Me and my same old grossed problem

I thought that I would get rid of my problem sooner after taking care of my face very precisely. I follow every rule and step that are required to protect my skin. Alhamdulillah, so far so good and my face is less dry than before. I used cleanser, toner, moisturizer and sunscreen just like most skincare freaks told in their social medias. And they are trusted so don't worry. I'm not going to blame any of them. My face is no longer invaded with acnes or any bumps so I feel like I want to add something new which is exfoliator. I cant really use physical exfoliator like St. Ives either green tea or apricot. So, I did some readings on chemical exfoliator. and I was interested with one stuff that consists of glycolic acid which claim for having low percentage of it and suitable for beginners etc T.T I tried it in just a small amount (patch test). I dabbed it at my left cheek but not all parts. I just dabbed it almost close to my ear because there were some tiny bumps like milia over there. And they were very stubborn to be killed. So, my major reason for adding this "holy grail" product was to make my skin clearer. (How I wish)

BUT NO ..
To have a flawless skin like other girls would just be a dream for me :')

I am terribly upset with the reaction happened on my face.
I just used it for three days at night, meaning three dabs only at a small part of my left cheek. but they did very great in welcoming itchy and big acnes on my cheek. For your information, my skin is very poor in recovering scars. and they can appear very red especially during day. So, people wouldn't see any clear part on my face as there are red bumps everywhere, and they even attacked my chins. they are irritating and I could not help myself from not touching them. I became more interested to look at the mirror, giving up with myself, not hoping too much for recovery because I know this would take a donkey year to heal. I thought it would end soon, but now it begins again. and I am healing them again starting from zero...………………….

So, SAY NO to glycolic acid ;D for me. not for others. I'm just not as fortunate as others who could try anything based on positive feedbacks and receive the same impacts too. No, I'm not. I just have to stick with my current skincare instead of planning to exfoliate my skin.

and I am not interested to cover my skin with stuffs like foundation etc so, me is redha if people see my with such flawed face. Just accept it. I can accept it, but I am just ashamed to deal with people that seem to judge my face. I don't know if such people exist, but if you guys happen to experience the same problem with me, YOU KNOW. :D It is 'our' problem for having such a bad thought while people don't even give a damn to our ugliness. LOL.

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sincerely Miss LOL

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