saya nak kulit yang halusssssssssss

hari tu, my face was quite severeeeeee.. sangat2 excruciating sebab kulit jadi menggelupas and memerahh..stiap kali cuci muke msti pgg pipi sbb pedih sgtt.. tahan jeeee.. nasib baik la one day my mum ade duit and quite free on that time .. so she brought me to klinik dr harun. klinik kulit. she spent rm88 for my skin.and alhamdulillah sekarang dah xmenggelupas and merahhh. alhamdulillah sgt.. thank you Allah.. semoga rezeki Mama melimpah ruah and xdelaa ain rse serba salah sgt hbiskan your rm88 tuu. u know how much sy berusaha utk taknak trouble her. xnak my mum spend much money for me. ckupla diri sendiri xmenyusahkan mama. biarlah adik2 nak still bermewah2 ke ape. susah jugak kite nak pesan byk kali yg papa dah xde. xleh nk shopping mewah mcm dulu.. i have my own stand. xnk spend lot of money smate2 nafsu or keinginan.. kalau perlu , baru shop. in shaa allah. and ppl pon tau yg sy ni mmg kuat kuar jenjalan tp less spending on priceless things. hahah membebel pasal duit plak. pdhl topik muka..

nak kulit haluss macam ety and kubisssssss...
everyone has turned out being very damn good looking especially ss. so me, feeling so insecure and want to follow their steps.

sekarang ni pakai dnars skincare. yes, i admit sy kuat tuka produk.. lols. harapnye this will be the last.. even kdg2 rase kering jugak pakai dnars ni.. tp sumer dh back to normal lps letak ubat provided by doctor.. doctor tu just bg ubat je mase jumpe die.tgk muke pon tidak. well, die dh tau kerja die kan.name lg doktor pakar kulit. ya allah semoga mukaku tak ditumbuhi jerawat dah. dahla 18 hb ni jd bridesmaid. dh byk kli dhhh tolak offer, tp my cousin ni xde org sgt dh kott. suruh mia, die xnak plak.hope i can appear as a nice bridesmaid even selawa bridesmaids lain nnt. hehehe...

ckp psl dnars skincare... i bought the set for rm53.. pastu beli toner rm18.krim kuneng for rm20. mahal gak la. tp murah lagi compare to Kaylena and Tabita.. rasenyer. i spent most money for the sake of my skin. dhlaa seafood mmg xmkn and mmg i really concern about my diet. so mmg bab pemakanan bkn punce utk kulit rosak. so xtau lar yer slh ape.. mungkin kurang vitamin dlm badan kot. nak beli satin skinzzzz tp mahal giler ahh ... rm 150 kot..(satin skinz is a vitamin porduct yg kononnye kan cure mslh kulit and byk lg benefit die.. gugel la. typical me yg suke bace review products and terliur nk try.end up last2 xberkesan ng diri sendiri) lau org nk belanja xpe gk.tp sape la nk belanje for hundreds gituu.. sokay2 aing.. bljr elok2.. nnt apply scholarship. pastu gune duit scholarship utk bli benda tu. see? dh ad planning xxelok utk duit biasiswa.. ajet2 dpt jee biasiswa. ya rabbi.. ya Allah. permudahkanlah sy utk apply biasiswa utk degree.xnak mama rase burden tanggung sy... Mama , i love u and thanks for willing to take care six of us alone.. in shaa allah , we wont create any trouble. maaf jika spnjg ketiadaan papa n hri2 strusnye ain ade kecewakan mama. in shaa allah it wont happen anymore. *baru rase nak jd kakak yg bergune,, slame ni mmg berguna jugak, tp kdg2 ade jugak time malas nk buat kerja rumah. tp tu je kelebihan yg awk ade ain. rajin. so please jgn malas. nnt da berjiran ng ss, nak tlg die kemas rumah die kan ? hahaaha ape pny angan2 laa ng ss ni.. semoga nnt ss dpt bibik yg bleh kemas rumah die ng sares .. ameen 

last but not least, doktor pesan for the time being, jgn mkn ayam kampung, telur ayam, ikan bilis( baru tau ikan bilis cause itchy) ikan aya, belacan, seafood kacang.. alhamdulillah naseb baik xperlu berpantang sgt sbb mmg xmkn pon benda tu except for the anchovies.. so xleh mkn anchovies je.. nad my mum told me jgk yg ikan bilis tuu even kecik, kalori die tinggi giler expecially kt kepale and yg black-like kt body die.so lau nk bli bilis tu,sebolehnyee mntk yg dah terbelah due.. lols. sekadar info okay ? ikan bilis mmg sedapp tp menggemukkan rupenyerrr.. #prayforhealthylife

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Azam 2015 !

most of my roomates kat uia sume fikir sy ni exsaited sgt nak masuk sem baru ni. they dont know what i think actually. byk benda yg sy fikir. its not easy to face ppl yg mostly dh ade degree.dah fly sumee. best tgk kawan2 yg dh degree and fly. alhamdulillah, sy dikelilingi kawan2 yg pandai dan baik2. naseb baik diorg sudi kawan ng sy.. anyway, i just want to express my gratitude for having them ya Allah. mama kate xsume org bertuah, disayangi kwn2. sbb most humankind ni, always ade sifat benci, jeles and etc. and alhamdulillah, sy xdpt kwn cmtu. xtaulaa if ade.tp i hope i dont have them. nothing to be jealous about me. coz im just an ordinary girl that is showered with love and love of  ppl. pffft. ayt cm perasan je, cm org sayang je. wallahualam ,hope diorg really love me. do you  ?

back to the topic, nape tahun ni tibe2 ade azam ?

kisahnyee sebab , 

1)tahun ni is last sem kat uia untuk asasi. if sy ade kena repeat paper and so on, xleh nak repeat mase short sem , sebab tahun ni xde short sem !! melainkan awk nak extend lagi setahun for asasi !
so make sure studi betul2 for sem ni , jgn main2 sikit pon. utk maruah diri sendiri gk yer ain ..

2)mostly, reason ade azam sbb nak masuk degree dah. and degree to in shaa allah nak amik jurusan english. thank you so much kubis for always xletih dgr rungutan rengekan kubihs awk yg sbenarnye xpndi pon bi. tp sy xjumpe ap minat syy dh for future. and thank for shuhadah jgk, my roomate yg salu pesan suh istikarah if xtau nk plih ape.. she's right. i have to ask guidance from Allah .

3) hah, okay. tahun ni, i should cut down my hobby which is keluar tiap kali weekend. mmg i often keluar sbb nyer nk jmp kawan2 sekolah. and tahun ni sharina, tini , aimi , iman, aidiq , ety akn fly dahh. so lau kuar pon in shaa allah for sake of them. jgn diikutkan nafsu nak shopping tu ain. simpan duit skettt.. nnt hbis asasi bulan 5 ni, kuarlaaa nak kuar sgt.. tak lari kemane pon jalan tar tuhhh. hehehe.. 

4) then, kena kurangkan wassap and jgn jadi active sgt laaa  kt wasap.. bukannye dpt anugerah pon ainggg wehh. xperlu update gmbr kt ig tiap hari.tiap minggu pon xyah. hahaha. beria sungguh nak tnjuk yg ang tu keluar.keluar senyap2 sudahh.. 

5) kena kurangkan tidur dahh sem ni.. xperlu laa nak stay up lame2 if most of night u xdpt sgt pon ilmu tuu.. kali ni, make sure study tak lame, tp hasilnye lumayan.. kena fikir,lepas study tu, dpt tak hasilnye ???? jgn mase je terbuang okay ?

6) study kuat2 pon, jgn lupe Allah. ingtlah yg Allah yg berkuase ats segalenyer..so beribadahlaa kpd allah selagi ade kudrat.. solat lah di tengah malam. solat taubat laa wahai ain.. semoga ibadah seterusnyee diterima Allah. if u keep performing hajat prayer, tp xsolat taubat cane Allah nak terima if dosa terdahulu xterhapus lagi ? pandai2 la awk fikir yer ain.. semoga setiap perjalanan kehidupan ini dirahmati Alllah. Ameen. 

7)semester ni, i will be taking 4 subjects they are 

  chemistry 2,mathematics 3, understanding Islam and computer 2.

ye mmg sedih utk belajar benda2 yg u will not take it as ur major for degree.tp awk kena redha ain. jgn stress2. studi jerr.. dptkan best result and continue in what you can. in shaa allah Allah permudahkan sumenyer.. have faith towards Him. Allah is the best planner. bak kat shuhadah, belajar tu wajib, kerja tak wajib.. -____-

8) semalam duk bincang ng shuhadah sal azam tahun baru.. antare main point die is psl makan. she said nak diet. 1kg utk 1bulan..carenyee, breakfast , pastu lunch with dinner trus.. malam plak makan biskut ng milo jee. tp die xnk mkn nasi.nk mkn mi or mihun je. ya rabbi. part tu trpakse  unfollow sbb letihlaaa xdpt mkn nasi.. n die nak dinner around kul 4 cmtu. mak aih.. mmg kelaparan lah guwe. in shaa allah my dinner will be around six. xnak mkn lewat sgt, nnt ngantok nk studi. tp xnk awal sgt.. nnt kelaparan plak mase belajar.. macam2 kan,, 

9) still thinking lepas subuh nak tidur ke x.even mmg we are all aware yg lps subuh xelok tidur.nnt tertutup pintu rezeki. cane ni aing weh???? kena bljr laa xtido lps subuh. bace mathurat ke, jogging ke apee.. cane nk mudah bljr if pint rezeki tertutup, .. 

10) i need to beriadah this time. lau x ,otak xcerdas. and byk lemak malas yg terkumpul.. kena keluarkan jugak peluh even not daily.. akn dipertimbangkann .. maybe twice a week or during weekend only.. bestnyee dpt jogging tiap2 pagi.hrp2 shuhadah nak laa teman aku jogging nnt. hehe. doakan die lembut ati yer guys.. i love her so much :)

11) okay, nk sentuh psl outing plak utk tahun baru ni. make sure bukan tiap2 minggu kuar, n dlm tiap2 minggu kuar tu, pick a day only to paint the town red. and jgn hbiskan duit utk tgk wayang even mmg awk bkn kaki wayang.. dh bwk kan hardisk this sem..so tgk dlm laptop je.. hopefully dpt bwk laptop pi uia. not this one. sepupu pny.hrp die pny tak rosak n i still can write here. 

as a wrap up, i really hope from you guys ( xtaulaa ade org nak bace ke x ni) hrp sgt sem ni i will achive my target.. dpt tinggi carry mark, dpt skor mase mid sem, dpt skor tiap kali ade kuiz and dah ade guts utk presentation . -___- and diberi ingatan yg kuat utk hafal hadis and ayt quran utk subjek Understanding Islam ni ..huhu. i want to succeed with flying colours this time. huhu.. 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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dah perlu fikir pasal jodoh ker ?????

ade laa satu statement aku bace from a friend of mine, he wrote 

"dah kena cari jodoh ke kat Gombak?"

Gombak ni is a place for most UIA students yg degree la. sy masih stuck kt Pj. so xperlu kot nak fikir sal jodoh. tp kena fikir gk la kot. 

tgk most 1995 batch ni sumee dh ade partner masing2 kan.,.. siap status ig or wassap pon psl pakwe/makwe masing2.. semoga hubungan korang till jannah and paling penting, jejak ke alam perkahwinan tu. hahaha. yelaaa bercinta bagai nak rak. 

pastu, di usia sebegini pon lau nak bercinta sgt la kan, korang dah xleh nak bercinta monyet2 dah.kapel putus kapel putus. orang sekarang ni nak cari the real one dah. xde dh nak pakai buang sume. so be matured. jgn dk pasang due tige empat.. ni ad sorang kwn kpd kwn sy ni duk pasang tige laki senyap2. ya rabbi.sedih btul dgr . sian puak2 laki yg kena tipu tu.. moga one of them terpilih la.. 
nak cakap partner pon, rase mcm xsesuai je coz i dont have such special one pon. tp ad la sorang laki ni yg emm ade la.. we'll see soon. peace..

tahun ni, memang sy niat dh xnak contact ng sorang laki ni. so mase 31 dis aritu,sy nekad blok dh wasap die.sbb die duk sibuk mengade nk mengorat eventhough the whole world dah tau die tu ad gf. pastu tibr2 dtg wassap kate rindu cinta and tahik ape lar.. xsedar ke dh ade awek.so drp die xnak move on from me, so i stepped out from his life.nnt xdela kena ng awek die dah.sblum ni pon penah kena.tp time diorg dah clash la. tuptup kapel balik. ish3.. ikut korangla. yg pasti my heart dah trtutup utk laki2 yg bajet hot and jenis layan sume girl kt media social. lau boleh, nk cari laki yg xde twitter, instagram and sume la.. wujud ke mslhnyer? tp diri sendiri ni pon ade instagram, cane nk cri org camtu. kite nak yg baik, so kite pon kena la jd baik.. i did spend a night deleting gmbr yg teruk sgt kt ig. sbb kdg2 posting my ugly pose, actually humiliating myself jugak -_________- doakan one day i will sedar n buang account ig.skrg xsedar diri lg. sedar skit je.. 

pastu ad satu lg malam, my bestfriend laki ni , die duk citer yg awek die yg sblum ni tudung labuh dah berjinak2 pki tudung xlabuh. eventhough to me, dh labuh dh. cume die ckp,nampak susuk tubuh. and die rase kecewala.n he said too dont blame him if he likes other girls kt uia yg much more labuh tudungnyer.. ya rabbi, mase tu i feel so ashamed with myself . sbb selama ni kite pki tudung dh tutup dada n rase dh secure.tp rupenye ad gk lelaki yg mghrpkan lagi labuh. ni la lau duk uia kan, laki laki sumee nk yg serba molek. naseb baik kwn ak ni mmg org tau , die sememangnyee baik.so i hope the best for him.semoga awek die kembali pki tudung labuh tutup susuk tubuh jugak :) in shaa allah ,, kite yg 20 thun ni, xdpt nak pki selabuh mungkin pon, jgn pki baju ketat yg nampak susuh tubuh and pki tdung labuh tutup tmpt yg diken\hendaki. jgn pki tudung atas dada.. bak kate kema "style org bandar laa, jnis pki tudung ats dada".. Nauzubillah, semoga kite xterbukak ati utk expose that things. pffft -___________-  phm x ap yg sy bebelkan ni? hehehe

so conclusionnyer, xtau laa ptut fikir psl jodoh ke x.. korang rase????? bak kate kubis, kite kena hbiskan belajar dluu.. get a job. bru bleh nk berangan, nk dptkan laki kaye or nk goyang kaki je time kawen. lgpon , to me canelaa nk ngorat k\org2 kaye if kite pon xde ape2 speciality. keep prayingggg guys for the best jodoh.. mama pesan, mase muda ni laa nk doa utk dpt jodoh baik2.. in shaa allah mama. ain akn xlupe utk doa dptkan jodoh yg baik yg dpt jage ain .. 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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20 years old already

2015 and im now 20 years old. no more teen . 

problemnyer sekarang ni, nak pack barang bwk g uia tu, smpi tak terpack. konon kusut giler nak berubah masuk 20 ni. xnak bawak benda kartun la ape la. nak kurangkan pink la dan sebagainyaa.yg xtahannye duk memperagakan beg tangan my mum. acah2 dewase.. smpi mia pon ckp, "mg 20 doh eh? tua nyoo mg.. " ya Allah rase cm xcaye jee dh tua. ni la org kate tua tak sedar diri. sedih gk la sbb still xleh move on dr usia muda ni.. nk plih baju pon smpi kena cri yg kosong. masalahnyee xde baju kosong2. sume yg kiut2 and ade renda.. ade kawan laki tu, siap pesan lg " tahun ni ak xnak tgk ang bwk beg tahun lepas.. xkan nnt da kawen pon nk prangai cm budak jugak" siap offer nk teman bli handbag lagi -_________- 

tapi pagi ni, since dh dpt bukak laptop n dah bleh menulissssss. so i made up my mind to just be myself. buat apelaaa aku nak buang duit beli baju baru or beg baru semate2 umur baru ni. pakai jela ap yg ade..bukannye org tau your age. but tp kena la ubah skett even sket jee. kwn2 msti tau kite da tua kan. so kena cut down hello kitty stuffs. huhu.. and be more matured. xleh duk buat lawak bodoh sgt dh nnt. nnt xde laki la yg nk amik jadi bini. bak kate kubih " penyekk anok".. hahaha..

selain drp pemakaian, yes mase ni pon dah kena praktis masak and lebih berdikari. kena dependent dah.. kite xtau ap yg akn trjadi pd mase akn dtg.. mama pon salu dk ckp, nnt mama pon akn tggl sek awk.mama tua dah. papa xdok doh. ya Allah, i hate listening to that statement. xtaulaa cane my life is mama dh xde nnt. aku and my bro masih kecik. cane nk urus ahmad billy mia betty yg masih skolah lagi. sape nk byr gaji bibik.. sape nk tgk2 kan abah n umi kt kampung nnt.dengan ak yg xreti drive lagi.. pernah x korang terfkir utk khilangan mereka diusia muda? so sape2 yg msih ad parents.be grateful n jgnlaa dk manje sgt smpi xsume benda still depend on parents. im sad but what else can i do. i pray that my mum dipanjangkan umur, dikurniakan kesihatan and dpt tgk kami sume kerja ,dpt anak n sbgainyer.. sedih nyerr rase.. nak dpt kerja yg elok2, biar mampu nak sara keluarga.. hemm talking about marriage, sy nak kawen kt umah ni.. kt kota bharu ni. sbb mama n my aunty duk planning buat rumah kt tanah panji.. sbb rumah skrg ni , umah pusaka.dibahagi tige adik bradik.so enttahlaa. i wish i can buy this house. coz i love this house so much.byk sgt kenangan dlm rumah ni.hopefully, rumah baru yg xbuat lg tu,xsiap2 smpi la aku kawen dlu. hehee. tp nk kawen lmbt lg ni, degree p0n xlagi. jauhnyee ak fikir kan. xpela.. sekadar nk meluahkan rase syg trhdp rumah ni.. i love you Noorani Villa. :) 

anyway, selamat berusia 20 tahun kawan2... 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Phewww Finally ...

Alhamdulillah finally dapat jugak bukak laptop ni.. ya allah , sgt bersyukur laptop ni masih boleh hidup.. ni jee one of tinggalan my dad for us... xnak bg die rosak even die ni besar n xsekiut laptop org lain . but  ireally appreciate things from my dad to us. ok let me see.. byk sgt nk posts and ckp but laptop ni bleh bukak on my last dsy im in kelantan. so maybe i will just talk about two things in two different posts in shaa allah.

1) azam 2015 and last sem for my foundation 

2) no more teen. i m already 20 years OLD

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sincerely Miss LOL

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