Kalau sayang , ape buktinyer????

talking about *sayang* , have you ever wonder * Loving without proof * ???????

emm emm xde kan? hehehe..

al kisah nye camni,

mase tu petang, dlm kete (one family) nk mkn kt kedai la kirenyer.. mase nk order mknan tu, my dad xorder..die ckp nk tumpang2 mknan kami je..n mase duk tunggu mknan tu, die duk ckp fon psl tempah (gulai serati n ayam kampung).. *pelik2 ayah aq ni.. then die pon tny my mum , nk bg mknan tu dlm ape? (dlm tupperware or paperbag)? mule2 my mum kate la tupperware. so die pon pegi la sorang2 naik keta smate2 nk cari tupperware tu. die pegi sorang2 even my mum suh bwk sorang coz takut die pitam (he is not well :'(  lame sgt die pergi...... smpai2 mknn pon tggl sikit je.. n die dtg tu,xsempat mkn .. terus rushing nk gi airport, nk antar sume mende tu (gulai2) ke airport , coz boss die yg mane entah nk buat balik mende tu -_- .. or nk mkn terus kot time tu.. 
(jgn slhkan die sbb workaholic. this is a proof that he works hard for his family )
soo.. my dad yg xmkn sjak tgh hari tu pergi ke airport leaving us kt pantai timur dlu..
then lpas magrib, die baru dtg ke pntai timur to fetch us. lame kan nk melayan kerenah bos yg nk board airplane nih -_- .. mase duk ats kete tu , my mum yg drive.. coz die kate die nk pitam dh ni. pening giler sbb xmkn.. soooooo kami ke kedai mkn.. mkn22222.. mase nak naik kete tu, I saw his difficulty to walk to the car.. mcm xlarat sgt.. jalan pon pgg bahu my mum. I knew he was exhausted..

SUPERDAD !!! :*

mase duk atas kete tuh....

I was thinking thoroughly about my dad's sacrifices that maybe we can't see clearly .. -_-
contohla yer, mcm my adik bongsu tu, nmpak sgt die syg kt my mum lebihh compared to my dad..
hahahaha.. even sy nmpak jelas my dad sgt manjekan/ sygkan die.
even spenat2 die balik keje, if ahmad ckp nk beli gule2, die sanggup kuar mlm nk beli.
teringt plak mase hari jumaat, mase tu otw balik dr pasir mas n supermarket, mase nk smpai rumah tu, 
Ahmad pon ckp * Papa, nak makan pisang..* ayh sy pon katela nape baru ckp, nape xckp mase kt supermarket.. die pon kate ,  mase kt tesco ahmad dh tgk , xde .. 
actually, Ahmad ni even die kecik tp ade je die nk jawab -_- 
xsangka plak, my dad gi U turn just to get the pisang..
geram btul ! mase tgk Ahmad n my mum turun nk beli pisang kt kedai tepi jalan tu, sy pon ckp la
* boo monyet nk mkn pisang *
my dad pon ckp * biarla .. die lame doh tu nk mkn pisang *
grrr.. so I was thinking, aq mcm ni xdlu? lau aq nk , aq dpt xdlu? I can't memorize it..but I knew my dad..
die mcm Superdad.. lau mende tu xluar jangkaan, die akn usaha la nk dptkan.. 
cth satu lg, Mia dlu die nangis sbb rindu sgt kt femily mase duk Tumpat.. die nk sgt my dad buat rayuan utk gi mrsm Pc.. don't get me wrong.. mase tu, mmg mase budak2 f4 pakat buat rayuan blake.. so Mia is one of them.. yelaa. sy pon geram jgk kt Mia sbb nangis sbb bende tu.. tu baru Tumpat.. Lau nk difikirkan balik, sy ni kire ok la xmerungut dlu .. dlu mase, sy f2 till awal2 f4, my family lived in Kuantan. xpernah outing n balik cuti sem gitu bru balik.. tp yelaa maybe sy ng Mia ni lain.. sy kakak n die adik. So, sy pon perlula memhami jiwa org muda :) 

PAPA !!
I'm so touched :'(

ok2 ! nk sambung *termenung-an * kt ats kete td ....
pastu sy pon teringat la kt kawan2 sy yg xpakai tudung / xtutup aurat..
I was thinking, dieorang ni xnak tutup aurat mybe sbb rase rambut tu cantik sgt n bla3..
di sudut lain, die tak fikir ke yg dosa die tu turut disalurkan kt ayah die?
even ayah die dh meninggal / alim sekalipon, he would shoulder ur sins ..
sape yg kate die tu *anak bapak* la .. rapat ngan *ayah* la, prove it ! not just in action ( peluk, care or etc ) but bear in mind about pahal dosa. xkan yg tu pon xleh fikir !!!!

SEDAR SEDAR LA YER..
JANGAN PENTINGKAN DIRI SENDIRI !

yelaaa. kate sayang.. peluk cium segale bg kt ayah kite.. 
tapi dlm sudut lain, kite xfikir for incoming hereafter/akhirat..
adakah kasih sayang kite trhdp ayh kite masih berkekalan? proved?
bygkan mase akhirat nnt, ayah yg kite syg selame ni.. yg xhenti2 keje coz nk support kluarga kiter..
nak bg anak2 xrase hidup susah mcm die dlu. :'( tp ape yg kite balas? tanpa kite sedar, kite yg menghumbankan die ke neraka. diseksa dgn azab yg pedih :'(.. Nauzubillah.. 

dun get this point wrong, bukn nk ckp org yg xtutup aurat tu xtanggung dosa..dosa yg dibebani kaum bapa is kecuaian mereka tidak mendidik dgn sempurna.tapi kalau die dh sehabis mungkin bg didikan suh tutup aurat, tp anak tu masih xtutup jgk.. die dah terlpas dosa tu.. sbb hidayah ditangan Allah.for more infos, click http://lobaitampin.blogspot.com/2012/01/bapasuami-tanggung-dosa-anakisteri.html

Lau korang ponder about this matter, mmg korang akn rase sgt menyesal n takut sgt.. takut nk kuar rumah..
takut la.. n lebih behave :) .. sedarilah akn pengorbanan ayah sejak kite kecil lg until kite 18 tahun ni.
bukan nk suh xsyg ibu , tp korang tu jgn abaikan ayah jugak. even die x selembut hati ibu, tp deep in his man's heart , he loves his children :') ...
so kaum Hawa ! be a good Muslimah dat give a relief for parents not only in world , but also in hereafter ;)
itulah bukti yg sbenar2 nyer ..

#peringatan untuk sy jugak .. lau slh, jgn marah.. sekadar mlepaskan geram di hati..

Sexy itu up-to-date?
well we would see it,
nnt kat akhirat pakaian sape pling TOP !

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Ape punyer rumours la.....

12 April 2013...


What's on your mind???????
sape2 yg apply MARA punyer scholarship/loan ape entah sume kalut kan nk tgk dpt ke x.
including me :3
so lepas dpt tau kptusan tu , ad yg dpt 16 hb or 17 hb..
prepare la for interview dgn penuh ilmu di dada :3
bace punyer bace, praktis pny praktis..
habisla sume org interview pd 16hb tu.. sy punyer interview tu 17 hb..
so kire nasib baikla skit kan..

Khairil Rasyidi

April 16 via mobile

Done wif mara...haha, nk soaln bocor ke? topup 30 hinggit dlu!
ok2, gurau je, klau sudi bagi je, ok gurau je, hahaha.,
mcm ni, ada test je.. no intrview... kene perah otak btol2,haha...bkn iqtest, tpi based on fture planning, komuniti, pastu ada lg soalan ntah pape...tpi most of tha que pasal bisnes(syukur, bnde paling aku minat), pastu leadrship, syrikat ape sume tu...soaln math kene pikir luar kotak skit,...haha..soalan pasal ank luar nikah pun ada..wattaquestions?
paling xleh blah dye tanya "bapak mary ada 5 orang anak. ank pertama brnama nana, ank kdua brnama nene, ank ktiga brnama nini, dan anak keempt brnama nono. siapakah nama anak kelimanya?" aku jwb-nunu, btol lha kan?, btw, gud luck utk sesape yg kene g 6t!!

Firdaus Shafiq

April 16

teringat kat satu soalan MARA tadi.(IQ TEST)..lebih kurang gini ar soalan die..(yg dah shortkan)..
Mary ada 4 orang adik beradik...seorang Nana,kedua nene,ketiga nini, anak keempat nama apa??
A-Nina
B-Nona
C-Nunu
D-Mary..
haha...*betulkan pilihan jawapan kalau salah...

ok bla bla bla.. kitorang nie kononnye ingt ad INTERVIEW la..prepare bagai nak rak,

*ye kew?*so bebudak 17 hb ni menarik nafas lega termasuklah diri ini..

disebalik PSYCHOMETRIC test tu, ad la jgk citer2 yg berunsur kesedaran ttg pengorbanan parents terhdp kitew2 nim

ade tu , parents *both* of them snggup amik cuti semate mate nak antr anak nyer yg nk *interbiu* nim

xkurang jugak ad yg beli kasut baru untuk interbiu.. ehem3 tini terr..

ade jugak yg sanggup berulang alik dr kedai fotostat ke cyber cafe ..

macam2 usaha parents ni utk mlengkapkan persiapan anak2 nye ke tmpat interbiu :3

 mcm sy plak, mak sy yg amik cuti coz ayh sy sibuk sgt coz die kene attend Karnival MARA tuu..

dahla 2 jam nk boleh ke smpai kt sane :"( time kasih mama ku :*
moral nye, appreciate your parents ! and pasang niat betul2 nak sambung belajar kerana Allah, nak balas jase parents yg tinggi menggunung !there's still time to set up ur goal

ok, ni nak share citer sal rumet sy mc jah aka izzah :P

"oke bce nim

pagi xd tolok lewat skit sbb abh izzah kte dekat jer

so dlm 1 jm lebih bleh sapa

dlm pkul 10.30, brenti kt masjid besut sbb nop tukar pakaian

tiba2 bru prase, bag sandang ore tertinggl kt umh

dlm bag tu ada ic kut

trus abah izzah sruh kwn dyo g amik kt umh

lps tu drive ke arah besut

abah izzah plop

lps jer letak izzah ngan mok izzah kt mrsm besut

dyo drive balik mula

dyo janji nop jupo kt tgh jale ngan kwn dyo tu

punyala risau sbb klu interview kn ic tu petim

so, terpaksa la balik mula

rupa2nya test iq jer

dan x guna lasum pum ic tu

agak frust..

the end..

amacam?

best x story sy"

sedikit perkongsian drp nik izzah atira , my loveable roomate. nk tgk gmbr die? :p

the pink one

Rumours yang sy nak ckp nye sebenarnye we thought it was interview but we ended up with PSYCHO test..

kawan2 yg xdpt MARA, jgnla sedih plak.. asasi masih ade. matrik masih ad. lagipon calon MARA ni ramai giler2 n sy pon xpasti dpt ke x.. insha Allah rezeki ade dimane2 .. jgn putus berdoa :D

p/s : special thanks and big applause to kengkawan yg *interbiu* pd 16 hb tu coz sudi share pengalaman n bg soalan spot kat kami , golongan 17 hb .. timekaseh sbb xkedekut ilmu.. sy doakan korang berjaye utk test ni.. :D aminn :* muaxx syg sume2

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sincerely Miss LOL

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waiting outside the lines :')

Semalam merupakan malam yang sangat menyedihkan.

Sorang in doubt to choose whether to stay or not coz she is leaving !

Sorang sedang mengeluh tentang kemalangan diri,ketidakgunanye die.

Sorang sedang bersedih terhadap seorang kawan yang mcm da LOST HOPE..

and me? I was sad to all their problems.Sad coz I couldn't help them except lending ears to their sadness.

(buat org yg tutup dh hati, n xleh terima nasihat hrp buleh exit dr blog Miss Lol)

 And at that moments, duk melayan mood-sedih diorang, tiba2x diri sendiri ni didatangi kesedihan.
ase tu gi wall-walking to my my my my ............ n tibe2x terpandang somthing,somthing,somthing.
malas nak citer, tp mende tu sgt menjentik hati yang dah kuat buat tahun ni.
so, I neglected the tiny matter. sebab malas nak wujudkan problem.
problem is not a problem. tau x?
cthnyer, kite duk mikir
 " Aku nak ke die tu, tapi die xnak ke aku sbb aku hudoh, x HOT, x berpelajaran"
"Aku nak beli smartphone sbb sume org da tuka fon baru,tp aq xde duit "
"die kate aku hudohla.die kate aku xreti add maths la. die kate die kate"
erk, tu bukan masalah tp korang saje je nak wujudkan masalah n kusutkan fikiran anda.
nati korang try beza masalah btul n masalah yg saje korang create utk mnyusahkan hidup korang jew.

Lau kite asyik sedih,n ponder psl ape yg org selalu ckp ttg kite,biler kite nak MAJU?

mulut manusia mmg xde insurans,cakap ikut dek je.kite plak mudah je nak makan hati. hadui 

Malunyer.cakap sorang sorang,
ade orang bace tak?
dengar jela eden nak citerr

Manusia ni xboleh lari dari masalah,masalah pelajaran, masalah percintaan, kewangan , masalah paras rupa, masalah kerjaya , masalah jerawat , ye ye macam2x la.. tapi, kite takley lari dari masalah tu. kite kena hadapinyer.Hadapi? ade orang mengeluh n macam redho je. ade orang berusaha tp still xlepas dari masalah tu jugak.ade jgk org bernasib baik coz dpt cope with them.
 Saya pon pernah terfikir jugak kenape mende gitu jadi. tapi entahla wey.

Tapi bg saye (highy-motivated) setiap masalah ade penyelesaiannyer. kerana Allah bg dugaan setimpal dengan kemampuan saye and ade la hikmahnyer.Contohnyer,sy mdpt keputusan SPM yg cukup2 makan, sikit la jugak tp sy xnak mengeluh. so sy pikir positively ( skang ni budak2 stret A sume tgh duk hadapi interview n kena hdapi byk challlenge) sy tau kemampuan sy, lau sy dpt stret A, msti sy akn takut2 nk gi interview la n debar2 bla3. sy tau kemampuan sy. sy xsuke mende2  gitu..
ape lg? pasal ade jerawat? haish ! bukan kau sorang la atas muka bumi ni yg ade jerawat ! normal la tuh !
nnt hormon stabil,ok la tu..just go with the flow.jangan disebabkan fuss yg leceh tu, korang dah rase xnak hidup, nak bunuh diri n bla3x. entah apela nak ckp ni. INGAT, BUKAN ANDA SORANG JE YANG ALLAH TIMPAKAN DUGAAN BERAT2X . BANYAK LAGI WEY MAKHLUK ALLAH.
TAK TERKIRA. So, jangan fikir Allah duk bg dugaan kt kite jelah.

Allah menguji seseorang itu kerana Allah swt mempunyai rahsianya tersendiri, sama ada Allah hendak tambah iman kita atau hendak uji sejauh mana keimanan kita. Dan kerana sesuatu ujian itulah yang membuka mata hati kita,yang mendidik kita supaya jangan mudah putus asa dalam kehidupan yang bagaikan bahtera dilautan yang penuh dengan onak duri,ujian juga dapat mematangkan kita.

Kadang-kadang kita tertanya-tanya, mempersoalkan kepada Allah swt kenapa kita diberi ujian yang berat sebegitu sekali sehingga kita terlupa pada siapa yang perlu kita mengadu segala masalah kita, pada siapa kita harus minta kembali kekuatan kita. Astagfirullah, lemahnya dan rendahnya iman kita.

Tidak redha dalam menghadapi ujian yang Allah beri terhadap kita. Jika kita anggap diri kita ditimpa musibah yang besar kita hendaklah ingat bukan kita sahaja yang mengalaminya,mungkin ada sahabat-sahabat kita @ saudara seakidah kita yang lain menghadapi musibah yang sama bahkan lebih teruk atau lebih besar dari kita.

Bukankah,Allah telah berkata dengan jelas di dalam Al-Quran yang Allah tidak akan sekali-kali menguji hambaNya diluar kemampuan hambaNya. Allah tahu kita kuat dalam menghadapi ujianNya jadi Allah berikan ujian itu ke atas diri kita. Di sini kita dapat lihat betapa sayang dan kasihnya Allah kepada kita sebagai hambaNya.

Allah menguji seseorang bukan kerana Allah benci kepada kita tetapi percayalah yang Allah sangat kasih kepada kita. Cuma kita sebagai hambaNya tidak pernah hendak bersabar dalam menghadapi ujianNya. Pasti Allah telah aturkan yang terbaik buat kita kerana setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya.

KENAPA KITE DIUJI?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," ("I am full of faith to Allah") sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."

-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesua tu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. "

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA RASA FRUST?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."

- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB

 "Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan) , dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan). "

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"

-         Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

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KITA BERTANYA : APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ?

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KITA BERTANYA : KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. "

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

KITA BERKATA : AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!

QURAN MENJAWAB

"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir."

- Surah Yusuf ayat 12

panjangnyer aku membebel =='

Sape yang tak pernah mengeluh? even tuan empunyer blog sendiri pon pernah mengeluh. tp itu pada zaman xpaham bahase lg. zaman xleh pkir rationally lg..

my opinion la, we shouldn't sigh for our lackness such as appearance,intellingence n etc.
Ape yg kite dpt lau ckp  Aku hudoh la, Aku bodoh la, Aku ni xde org nak pon, Aku ni xtau isu semase pon, Aku ni xde org nak  jage pon. Aku ni xde kelebihan langsung. Aku ni bla3x
So, now masuk Form 5 la Form 5 la sy dpt aura kesedaran skit especially kt MRSM PC..
I grabbed lots and lots of moral value n things yg mengubah diri sy.
rupe2 nyer ape yang kite selalu cakap, itulah yg akan jadi pade kite..
cane ek? ayt formal die? Lau kite selalu kite ckp kite ni bodoh, kite would terdorong untuk buat mende bodoh.. gitu kot.self esteem kite akan DOWN DOWN DOWN.
yer, DOWN. ibarat meludah ke langit la.. kau cakap,kau kena. keh3

so,instead of mengeluh , heavy sigh , why don't kite amik sikit mase untuk kite fikir fikir fikir kenape kite
BODOH, kenape kite XBERGUNA , kenape kite ni BLA3.......

So, jom fikir kenape Allah xdengar doa kite ? kenape orang lain tu perfect? (bijak comel bahagia )
kiter ni asyik NILAI org jer. how do u know that they are beautiful , clever and blissful?
maybe mcm bijak n cantik tu, kite nampak.tp actually, sume org ade kekurangan masing2x. depends on how they cope with it hingga org xtau :) NILAI balik diri kite plak, ptg td sy terfikir "aku ni nak suami hensem comel (ya Allah , Izzul Islam <3 ) nak kerja yg on demand la mcm2x la, until mase duk berangan tadi, *aku ni tak tahu malu betul, dalam doa mintak macam2, nak comela nak pandai la, nak nikah dgn tut2x la.. Tapi aku ni jarang plak nk bsyukur dgn ape yg ade.aku asyik nampak kelemahan aku je,asyik nampak kekurangan aku jer. aku tak pernah fikir bukan sume org bernasib baik mcm aku.

NIKMAT TUHAN MANAKAH YANG ENGKAU DUSTAKAN??????


 Aku ade papa dan mama.
aku boleh melihat,aku ade dua kaki,boleh jalan elok lagi,maybe kite xpernah nak pkir mnde gitu kan coz kite ingat Alah,tu mende biasela,sume org ade.Betul ke sume org ade? awak xpernah bayang ke camne awak nak hidup tanpa mak ayah awak?tanpa adik beradik?tanpa KAWAN?tanpa KAWAN?xde kawan n dikelilingi musoh ! :o tanpa kaki? tanpa mata?
takut takut.. Janganlah berburuk sangka kepada Allah.. Die dah atur life kite seelok-eloknyer. It depends pd kite utk face it dgn tegar atau awal2 lg dah surrender..

I got a friend, maybe a special friend sbb kisah hidup die sgt istimewa bg saye..

Name die *Shi* pembakar semangat,dulu2 kami rapat la n die selalu citer kisah hidup die..

die xde ayah, mak die xkerje pon, rumah die xde bilik tidur,die tido atas lantai je dpn tv.Die xnombor fon sendiri,die xde fb,die xde internet. Umah die selalu masuk air lau banjir.tiap kali banjir,die la org yg paling kalut,die kena angkt macam2 ke tempat tinggi sbb nk slmt kan barang2.Lau balik rumah, adik die akan pinjam fon die, sbb diorang ade satu je fon.tu pon fon yg cikai dooh.xde kamera. die xtau pon lagu2 up to date. Lau tgk baju die,kecik je dr form 4 smpai sekarang mmg baju tu jew.Mase cuti,die xmcm kite.nak bangun lewat sesuka hati. die kena bangun awal.nak ke kebun,nak tanam itu ini, nak parut kelapa la, nak kemana2 even ke bandar pon naik basikal je.orang sekarang kan naik motor je la nak ke mane2..
Tapi, die cerita tu bukan sedap die xsuke dgn kehidupan die.Tapi, die bg sy sedar yg we can change our lifestyle.Mase trial, die xmain2 langsung and die dah masuk U ,ditanggung oleh MARA (gune result TRIAL)..
die sedar yang die lah harapan keluarga untuk ubah gaya hidup yang diorang alami skrang..
die xmengeluh kerana lau die mengeluh same je seperti die memperlekehkan zaman kecik2 mak die.
yela.. lau kite duk bersedih sbb miskin,maknenye kite salahkan mak kite la sbb dulu xngaji btul2x utk dpt pekerjaan bgus kan? Tula mak ayah kite antar kat sekolah bagus2, wishing that we don't become like them.
Kite xleh fikir if kite BODOH,selamenyer BODOH.xx. kite boleh ubah dengan DUIT (Doa,Usaha, Ikhtiar,Tawakal)
Kagum tak? jangan mudah putus asa dan putus harapan pada Allah.bersangke baiklah pade die. Mungkin , gred ibadat kite pada Dia xcukup bagus n xsetimpal dgn ape yg kite nak.yelaa doa mintak nk BIJAK, tp solat laju mcm
road runner jer.fikir fikirkanlah..  

Bla Bla Bla.

korang tak terfikir ke yg entry ni tak ngam ng title? ni nak ckp sal title.

read and think.

my title was Grayson Chance's song about being confident and be yourself and overcoming something in your life.yang bold dgn red tu, korang kena cakna maksud die.mndalam tuh !

You'll never enjoy your life, 

Living inside the box

You're so afraid of taking chances, 

How you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations, 

Force you to play it safe

Get rid of all the hesitation, 

It's time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around

And looking down on tomorrow

You gotta let your feet off the ground, 

The time is now

I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting, 

I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets

Even if it's just tonight

How you gonnna walk ahead

If you keep living blind

Stuck in the same position, 

You deserve so much more

There's a whole world around us, 

Just waiting to be explored

The world will force you to smile

I'm here to help you notice the rainbow

Cause I know, 

What's in you is out there

I'm trying to be patient (I'm trying to be patient)

The first step is the hardest (the hardest)

I know you can make it, 

Go ahead and take it

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sincerely Miss LOL

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FRIEND IS NOT BEST FRIEND YET

FRIEND IS NOT BEST FRIEND YET?

Dalam bahasa melayu nye kawan bukan kawan baik lagi..

he3,actually I was forced by a feeling of *not comfortable* with someone..

okay,not me only..coz I am sure that any of you face this matter too..

part of you maybe,only *the chosen one* kot..like me.. :3

I have friends..and I have best friends..
for instance,I got 1000+ friends in facebook * mind your heart,don't ever think that I am proud of that..never. :D
continue..eventhough I got 1000+ friends in facebook,but I only wait ,chat and comment with my best friends/close friends...
In that social website, I knew a girl..Well,we just become friend through facebook..
but, I can feel that she wants to be more close with me..coz whenever I online,
she doesn't greet me first,but I got instinct that she wants me to start it first
*see how perasan I was..
So, I made up my mind to not Greet her as I wish..
actually, not made up my mind but I got lots of best friends to chat with.. :/
so sorry,if I got free time I would do so actually,greeting you my dear..
*she admitted that she waited for me to greet,but it was a long time ago*
one month or two months ago*
you know what, I think I was wrong for getting to know her..
I don't know that she feels *comfort with me..
and I feel guilty that I might get her hurt one day..sooner or later,or I already HAD..
actually, I HAD..
one fine day, I had asked her in my own way which made her so sincere to me
actually,she is always sincere or *jujur dooh*..
she told dat, I seldom greeted her in facebook nowadays n bla3..
and u know,I always easily get affected with *guilty* feelings.
Don't u feel guilty?
"someone is waiting for u to online and greet her*
me =guilty and grrr..
it made me felt *OMG ! she is online? what must i do? what topics should we blabbered today?*
this is hard for me, I feel pity not to treat her nicely.
If only she knows that she actually *torturing mentally*
my mental ! I got lots of thing to do,lots of things to think ! lots of things to surf!
and then............ she chatted..
*buzy ek?xpela otu dlu salam* kind of that.. hurm..
so, level up ! *level of guilty*
(sy tau die sunyi yg sebonar2x nyer :/ ) terase diri ni kejam nk taip entry nih!

DEAR FRIEND,

me,actually not a really good friend,not really a good girl and mostly,not really a good Muslimah.
but I always want people surrounding me to feel comfortable and happy when be with me..
I don't feel any trouble if you greet me or I greet you,
but it can't be always or everyday coz I am a normal person..
sometimes, I got lack of ideas,topics to talk or something to be shared..
if you pop up idea,insha Allah I am wiling to elaborate it coz I am elaborater..lalala
I am not a recognised story-teller that hardly lack of infos.
I am just Ain Irdina that ......
that......
that.......
that....
that....
that what? * blank ! jammed !
if i know you well or you know me well, we could be more close right?
seems that my entry tonite resembles that I don't like new friend? new stranger?
oh no,not exactly.
what I am telling you guys actually, if you want to ask a FRIEND to become BEST FRIEND..
there is no SHORCUT.. the feeling* of BEST would come in heart automatically..
not SELF-MADE.. hurmm.. So, don't hurt yourself *terase ape kot bi!* stress ..
jangan terase kalau sy tak tegur if awak online seharian.. 
and sy tak reply chat awak after2x kite tengah syok chat..
and sy abaikan awak seketika..
sila fahami saya..saya ni kadang2x xtau nak reply..lau saye reply LOL jew.
awak kate one word je? awak pon sedih..so it is better for me to not say LOL.. ?
hurm susah kan nak jaga hati orang.. :'( tapi saya dah cuba sedaya upya gigih bla3x..
maybe you see ,find out that I am friendly ( me<< friendly??????)
okay forget about it.. You should realised also that if you want to add up a friend you must know her lifestyle,her dislike and her like..

okay STOP IT Aeyn..you may hurt her or anyone..
saye xnak kehilangan kawan atau kawan baik..saye rela hilang boyfriend n mmg sy da kehilangan boyfriend pon..lalalala boyfriend bleh cari lagi..tp kawan? maybe it will not be the same as your missing friend :')
Saye ni berbicare cam ade je org *terhegeh2x* nak kawan ngan saye..
*giler perasan nak mampos*
this *cerita ats2x* not only happen to me..but it happen to my friend..
ni citer pasal kawan sy plak,tp die bukan senasib dengan sy. die yang buat..hahaa



PEMANGSA: kak bedah
MANGSA: kak ton (mangsa tu mcm sy la,we feel the same)

Kak Bedah ni tny la sy, nape ngan kak ton ,semakin menjauh dari die..nape benci sangat kat die..msg xbalas..call x angkat..( gaya cam xdilayanla k?)
So, I asked her cane boleh jadi gitu?
Kak Bedah citer yg die ni nak sangat rapat ngan kak Ton.sebab kak Ton layan die ngan baik mase mula2x kenal dulu.. (tgk,die misunderstand kak Ton) 
tapi sejak akhir2 ni kak Ton ade orang lain dah ,iaitu kak Tie(bukan name sebenar)
kirenye macam kak Tie ni pengganti die.. (well I think no,coz mmg diorang rapat sejak azali n kak Bedah je yg xtau)
kak Bedah ni stress sgt sbb xdiendahkan until kak Ton msg die
ni isi2x msg kak Ton ke kak Bedah yg ditaip ke saye..*pnjg relation*

#delete semua pasal kak Ton lam memori kak Bedah
#buang sume mende yang kait
#delete no die..

( ok kak Ton ni xmacam saye coz die terkam kak Bedah *jujur dooh* die dah rimas sgt,critical )

tapi lam situasi ni,sian jugak kat kak Bedah.. tapi saye tau maybe kak Ton rimas dengan die.. 
yelaaaa kak Ton tu dah ad bff.. dhla ad sorang dah yg dengki nga bff kak Ton coz rapat sgt..
ditambah plak dgn kak Bedah..mane tak serabut nye..
Congrats to kak Ton tersebut sebab digilai ramai.. -_- tapi seriously berat dugaan die..
tak tau antara due..
-_- the example above xde niat nak ngumpat ke hape ke but as a moral of the story..
ade moral tak citer aku tuh????

MORALNYE, persahabatan bukan paksaan.. Tolong jangan asyik suruh orang jer faham diri kite, take a short moment to understand them..please la.. jangan selfish sangat.. kite hidup BERMASYARAKAT.
lau kau nak sangat jual ikan , berkawanlah dengan ikan :P
ok jahatnyer aku..tak2x.. lau nak kawan n kawan lebih rapat, slow down..jangan rushing..tak kemana nye die..tapi ,jangan sekali kali berfikir untuk jadi replacement kawan baik die..Ade paham?
yelaa jangan la exsaited dooh nak kawang sampai sanggup robek robekkan persahbatan diorang yang dah lame terjalin..en en ? 

FRIEND IS NOT BEST FRIEND YET.. 

(eh awak awak tu ,TOLONG sgt jgn pikir saye ni poyo ke hape ke,janganla memandai chopp sy bajet perasan giler mcm la org nk kwn ng ko sgt :( ..sy tgh sedih ni..jangan tmbahkan kesedihan ini ..understand me..ape korang rase if u r in my smelly shoes? )kawan2x ! janganla tinggalkan saya plak..humm. husnuzon k? :'(

p/s : ss dan ety especially jgn terasa name anda digunakan.. yadda yadda..name kak bedah n kak tie tuhh :p

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sincerely Miss LOL

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*feeling useless* *sorrow mood* *tedious* *boring*

At this moment,I could not bear this tons of same feeling anymore..
Although it is the same feeling,but when I gathered it*,it becomes tons.
*understand? :/
please dun stop reading although I'm gonna talk rubbish stuff today..
I need to share my mood :/



I get up early in the morning everyday to shake hand with my mum before she went to office,
tidying up her room (that is only thing I can do to help her)
or if I wake up late, I see that nobody,nobody at downstairs level.
everyone has gone to school and office.
I want to apply a part time at bakery near my house,but my mum doesn't allow me coz it is hot nowadays.
So, I spend most of my time day and night just in my room..wandering and decorating 
watching television?not interested at all..cooking? when my grandma had gone to heaven,that spirit had invisible( hehe,related or not*? )
..reading newspapers?seldom.
I rather sitting in front of lappy.waiting for nothing..
my lil brother would come upstairs inviting me to have lunch...
and after that he would busy himself playing with ps2.. -_-
at night, I am not alone anymore.I got my family back..hoho..
but night-time is just a short spend coz they need to sleep early for the next days..
I would sleep early if I got nothing to read,no one to chat,nobody to give opinions.
My phones? I feel like I want to throw them !
My bestfriend (P) keeps texting me all days,not once a day,maybe five a day..
(he never get bored with me) :D
I don't have a mood or even a credit to fill up his days like old days.
I am lazy to text right now,even to open the messages..

(keep repeating the same chores almost 3 months) *gone insane..

Right now,at the top of my home ( my room is on the upstair)
it is the only place that I stucked..
although people sees the huge figure from outside, but inside it, I feel the emptyness the narrowness..
coz,although it is big or a lot,if we are alone, it would be worthless.
all my sisters n brother study in a boarding school.
they only come home during holidays..
how I wish the time to fly fast so that the holiday could reach immediately.
miss thier laugh,their routines that always cheer me up though sometimes I even can't on9 when the returned home !
although right now I am holidaying(long one)*,holidaying alone is BORESOME lot n lot !
I need to do something,meeting people so that I could talk as much as I do before.
laughing with people ,seeing happy or sad mood by other..
I AM ALONE.

frankly speaking, I don't like to be alone,
not telling you dat I hate to be single,(never get in that relay anymore)
alone that I mean right now is alone in my home..
No, I am grateful already for letting me to breath in and out all the days dat had passed ,
but my days were blank .. I did nothing worth either to me or to my family...
I don't know what to do..
the scorching sun prevents me to do energetic outdoor such as cycling,walking,playing outside ALONE..
those the acnes and ulcers that visit me never cheer me up even I don't invite them !
facing them rite now !
to be sincere, if I could, I would always try to hide myself from the scorching sun..hehe..
(she don't like the lights sang by JB~) 

Now, I am sitting right in front of a long table with the laptop placed on it..
and a standing fan at my side and the ceiling fan on the ceiling *of course..
sweltering everyday in my room coz my house is right on the roadside.
typing my tedious days that I had been through on my blogs..
commenting happily (alone again) in the blog n fb :p
reminscing my memories with you guys through facebook..
liking the quotes that appear at home that suit  with my life..
If my best friends still appear off,I would lay on my bed ..
reading stack of novels borrowed from my cubemate..
or sleeping while waiting them to online..

 I REALLY WISH THAT I COULD DO VARIOUS NEW THINGS WITH MY SIBLINGS AND MY FRIENDS.I SELDOM ALONE COZ I LOVE MINGLING WITH PEOPLE :D

p/s :actually,I was waiting for a postman (fast delivery) who called me early in the morning asking the location of my house.. I won a blog contest recently n I got two presents (a dress and a novel)
suddenly,I heard a pon pon*.I ran hurriedly to get the man.Now,the presents are right beside me..

the dress doesn't look like a dress at all
although it is pink,but the flower designed on it were -_-
short sleeve
over fitted(tried just now)
small to me mybe.
(dislike!)
the novel?
Mr Cupcakes..
sounds interesting.
ok bsyukur2x :p

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sincerely Miss LOL

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