunggu mama tu, sy nanges je sbb tringt kt papa. and lps masuk kete, bgtau mama yg sy rinduu. mama pon tenangkan sy n ckp sorry takdi jammed. mmg mase tu jammed la.. and last cuti yg sy jumpe papa kt kb tu,sy ingt lg.. hari tu hari ahad.. flight sy kul 3 or 4 something la.. so sy pon tny la "pa, sapo yg antr ain arini? . papa pon jwb "papa lah" . "papa xkijo ko? " "papa amik cuti sbb nk duduk ng ain la. nnt ain nk g doh arini" . hahaha aku senyum jee. happy sgt. tp malang sgt sbb even die cuti ahad tu, die ade hal plak. kena pgi mne plak. so mase nk antr sy tu, die xlarat. die trtido. so mama antr. sempat salam n cium je kt bilik die. pa, ain rindu sgt papa... tlg rindu ain jugok pa.. ain sedih sgt papa xdok :'(

To be continued with more entries about my dad. dah basah sgt ni.takot mama perasan plak anak die nangis. ain kuat ain kuat.

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sincerely Miss LOL

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tiade yang sebaik payeh :')

recent post, ad ckp psl boyfriends kat uia kan. akhir2 nie, ade due org kawan laki ak ni, senyap jeeeee.. org wassap pon balas jarang je. lau dlu, menganggu jee keje. and i guess tgh dilamun cinta la tu kott smpi xnk bls msg kwn kan? yelaa , tgk sttus wasap pon bukan main berbunga lagi. dp wasap pon gmbr love2 je,,  ok ,  one of reasons why i dislike my friend who involve in love matter is, they prefer relationship rather than friendship. ade awek , trus lupe kwn kau yg byk menolong nih hah ? okay.. and now, ak pon senyapkan diri jgk. xwassap tny kbr dah. let see ... yes, ad sorang ni wassap. pastu,ak xreply die tny knape? pastu ckp sori lame xwassap .hmm , sori but seriouslym im upset . coz, in friendship i really give my full commitment to u guys, but why did i get in return ?  sorry, u guys cant compete with my only best friend since mrsm pc .. payeh, name yg mmg sinonim dh dlm hidup ku. sume org tau, he's my best buddy. mase bulan ogos baru ni, almost setiap minggu dtg uia. ye, mmg la bkn melawat ak saje, die lawat jeme jgk. tp stiap kali die dtg uia, kitorg jumpe.. dgr die cite mslh die.. yes, he needs a listener and he came to the right place :) and skrg, die dah start degree and xleh kuar kerap mcm seblum ni dah.. yes,living in upnm .. mmg fizikal n mental di dera. tabahlah sahabatku . u re always in my du'a .. a never ever replaced best boy-friend, Muhamad Norfaris b Che Noh . 

if someone really appreciates your presence, they will make time for u, not excuses. that what i learn in friendship . im facing lots of excuses here, but then i learn to differentiate between true friend and friend for reasons . which one is yours? the one that make ways or the one that make excuses ? :')

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sincerely Miss LOL

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this things also affect my mood

ACNE,PIMPLES,SCARS. huhhh disgusting things that keep appearing on my face.ok mls nk mbbebel dlm bahase inggeris.. sekarang ni, im using nour ain skincare again . ok please dont complain why im using this one back . im just trying to be loyal and stick to one... and mmg muke skrg ni, lg teruk drp mase form 5 and lagi teruk drp tahun lepas. teruk tu bkn la smpi xnampak muke sebenar, tp teruk tu sbb sbelum ni pernah memliki kulit yg flawless -__- and skrg ni. jrwt batu sukee naik kt area misai tu . hahaha. and me will picit laa sbb lau x, nampak mcm ade taik lalat kt situ. ceh. mcmla lau xpicit, xnampak kan. so mmg nampak n tggl parut kt situ. ya rabbi, berikan aku kesabaran utk tnggu muke ni kembali licin. possible kah ? satu hari ni, aku down giler. ya allah, rase bulan ogos tu byk sgt ke down nan nyerr.. i stalk someone's instagram. i did adore him. did. coz now im not into him anymore. he was flirting with other girl, yet she's kelantanese too. and he addressed the girl 'barbie', while the barbie adressed him prince charming. and my heart was ... okay, tlg fefeeling sendiri my feeling on that time.mmg girl tu mcm barbie pon, and tudung labuh. hahaha nak nangis ase. she is quite perfect from my view. and me? i was not perfect at all.. and that time, my self esteem is zero. and i told my roomate, im ugly, thats why nobody wants me. i will be forever single coz im ugly. mmg mase tu, down tahap ap.ase nk delete sgala benda yg boleh interact ng manusia, ase nk masuk dlm tanah je. teruk kan? astaghfirullah al azim. i was wrong to feel that way. i have Allah, and my life is not to be looked by ppl .its between me and Allah. please take lesson from my story and dont be like me.this is a 'sometime feelin' that i actually can control. its just , sometimes .. i cant .. sorry Allah for dustakan nikmatMu.. okay sambung balik. lepas tu, my roomate pon ckp.. <<ni ckp dlm wasap ni>> "awk nak ke kawen ng org yg suke sbb rupe?awk nk ke rse syg die tu sbb rupe je?rupe xkekal pon,nnt lmbt laun pudar jgk. ikut awkla if awk nk gitu.. ikut awkla.. .....". lameeeeeee fikir, ya Allah btul jgk rumet ak ckp. tp ade ke org xpndang rupe lgsung? ye lettuw. and i think that im gelojoh. yela, kite nmpk sume org dh jmp kekasih ati msing2, dh jumpe parents segala. yg ak ni plak calon pon xde, bapak mertua lg laa xde.. pdhl ak xperlu gelojoh.umur bru 19 thun. asasi pon xlepas lg.ingt ade nak ko? bljr dlu,kumpul kelebihan diri. nnt mak mertua tny, ap ko ade, nk jwb ap? huhuhu.. ye, aku ni gelojoh. pdhl ad bnda lain lg yg ak perlu utamakan. yes, my future.my studies, my families. yes, all this things will wash away that feeling to love someone. ye, mmg ak dah tak suke sape2 pon skrg ni sbb ak bukannye bersedia utk sume tu. now, ak hny mmpu mndgr cerita org. ad cite hepy, n ad jgk kisah sedihnye. yg bepisah pon ade. lame dh xade prasaan cmtu.Alhamdulillah,xlarat den nk tanggung sume tu balik. terkongkong. and im happy with my life, dikelilingi kawan yg annoying n yg xannoying.they all colour my life.so, lantak kaula jerawat nak naik nyer, i just hope that my jodoh xnampak jrwt tu, or accept my flaws coz i really got plenty flaws. :'( dh brusaha, n hny berserah pdMu Allah .

Sabarlah wahai hati . yes, ain sabar orangnye and thats why Allah puts me into this tests. In shaa allah :')

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Aku memang confirm xamik engineering .

Biasenye lau nak cakap pasal pelajaran,pointer,masalah belajar and all those things that related myself as a student,i would share it with my Papa and he will always be the one who listenED to my sadness and my stupidity .and aftr that, he would try to help me by giving spirits and a lot of ideas either to pursue study at somewhere else or etc. but now, seriously im blanked. coz i rarely tell my mum about my study's problems coz i am more to my dad if about study matter coz i guess my dad could help me solving it. hehehe. so, now there is new problem that i got when studying in this UIA. yes, i will never ask Mia to study here. let me be the only one who suffer here. seriously, im suffering here. i know.. Allah puts me here for some reasons. yes, somehow there are pros and cons . and the con here is, the foundation here is so long long long and yes its getting longer. -_____- today, me and my buddy, Hanis met academic advisor to get some advices regarding our physics marks that didnt fulfil the requirement for engineering's degree. and you know what, to repeat that subject, i have to extend this foundation till the end of next year.this means , my foundation is not 2 years. but 2 years and a half. dont ask why and how if youre not UIAN's coz you will be bored and never understand their system . well said, im not going to have engineering as my degree coz i wont extend my foundation which everyone who are in same age with me, already pursue their degree.. i feel so ashamed with myself. Hanis coaxed my very hard. she asks me to perform Istikarah if im really confused. yes, may Allah gives me hint coz i really need that right now. I dont know what to choose for my degree. plus, im not that intelligent to try and error other courses. i have to choose correctly coz degree is a big matter .hmmmmmmmm, sad isnt? Kubih and Ss are officialy degreeans. while me?still foundationian. ya Allah, if only they know how i feel right now. seriously upset and im more to just keep silent coz i dont want this problem to drag all my happy mood. guys, please pray for me. and accept me the way i am though im not as clever as you guys. from sad girl with a sad life XD

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sincerely Miss LOL

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