Sunday, 21 February 2016


I have to admit that my bad habit is getting nauseating lately. What is it? The bad habit of  "can't see cheap things are sold" . When I see them and I think I afford to own it, I will buy it undoubtedly. I tried to prevent myself from buying them, some stuffs were saved from becoming my victims. But some were not. Luckily, I'm not that fan of shoes. So, I managed to control myself from buying more shoes. haa, and the skirts too !No longer buy them because I realize that I'm too lazy to iron them and end up wearing the only jeans that I'm comfortable in it. Hiks. For the bag, I failed. I bought cath kidston sling bag last week. It was the most expensive bag that I ever bought for myself. below rm50 okayy, at least.. But, I accidentally bought baymax sling bag (sling bag again) though the colour is maroon, not pink or white. but it is baymax. So I bought it -_- . n still, I can't forget the dirt cheap items that I didn't purchase from that garage sale. Where is the old me???????? who is very stingy to buy lots of stuffs, I used to use one item until it rots itself. but now, I tend to buy and keep them for future use . Hahahaha ! I asked my friend "how to prevent myself from reminsicing the items that I didn't buy?" She said, buy them sooner -________- Okayyy, there's no solution. I knew the solution is "don't step to such places , where the sales are happening . But still, I got the feeling that it would be awful to not buy items with low price. Grab the chances !!! said the heart.. hurmmmmmmmmmm... And for now, I am very sure that I'm gonna stop shopping for awhile as I know my savings is getting lower days by days. So, let's put a halt. But, I have to go out for other weekend to celebrate jiji's birthday and also meet Supi for the last time before he return to Queesland. and also sending off Jiji to Japan on 19th March . So everythin requires money, for the fare and food. Emm, it's okay for those stuffs, just cut off the shopping budget. No more shopping for clothes !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no more new bags. new shoes, new accessories except fare and food. and last but not least, try to avoid people who ask you to eat at expensive places or go to expensive places just for the views and galoks. No watching movies at cinemas (still succeeded to avoid this place on previous sem) No no for that. Prioritize the highlighted one ! Okayy. May this target come true <3
sincerely Miss LOL

Friday, 12 February 2016

jangan kecam saya

I personally think that I deserve to feel this way as I did to certain people previously. But, the feeling is unbearable.Though I didn't say any words or act like I like him a lot or etc but he is so introvert. Why isn't he interested to befriend with me? So as usual, I guess I don't deserve him. seriously. despite of his good looking AUMM , he is such a good son , comes to UIA just for the sake of finishing his degree and getting job. And me ? I cant deny that I'm totally different with him. I always go outing, accompanying my friends to anywhere -____________- why am I being like this? ok don't bother about that. 

So, I'm writing this to calm myself, to coax myself for grieving about the guy that is so heartless to me. Maybe, it is still not the right time to think about loving a guy coz all you need to focus is about repaying your parents' deeds all this while and be a good example for the others especially your siblings. and, you don't deserve that good guy until you change yourself first towards a better person. not only treating you appearance, but also your skills in cooking and etc. Then, people will come after you huhhuhu. 

Dear self, don't torture yourself liking someone who doesn't even want to know you at first. Nobody is wrong , it just the time is not right. and don't simply downgrade yourself by sighing about your flaws that makes you unwanted. It isn't like that. The world is not that cruel. You just deserve someone else that remains unknown. Just be patient and be sure with Allah's plan and make du'a incessantly for a good partner for you. Allah is always with those who are patient. After all, you lose nothing for not being loved by a guy. you have your family and friends who are sooooooooooooooooo grateful to have you around. hopefully :')

And yeah, expressing love is not just by confessing with words, enough with your efforts and action. 
sincerely Miss LOL

Thursday, 4 February 2016

I dont know what youre up to :(

Last two night, it was stilll early around 11 pm, ur text saying hi was quite a surprise to me. Coz u seldom text me first. Maybe three or four times. Then ,i replied bai .however, you were so interesting that night that you managed to hold the conversation until midnight. But,u acted weirdly, using those sweet words and said things that might want me to say i want you. Luckily, i managed to hold my feeling from confessing to you that i had held this feeling for a sem . Hahaha. But it was unforgettable night. At the midst of conversation,u told me that u have been comfortable with me. But you opened the topic about ur ex girlfriend that u still cant  move  on. That frustrating part was "she was my first and last". I guess you are just same with the other guys, uttering those sweet words toing toing toing with a warning "dont fall in love with me , im just kidding, i just dont know where to spit it off ". Okayyy, i know this type. *daydreaming . I cant get this guy.he wouldnt be mine. How i wish he would open his heart for me coz i wont be like her girlfriend, leaving you and said "what we had wasnt real" . poor you , you dont deserve her. I deserve you hakhakhak. I dont know why u still cant move on to such girl. I guess she i really something and special enough whilst i got nothing for you unless being loyal.but yesterday, we didnt havr the same conversation anymore. You became the same person that  i knew before. A cold guy that caught my eyes. I dont know what youre up to. Friendzoning me or vice versa. Uhuks. Please say something clear  
sincerely Miss LOL