Friday 10 April 2020

How I spend my RMO at home Part 1

17/3/2020- 10/4/2020
RMO 1st phase until RMO 2nd phase (ends at 14/4/2020)

Hi, so I have decided to start blogging again during this long restrict movement order since it would be extended for two weeks more. Probably, blogging will be added as a new activity in my schedule.

At first I thought RMO will be just like how my usual days since January 2020 as I am just at home doing house chores and no pressure at all. Plus, all my siblings have come home from their universities and boarding school. So, still thinking that it would be just like a normal life of me. But, I take the thought back because it is really exhausting when there are more work to be done and people are attached to smartphone and mind their own business or in better words they leave it to this sister who they believe is a superwoman and can manage the house chores all by herself. No, I'm not complaining but I just pray that Allah will make them love me more and blessed me with rewards, ease in life and of course patience and sincerity.

So the first week was okay. I woke up for Subuh and later helped my mother to prepare lunch since in the morning, No one usually wakes up for breakfast. So for those who wake up for breakfast, they would have lempeng, sandwich or toast. But, then I decided to cook fried rice for breakfast since Betty favors my fried rice a lot. Eheks. At first, I cooked the fried rice in the morning but then I was occupied with other house chores since I am the only early riser. So, I fried the rice before I sleep since RMO has caused me to sleep late around 1.30 am above. Plus, my siblings were usually very hungry around that time so they either had the fried rice that night too or made maggi for themselves and pancakes. and this is something that I was quite worried during RMO; gaining weight. Not for me, but for them. Plus, they would be sleeping very late after having heavy meals like that. Betty and Billy slept around 3-4 am. This is the reason why they barely wake up in the morning. On the side note, Betty has insomnia so it was like a norm for her to not be waking up in the morning unless I woke her up for fried rice.

Recently, I decided to join my siblings to sleep after Subuh longer than my usual routine. But still I am the earliest to wake up like around 10-11 am. At this hour, I will head to the kitchen to see what can I help my mum for lunch prep or just clear up the dishes in the sink. There's a lot of things to be done when youre at the kitchen. Plus, I cant stand to see dirty things. So, if theres nothing much left to give help to my mum, I would take that green sponge and wipe the cabinet, stoves, walls in front of the stoves and tidy up the refrigerator. Refrigerator is my favourite place in the kitchen. I could change food from large container to smaller one, wipe the panes and wash the top of the ketchup bottles and others.

If my mum does not need help preparing the lauk, she would assign me to fry chickens/fish or vegetables. and of course I always take care of the food servings on the table, wipe the dining table and cook the rice. So, people will never be worried of those scopes as I am always responsible for those work.

Other than that, Mia could sometimes be helpful and she would also go to the kitchen and get a task from my mum although she is a bit slow in doing it. it was not that kind of slow,but it is her nature to be at slow pace either walking and more. So I just have to be okay with that and not compare with myself as long as she is being helpful. It is more than enough. So, I could do the laundry ; washing and hanging the clothes and collecting when they dried up and folding them and putting them in the wardrobe. Sounds alot but they are achievable by me rather than waiting them to be done by others which I know it will take some delays. Update: they are able to fold the clothes after getting the dried clothes from the lines so my task is reduced as for now.

Okay enough with kitchen and laundry parts because they actually prevent me from getting bored. After having lunch, we would either join my mother watch movies from netflix or just laze in bed texting or playing UNO. But most of the time,we play UNO since Ahmad doesnt have phone and only UNO that could keep 5 of us united. or Ahmad would binge watch Anime while the sisters are attached with phone play PUBGY, watched BTS or Kdramas. Guess which one would be my activity.............

And Alhamdulillah also as we managed to fast during Monday and Thursday during this RMO and also recited al Quran after performing prayers. I was actually worried that this long holidays would not benefit me at all. Hence, I really take this opportunity of long breakkkkkkkk of doing nothing to do something that I should have been doing which is by getting closer to Allah. Covid 19 is a test from Allah to us. and it is a huge test that one must contemplate and "hijrah" from their old life. I dont want to be a person who ignore this sign that Allah is giving us. His test is for us to get closer to Him, beg for His forgiveness and realize that we are unbearable and helpless without His creations. Health, peace and freedom are important to us and they are from Allah that we have taken for granted. And I always keep that in my mind to include in my prayers. Sometimes, we tend to forget to request for healthy body or peaceful country as we take them lightly and seldom express our gratitude. But due to this ceaseless Corona virus that have been attacking countries, people without warning frightens me a lot even I just quarantine myself quietly in the house. Plus, I am not yet earning money so I am quite down as I feel that I barely do anything with my life.

So, I made up my mind to focus on doing some Ibadah although not alot but I push myself to be istiqamah.

Next, I also tried to cook new kind of dishes and desserts that I found from Facebook or Youtube. Yes, Youtube has been well used for me to watch cooking demo. Nevertheless, what satisfied me the most was that I finally tried to made own desserts/ kuih as usually Mia is the one who monitored us to make desserts because I dont consume too much sweets. Yet, I already tried to make Japanese souffle pancakes (twice), bread pudding (twice), butir nangka (twice). these were the new desserts that I tried. other than that, I only mastered doing Kek Batik. but this time, I used Hup Seng biscuits as they were about to masuk angin hehehe. Okay not so much and still cannot be proud of yet but still I already have a list of desserts to try but we are out of eggs now. Soon soon.

Okay last but not least maybe from me cuz I suddenly forgot what to write more about my RMO..

I have been enjoying doing workouts with Betty. Thankfully, Betty is willing to become my workout partners having partners would prevent my plan from becoming only a plan. Yeah, we do workout everyday and skip workout when we fast or when my mum need more helpers in the kitchen for dinner. but Alhamdulillah, we are still capable to help her in the kitchen after cooling down.

At first we did Tabata but then it was not quite challenging and burning our stubborn fats. and Betty suggested us to try HIIT workouts posted by Mira Filzah. and Alhamdulillah we still can follow HIIT workouts posted by Emi Wong. it is a full body workouts and we do the workout joyfully cuz we are both funny and have goals to maintain our shape from getting out of shape LOL. anddd we or maybe I also end up my night by doing workout on bed that was from Youtube as well. Pray that this consistency will remain until the end of RMO since I do not move a lot at home compared to when we were as free as before. Huhu.

Then, I also purchased only one item during RMO which is weighing scale that just arrived yesterday and thankfully my weight is still the same like before. I'm sure the workout has helped alot and the awareness that has been whispering to me whenever I want to eat a lot. I ate a lot during the first week of RMO cuz the dishes are tempting and varied by days. But, I prohibit myself from eating nasi berbukit , instead eat slowly or just add up vegetables in the plate. But don't worry, my rice is never too little. It is just like not more than 2 scoops or 2 scoops and a half (if I am unconscious and unaware with my wild appetite lel)


Andddd since my sleeping cycle is a bit distracted during RMO, my face is currently having a lot of constructions such as growing acne at many different places like below my nose, below my chin and at my jawlines. It was devastating to see the mirror everyday just to admit that I am getting uglier even I am just stuck under the roof; safe from air pollution and sunlight. Ergh. Okay, will try to sleep earlier and drink more water or just accept this as a part of my life.


p/s; I'm still a pubg and tik tok virgin though my siblings are currently active with those two games? video making? and will add some images during RMO soon when I am rajin to transfer them into this laptop.

Tata and please STAY AT HOME and may this remaining 14 days will be the last time for us to be quarantined like this. May frontliners do their jobs well and the patients get better. And may all Malaysian obey the rules and regulations that have been formed by KKM and other authorities that are meant for our safety. Much appreciated. DONT BE SELFISH!

Assalamualaikum.




sincerely Miss LOL

Sunday 8 December 2019

December : This is why I'm broke

Upon constructing this title, I chuckled sheepishly knowing the truth that lies behind it. But for the sake of da bomb title, so lets get to explore why I decided to blame December for my draining account.

I dont think it is December since the crime was during November but I had used money from December in advance for November's damage. Okay, so here is how I did.

I have a big brother who I can rely on the most, who seldom appears in my social media since we dont meet often as much as I meet my other siblings.
UPDATE: I received my Nov's salary and paid him straight away.

So whenever I want to go for shopping spree or you know (you dont know right?) go for madness sale like I always did and DO, we need a huge stack of money.. As for me I need more than RM100, and below RM300. BUTTTTTT, I don't borrow his money often. This is due to my October's salary was well used on the early November. ( need to trace back where they went) Hence, how am I gonna shop on 30rd November !!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????

So this is when I can use my brother's role; providing money for his little sister uhuks. So, he lent me RM _ _ _.

First of all, I thanked Allah so much for never fails to give me lights for any sale advertisement be it at offline or online store. Phewww. He really knows that I am good in shopping stuffs with cheap price. The upside for going to sale is we (read: you and I) can purchase all things that we cant afford back then at this time! We get the chance to don luxuries that we buy them with unbelievable price like RM1, RM5, RM10 and more. Welll, this sale is not necessarily new items. it can be defect items or used items. Well, do we really need to be very picky just to get them with such price?

Picky here refers to some judgemental thought about others who don't wear preloved or maybe bundle stuffs. They really need to buy and try first. Then, they are irresistible. No harm done seriously. Some defects are not quite visible. what I reckon on preloved items is they just want to letgo the items and make space for new arrivals. Prelove to relove ! Thats it! I once did organize a preloved event in my college and I could see many of them were very excited to purchase my items that I no longer want to wear them. They gonna love them just like how I did before..

Well, there might be some items with severe defects that you could find in preloved sales. Do not just abandon them.. think ! think ! if the damage was like a slight torn or what not, sew them ! Sew them ! Be innovative ! If a plain blouse costs only like rm1, buy ! hahaahaha. Okay I think I'm giving a wrong advice. Well, look thoroughly on the design as well. is it too ordinary or is it hard to find at any store except like at ZARA, COTTON ON or FASHION VALET. Uhuks. Okayy, I guess I'm being picky too when picking clothes during clearance sales since I know I will be liking so much items, hence several criterion need to be considered thoroughly such as making sure I don't have such design yet, I don't have that colour yet, or does it worth my penny for such design/defect orrrr worth to just buy a new one instead????? Ha one more thing, at preloved place you can find soooo many bunch of brandeds stuffs.......... Don't worry about people's thought. They don't know where you bought them, but if they know, so what??????????? It is not that they could see the brand name inside your clothes. Ehek. We dress up to satisfy ourselves, not others. XD

Apart from preloved event, I always go to clearance sale boutique that mostly sell their off season items with 70% OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (especially Muslimah boutique like Wardatulbydha Hijab, Shawlpublika, Wadi Adra and more) We can even get hari raya collection from previous year with below than RM100 ! Phewwww.. I loike this very much Uhuks.. Hence, please constantly be alert with notification or post from their Instagram announcing any YEAR END SALE very soon.. I am waiting patiently towards the end of this month..

Thinking of making another post on the tips to buy items during sale.

Hmm, why should I wait again? I thought I said that I'm broke already. Okay, heres the problem of this girl. She never stops wanting to shop despite being cashless (broke).

I just love to see the clothes with price that I can (supposed to) afford.

Some of my friends who don't understand the feeling of a shopaholics would question me;

1) Mu nak pakai masa bilo?

2) Beli untuk raya ke sis?

3) Tak pernah tengok pon pakai

4) Banyak banyak beli ni untuk pakai sorang ke??

Whenever I answered I share with my siblings, they would respond like are you sure?
Do you really give your sisters to share your clothes? Never saw them wearing yours...

Little do they know, we even share our wardrobe and what are mine are theirs and I don't mine to let them wear any of my clothes before me (with my consent; I always say yes. I it just a matter of courtesy among us) But, for certain clothes especially white clothes, I tend to attach the clothes with few warningggg like.............

" DONTMAKEITDIRTY" "HANDWASHORWASHSEPARATELY" "USENET" "BECAREFUL"

And for that 3) question, I do not post most of my ootd in my Instagram or even snap them cuz I dont actually bother to have one and if I have it, not necessarily for others' view. Just keep them for myself as for now. I don't have the confidence all the time to post my solo pictures.

Ha, for 2) question the answer can be YES. I often grab this opportunity to purchase two-piece clothes and keep them until certain occasion like Eid, kenduri, bridesmaid duty or any annual dinner. there are four of us (girls) in the family. So, everyone can wear any of the clothes. No need to buy a new one since their sister already volunteered/sponsored to buy all the time.Lucky them.


Ok Ok. I forgot to actually explain on Nov/Dec damage.

Bibis and I made an impromptu plan to visit this one store in KL that advertised on massive clearance . In conjunction with the clearance sale, it also collaborated with one Muslimah model that would be selling her preloved stuffs. Preloved by model means you can wear attires that MODEL WEARS. Aha ! But still, the items were not all vogue. She also wears clothes like ordinary people (us). So, don't put so much hopes or excitement about the clothes. But still, her items were fineeeee but I guessed the clearance that the boutique offered has attracted us the most. All shawls costed only RM5 each, some raya collection marked down until RM40-RM80 from RM200 something.. All pants were only RM1-5 whilst all new pario skirt were only RM 10. Bibis bought many of them. I guessed it was really her catch since she managed to buy nice tops and skirts. (Me backgrounding my mistake and foregrounding bibis' catch ) Sorry bis ! Hahaha..

Okay, as for me I did not hunt for pario and top. I just snatched anything that worth the price. It is more dangerous you knowwwwwww. I'm risking myself and my moneyy.. Hence, I purchased two Raya collection, hmmm okay one batik skirt, white dress, white jacket, yellow floral top, pink top (planned to buy for my friend, but decided to own it ihiks) Hmm, I think that's all.

Going to such event is never enough for me. There will be always things that I recall and regret for not purchasing them HUWAAAA for example the pario was really cheap. I could buy and give to my friend as present. After all they are still new. Sigh. Past is past. Let's just pray for a better future. (better catch with better price)




Attached picture was taken by the photographer of the store and it appeared in the igshop. Huhu.. Somehow, I feel happy to be able to spend this toime with bibis since we rarely get this kind of chance (going to clearance sale) in KL. So, this is the first one and maybe, the last time ? ? :'(



sincerely Miss LOL

Tuesday 26 February 2019

Do not add up my burden puhliss..

So today I felt mentally exhausted. like super tired, but not physically. It was not merely my fault, but others' fault. Sorry for not admitting my fault. But, I'm upset you know. I met one old friend who would be graduating very soon in my campus.So, we chit chat a bit about subjects that I currently take and how much subjects left.So the beginning was super fine.. I enjoyed the concern.. But later, she said why I did not take all subjects in this semester, total 8 subjects. So, I said oh I cant take that because it was overload and the campus wouldn't let me do so. then, she said oh it was fine. her friend did that too. So, she began to redesign my schedule like telling me that I made a huge mistake. I said Alaa its okay. The add drop session had already ended already (long time ago, almost a month) So, she said Rugi laa bla333333 and sort of a huge disappointment for my decision.

What she did not know was, I already thought thoroughly before stepping into this semester, before deciding that I will extend my semester, I will graduate later than my friends and many more. i have been upset, down and more. Of course I care about my future.. Please dont question the sensitive questions if you do not know what I am dealing with. I did not take all the subjects altogether because I want to maintain a good pointer. I don't want to spoil it just to grad faster. I know I am not a fast learner lately. Huhu.. So, I decided to just finish my degree at the end of 2019 and graduate on 2020. Huhu.. Most of my family members and friends already supported my decision and hope the best for me. And I am also fine to see my friends' achievement and we even planned to do the pre convo together. No jealous or upset feeling at all. But, someone has just ignited the sadness again ...

Well, this issue is not too big for me cuz I will forget about it soon as I just want to focus and end this degree very soon but with flying colors Inshallah. but there's another situation.

People just cant stand seeing my flawed skin and questioned about it ?????????????????
Well, it did not just happen to me but also to my friend...

Do you people know that we did not plan to grow these bumps on our skin?
Do you pi-pol know that we do not want to have these????????
Oh, do you know that we actually take care of our skin more than you??????
and we are really cautious when eating food. There's a lot of 'NO' instead of yes. We avoid nuts, dairy food and food that are too oily and sweet.

But, things cant just always result just like we want..
I have suffered from acne severely when I was 18 years old.
Maybe it was due to the pollution there but it continues until now and getting worse. Even it seems to heal, they start to grow and grow again...

So, some people would ask...
Tak jaga makan ke?
Ni mesti sebab asyik tukar produk.
Muke berminyak tu sebab makan benda berminyak lah.
Muke sensitif ni.
Jangan makan coklat.
Minum air banyak sikit.
Tryla produk ni.. Tryla yang tu,
cuba makan supplemen ni..
Patut takde yang nak pun... (well maybe I feel this )
Geram nak picit.

Or even worse, they compare me with my other beautiful siblings, and wonder why didn't I become flawless like them?

Well, I wonder it too but I never bother about it because we siblings never compare cuz we know it would hurt. SO dont !

I know I am not that pretty enough in your eyes, I am not that deserved to be a Kelantanese due to my flawed face and my sedo funny looking and boring and what so ever. I know it already lah... But, I can try to improve my personality or akhlak as those can be shaped and improved. The skin is very stubborn and takes time to improve. So let us just pray for me to own a better skin just like you, the judgmental people :D I think I should have taken this opportunity for being oppressed to pray as much as I could wholeheartedly to grant me a clear skin because I was hurt by people's words :')


I may not look like as someone who always have a problem or serabut or gloomy or stressed. Because they are unnecessary and temporary. So I just accept it with hope that people could cope and keep calm with my flaws. It doesnt bother me, so surely it would not bother you too. Just keep your mouth shut and just let the nice things to be expressed from it. Let me live serenely XD
sincerely Miss LOL

Thursday 21 February 2019

Me and my same old grossed problem

I thought that I would get rid of my problem sooner after taking care of my face very precisely. I follow every rule and step that are required to protect my skin. Alhamdulillah, so far so good and my face is less dry than before. I used cleanser, toner, moisturizer and sunscreen just like most skincare freaks told in their social medias. And they are trusted so don't worry. I'm not going to blame any of them. My face is no longer invaded with acnes or any bumps so I feel like I want to add something new which is exfoliator. I cant really use physical exfoliator like St. Ives either green tea or apricot. So, I did some readings on chemical exfoliator. and I was interested with one stuff that consists of glycolic acid which claim for having low percentage of it and suitable for beginners etc T.T I tried it in just a small amount (patch test). I dabbed it at my left cheek but not all parts. I just dabbed it almost close to my ear because there were some tiny bumps like milia over there. And they were very stubborn to be killed. So, my major reason for adding this "holy grail" product was to make my skin clearer. (How I wish)

BUT NO ..
To have a flawless skin like other girls would just be a dream for me :')

I am terribly upset with the reaction happened on my face.
I just used it for three days at night, meaning three dabs only at a small part of my left cheek. but they did very great in welcoming itchy and big acnes on my cheek. For your information, my skin is very poor in recovering scars. and they can appear very red especially during day. So, people wouldn't see any clear part on my face as there are red bumps everywhere, and they even attacked my chins. they are irritating and I could not help myself from not touching them. I became more interested to look at the mirror, giving up with myself, not hoping too much for recovery because I know this would take a donkey year to heal. I thought it would end soon, but now it begins again. and I am healing them again starting from zero...………………….

So, SAY NO to glycolic acid ;D for me. not for others. I'm just not as fortunate as others who could try anything based on positive feedbacks and receive the same impacts too. No, I'm not. I just have to stick with my current skincare instead of planning to exfoliate my skin.

and I am not interested to cover my skin with stuffs like foundation etc so, me is redha if people see my with such flawed face. Just accept it. I can accept it, but I am just ashamed to deal with people that seem to judge my face. I don't know if such people exist, but if you guys happen to experience the same problem with me, YOU KNOW. :D It is 'our' problem for having such a bad thought while people don't even give a damn to our ugliness. LOL.
sincerely Miss LOL

Monday 15 January 2018

DreamS

Okay xpela tajuk dalam English tapi nak tulis entry dalam Malay. macam pelik plak nak tukar tajuk jadi Mimpi atau Impian.. anyway, tahun baru kita mesti nak ada azam baru la, baju baru la #eh. Kebiasaannya, tahun baru kita tend to renew everything. tak kisahla dari sudut fizikal, mental, niat mahupun akhlak kita. Mesti konfem nak yang baru. Tapi tak semua org. ada yang dont give a damn to a new year. they just maintain, xde usaha nak berubah or what. and ada jugak yang upgrade diri tanpa perlu tunggu tahun baru. But to me, bile masuk je tahun baru, semangat jadi lain sikit. byk je thoughts and ideas yg dirancang utk tahun baru. Almaklumlah, kite mesti nak a better day ahead. Nak improve mane yang patut. Nak improve chapters dlm hidup kita so that ending pon best !

Tapi entri ni bukan nk tlis psl azam tahun baru ke ape, tapi more to dreams or angan angan mat jenin.

Harini byk berangan actually, tambah2 tadi laptop xnak hidup. sampai takleh nak google info pasal paper Khamis ni. tapi bile dah jadi ni, nak blogging plak. Huhu.

Baru2 ni berangan nak buat lasik.. sebab tengok kawan ade buat lasik. So nekad nak kumpul duit laa nk buat lasik. pastu cite kt kawan,pstu die ckp tunggu kerja laa sbb mahal. Pastu cite kt kawan satu lg, die ckp, lasik ni mcm xde pon bg jaminan yg kite akn xrabun slamanya. akan ad tendency uk rabun balik after few years. then, kawan ckpla better buat braces.

Pastu, rase nak buat braces plak. mmg berniat jgk nk buat braces.. tapi braces ni mcm amik masa jgk.. haish ain ni xpenyabar plak. dlm 2++ thun mcm tu rsenyer. tp bile pikir balik xde la lama sgt. lagi2, masa skrg cepat je berlalu.. plus, braces ni wayyy affordable drp lasik. so maybe, prioritizekan nk buat braces lah kot. braces skrg dah jd trend smpi ak fikir murah sgt ke braces smpi smua org pakat buat ni?!?!?!?!?!

Semalam tgk story keknis, dia posted feedback kawan2 retis die yg consume toujours advanced. terpengruh jap tgk feedback diorg. semua pakat positif even bru mkn like 2-3 days. huhu. keknis dhla skrang glowing gile pipi die. comel dooh. So, rase nak try toujours plak. tapi harga die ya ampun, mmg xsanggup den nak sacrifice rm200 utk stuff less than a month. yela, masih student lagi kan. Maybe kena mkn tomato jela setiap hari kalau nak floles and glowing. Let's pray for my skin renewal.

Pastu duit nak shopping, nak kawen and nak travel peciter?????????

susah kan bile unemployed ni tapi angan2 banyak. I cant sacrifice my shopping habit in order to attain any of my dreams. Hahaha. so pendek kate, xdapekla nk berbraces. huhu tapi nakkk. dapt2 inshallah. kite kerja partime bersungguh2 kali ni and jangan guna pon duit gaji sampai bleh achieve yg kite nak. Fuh, naseb baiklah tak trliur nak beli gadgets or stuffs mcm tu.

Pray for my road to unlock my dreams !


sincerely Miss LOL

Friday 29 December 2017

me getting excited over my friend's happiness Lulz

there are times when I am so packed with stories. lots of stuffs had been hovering in my mind and I cant wait to spill everything in this blog.. but, they remained in this mind since Ive been to lazy to type on this blog. I chose to type in my mind. huhu

okay, lets begin with the first story. A story which I was excited upon my friend's happiness. both of them are my friends actually.

i have a bestfriend (girl). she told me that currently she is with someone new. guess what, the guy that stole his heart was the guy that secretly admired her since form 2 and we all knew that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was excited to know that my best friend had finally opened her heart to accept the guy and they guy came just in time. they did not contact since after PMR and the guy approached him again this year I guess. Huhu what a miracle.

I know exactly how it feels when your crush likes you back. it is beyond the happiness when walking on air. Im so happy on behalf of the guy LOL. both of them are so lucky to be together and I really hope they end up to marriage.

however, this girl she really deserves such guys after meeting previous guy that didnt appreciate her at all. I was dumbfounded as well knowing what he did to my friend. I was like, the guy was really dumb to dump her coz she is so precious. If I were a guy, I would be so lucky to have an intelligent, soft spoken and pretty girl as my life partner. but still, she finally with the guy that really deserves her. Alhamdulillah.. knowing her very sweet love story makes me wonder how my love story would be like. I am not hoping but surely Allah has planned the best for me Inshallah :')
sincerely Miss LOL

Tuesday 14 November 2017

Regret

I was blaming myself for buying a denim shirt at a fest in my university. the reasons were the shirt was too fade and baggy for me. It seems like the shirt was not mine, it was like the borrowed one. though the size was S ( yeah, maybe I'm smaller than S) hiks.
then, I ranted and felt so guilty for wasting my RM19 for that shirt. I wondered what would I buy with that amount... I might get prettier stuffs and full with lace maybe, ruffles too. but kemeja surely is not my style. How can I buy such clothes? I failed in controlling my lust seeing SALE and rejecting my friend's plead.

so, I could not concentrate in studying. Even connecting the laptop with wifi turned out to be so hard. Not until my roommate returned from her usual night meeting. after she landed on her comfy bed, I went straightway to her room and sighing about my mistake .. and I asked her if she's interested with the clothes. I showed to her and she seemed interested. I know that kind of clothes is her taste ! yeah, finally I would get that RM 19 back but a month later. but better than nothing huhu. Okayyyyy , will update more soon inshallah :) more about my passion I guess. guess WHat ???????????
sincerely Miss LOL