December : This is why I'm broke

Upon constructing this title, I chuckled sheepishly knowing the truth that lies behind it. But for the sake of da bomb title, so lets get to explore why I decided to blame December for my draining account.

I dont think it is December since the crime was during November but I had used money from December in advance for November's damage. Okay, so here is how I did.

I have a big brother who I can rely on the most, who seldom appears in my social media since we dont meet often as much as I meet my other siblings.
UPDATE: I received my Nov's salary and paid him straight away.

So whenever I want to go for shopping spree or you know (you dont know right?) go for madness sale like I always did and DO, we need a huge stack of money.. As for me I need more than RM100, and below RM300. BUTTTTTT, I don't borrow his money often. This is due to my October's salary was well used on the early November. ( need to trace back where they went) Hence, how am I gonna shop on 30rd November !!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????

So this is when I can use my brother's role; providing money for his little sister uhuks. So, he lent me RM _ _ _.

First of all, I thanked Allah so much for never fails to give me lights for any sale advertisement be it at offline or online store. Phewww. He really knows that I am good in shopping stuffs with cheap price. The upside for going to sale is we (read: you and I) can purchase all things that we cant afford back then at this time! We get the chance to don luxuries that we buy them with unbelievable price like RM1, RM5, RM10 and more. Welll, this sale is not necessarily new items. it can be defect items or used items. Well, do we really need to be very picky just to get them with such price?

Picky here refers to some judgemental thought about others who don't wear preloved or maybe bundle stuffs. They really need to buy and try first. Then, they are irresistible. No harm done seriously. Some defects are not quite visible. what I reckon on preloved items is they just want to letgo the items and make space for new arrivals. Prelove to relove ! Thats it! I once did organize a preloved event in my college and I could see many of them were very excited to purchase my items that I no longer want to wear them. They gonna love them just like how I did before..

Well, there might be some items with severe defects that you could find in preloved sales. Do not just abandon them.. think ! think ! if the damage was like a slight torn or what not, sew them ! Sew them ! Be innovative ! If a plain blouse costs only like rm1, buy ! hahaahaha. Okay I think I'm giving a wrong advice. Well, look thoroughly on the design as well. is it too ordinary or is it hard to find at any store except like at ZARA, COTTON ON or FASHION VALET. Uhuks. Okayy, I guess I'm being picky too when picking clothes during clearance sales since I know I will be liking so much items, hence several criterion need to be considered thoroughly such as making sure I don't have such design yet, I don't have that colour yet, or does it worth my penny for such design/defect orrrr worth to just buy a new one instead????? Ha one more thing, at preloved place you can find soooo many bunch of brandeds stuffs.......... Don't worry about people's thought. They don't know where you bought them, but if they know, so what??????????? It is not that they could see the brand name inside your clothes. Ehek. We dress up to satisfy ourselves, not others. XD

Apart from preloved event, I always go to clearance sale boutique that mostly sell their off season items with 70% OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (especially Muslimah boutique like Wardatulbydha Hijab, Shawlpublika, Wadi Adra and more) We can even get hari raya collection from previous year with below than RM100 ! Phewwww.. I loike this very much Uhuks.. Hence, please constantly be alert with notification or post from their Instagram announcing any YEAR END SALE very soon.. I am waiting patiently towards the end of this month..

Thinking of making another post on the tips to buy items during sale.

Hmm, why should I wait again? I thought I said that I'm broke already. Okay, heres the problem of this girl. She never stops wanting to shop despite being cashless (broke).

I just love to see the clothes with price that I can (supposed to) afford.

Some of my friends who don't understand the feeling of a shopaholics would question me;

1) Mu nak pakai masa bilo?

2) Beli untuk raya ke sis?

3) Tak pernah tengok pon pakai

4) Banyak banyak beli ni untuk pakai sorang ke??

Whenever I answered I share with my siblings, they would respond like are you sure?
Do you really give your sisters to share your clothes? Never saw them wearing yours...

Little do they know, we even share our wardrobe and what are mine are theirs and I don't mine to let them wear any of my clothes before me (with my consent; I always say yes. I it just a matter of courtesy among us) But, for certain clothes especially white clothes, I tend to attach the clothes with few warningggg like.............

" DONTMAKEITDIRTY" "HANDWASHORWASHSEPARATELY" "USENET" "BECAREFUL"

And for that 3) question, I do not post most of my ootd in my Instagram or even snap them cuz I dont actually bother to have one and if I have it, not necessarily for others' view. Just keep them for myself as for now. I don't have the confidence all the time to post my solo pictures.

Ha, for 2) question the answer can be YES. I often grab this opportunity to purchase two-piece clothes and keep them until certain occasion like Eid, kenduri, bridesmaid duty or any annual dinner. there are four of us (girls) in the family. So, everyone can wear any of the clothes. No need to buy a new one since their sister already volunteered/sponsored to buy all the time.Lucky them.


Ok Ok. I forgot to actually explain on Nov/Dec damage.

Bibis and I made an impromptu plan to visit this one store in KL that advertised on massive clearance . In conjunction with the clearance sale, it also collaborated with one Muslimah model that would be selling her preloved stuffs. Preloved by model means you can wear attires that MODEL WEARS. Aha ! But still, the items were not all vogue. She also wears clothes like ordinary people (us). So, don't put so much hopes or excitement about the clothes. But still, her items were fineeeee but I guessed the clearance that the boutique offered has attracted us the most. All shawls costed only RM5 each, some raya collection marked down until RM40-RM80 from RM200 something.. All pants were only RM1-5 whilst all new pario skirt were only RM 10. Bibis bought many of them. I guessed it was really her catch since she managed to buy nice tops and skirts. (Me backgrounding my mistake and foregrounding bibis' catch ) Sorry bis ! Hahaha..

Okay, as for me I did not hunt for pario and top. I just snatched anything that worth the price. It is more dangerous you knowwwwwww. I'm risking myself and my moneyy.. Hence, I purchased two Raya collection, hmmm okay one batik skirt, white dress, white jacket, yellow floral top, pink top (planned to buy for my friend, but decided to own it ihiks) Hmm, I think that's all.

Going to such event is never enough for me. There will be always things that I recall and regret for not purchasing them HUWAAAA for example the pario was really cheap. I could buy and give to my friend as present. After all they are still new. Sigh. Past is past. Let's just pray for a better future. (better catch with better price)

Attached picture was taken by the photographer of the store and it appeared in the igshop. Huhu.. Somehow, I feel happy to be able to spend this toime with bibis since we rarely get this kind of chance (going to clearance sale) in KL. So, this is the first one and maybe, the last time ? ? :'(

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Do not add up my burden puhliss..

So today I felt mentally exhausted. like super tired, but not physically. It was not merely my fault, but others' fault. Sorry for not admitting my fault. But, I'm upset you know. I met one old friend who would be graduating very soon in my campus.So, we chit chat a bit about subjects that I currently take and how much subjects left.So the beginning was super fine.. I enjoyed the concern.. But later, she said why I did not take all subjects in this semester, total 8 subjects. So, I said oh I cant take that because it was overload and the campus wouldn't let me do so. then, she said oh it was fine. her friend did that too. So, she began to redesign my schedule like telling me that I made a huge mistake. I said Alaa its okay. The add drop session had already ended already (long time ago, almost a month) So, she said Rugi laa bla333333 and sort of a huge disappointment for my decision.

What she did not know was, I already thought thoroughly before stepping into this semester, before deciding that I will extend my semester, I will graduate later than my friends and many more. i have been upset, down and more. Of course I care about my future.. Please dont question the sensitive questions if you do not know what I am dealing with. I did not take all the subjects altogether because I want to maintain a good pointer. I don't want to spoil it just to grad faster. I know I am not a fast learner lately. Huhu.. So, I decided to just finish my degree at the end of 2019 and graduate on 2020. Huhu.. Most of my family members and friends already supported my decision and hope the best for me. And I am also fine to see my friends' achievement and we even planned to do the pre convo together. No jealous or upset feeling at all. But, someone has just ignited the sadness again ...

Well, this issue is not too big for me cuz I will forget about it soon as I just want to focus and end this degree very soon but with flying colors Inshallah. but there's another situation.

People just cant stand seeing my flawed skin and questioned about it ?????????????????
Well, it did not just happen to me but also to my friend...

Do you people know that we did not plan to grow these bumps on our skin?
Do you pi-pol know that we do not want to have these????????
Oh, do you know that we actually take care of our skin more than you??????
and we are really cautious when eating food. There's a lot of 'NO' instead of yes. We avoid nuts, dairy food and food that are too oily and sweet.

But, things cant just always result just like we want..
I have suffered from acne severely when I was 18 years old.
Maybe it was due to the pollution there but it continues until now and getting worse. Even it seems to heal, they start to grow and grow again...

So, some people would ask...
Tak jaga makan ke?
Ni mesti sebab asyik tukar produk.
Muke berminyak tu sebab makan benda berminyak lah.
Muke sensitif ni.
Jangan makan coklat.
Minum air banyak sikit.
Tryla produk ni.. Tryla yang tu,
cuba makan supplemen ni..
Patut takde yang nak pun... (well maybe I feel this )
Geram nak picit.

Or even worse, they compare me with my other beautiful siblings, and wonder why didn't I become flawless like them?

Well, I wonder it too but I never bother about it because we siblings never compare cuz we know it would hurt. SO dont !

I know I am not that pretty enough in your eyes, I am not that deserved to be a Kelantanese due to my flawed face and my sedo funny looking and boring and what so ever. I know it already lah... But, I can try to improve my personality or akhlak as those can be shaped and improved. The skin is very stubborn and takes time to improve. So let us just pray for me to own a better skin just like you, the judgmental people :D I think I should have taken this opportunity for being oppressed to pray as much as I could wholeheartedly to grant me a clear skin because I was hurt by people's words :')


I may not look like as someone who always have a problem or serabut or gloomy or stressed. Because they are unnecessary and temporary. So I just accept it with hope that people could cope and keep calm with my flaws. It doesnt bother me, so surely it would not bother you too. Just keep your mouth shut and just let the nice things to be expressed from it. Let me live serenely XD

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Me and my same old grossed problem

I thought that I would get rid of my problem sooner after taking care of my face very precisely. I follow every rule and step that are required to protect my skin. Alhamdulillah, so far so good and my face is less dry than before. I used cleanser, toner, moisturizer and sunscreen just like most skincare freaks told in their social medias. And they are trusted so don't worry. I'm not going to blame any of them. My face is no longer invaded with acnes or any bumps so I feel like I want to add something new which is exfoliator. I cant really use physical exfoliator like St. Ives either green tea or apricot. So, I did some readings on chemical exfoliator. and I was interested with one stuff that consists of glycolic acid which claim for having low percentage of it and suitable for beginners etc T.T I tried it in just a small amount (patch test). I dabbed it at my left cheek but not all parts. I just dabbed it almost close to my ear because there were some tiny bumps like milia over there. And they were very stubborn to be killed. So, my major reason for adding this "holy grail" product was to make my skin clearer. (How I wish)

BUT NO ..
To have a flawless skin like other girls would just be a dream for me :')

I am terribly upset with the reaction happened on my face.
I just used it for three days at night, meaning three dabs only at a small part of my left cheek. but they did very great in welcoming itchy and big acnes on my cheek. For your information, my skin is very poor in recovering scars. and they can appear very red especially during day. So, people wouldn't see any clear part on my face as there are red bumps everywhere, and they even attacked my chins. they are irritating and I could not help myself from not touching them. I became more interested to look at the mirror, giving up with myself, not hoping too much for recovery because I know this would take a donkey year to heal. I thought it would end soon, but now it begins again. and I am healing them again starting from zero...………………….

So, SAY NO to glycolic acid ;D for me. not for others. I'm just not as fortunate as others who could try anything based on positive feedbacks and receive the same impacts too. No, I'm not. I just have to stick with my current skincare instead of planning to exfoliate my skin.

and I am not interested to cover my skin with stuffs like foundation etc so, me is redha if people see my with such flawed face. Just accept it. I can accept it, but I am just ashamed to deal with people that seem to judge my face. I don't know if such people exist, but if you guys happen to experience the same problem with me, YOU KNOW. :D It is 'our' problem for having such a bad thought while people don't even give a damn to our ugliness. LOL.

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sincerely Miss LOL

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