Muhasabah diri sekejap .

Untuk gadis yang menangis kerana lelaki. Selama ini selalu perhati. Mampu diam. Izinkan ku coretkan sesuatu.

Dear akhawat yang kita sayang kerana Allah. 
Allah ciptakan hawa dengan sifat malu.
Maka awak awak sekalian ,
janganlah sesekali singkirkan sifat malu dalam diri awak.
Kerana malu itu sebahagian daripada iman wahai mawar agama.

Dear muslimah,
Jadilah Haura' al Maqsurah.
Ertinya bidadari yang terpelihara.
Seindah namanya. Keraskan hati bila ada lelaki yang nak mengurat dirimu.
Tidak perlu layan. Tidak perlu bercrush crush. Selagi belum sedia, belum sampai masanya, 
jangan mencari

Sedih bila lihat rakan rakan yang sanggup stay up semata mata nak berbalas mesej dengan pakwe.
Sedih lihat rakan rakan yang menangis cemburu tengok pakwe dia dengan perempuan lain, Sedih sangat melihat rakan rakan yang menunggu lelaki nak propose couple denan dia. Someone said this to me, "perasaan tertarik pada lelaki tu biasa. Tu bukan perasaan cinta, itu cuma instinct. Tarikan antara lelaki dan perempuan. Dan instint itu biasa. Tidak perlu layan. Jangan cepat kata lafaz jatuh cinta. Kerana cinta itu mahal. Kalau ada lelaki nak mengurat dirimu, jangan terlalu cepat percaya. Jangan terlalu cepat jatuh. 

Dia tidak serius. Dia cuma main main. Dia cuma nak test. Kalau dapat, dapat. Kalau tak dapat, dia cari orang lain. Kalau dia serius, dia tak akan membazirkan masa dengan benda yang sia sia. Serius cuma sia sia. Kalau dia serius, dia akan buat dengan serius. Dapatkan dengan cara terhormat.

Dear fatayat.
Semua perempuan cantik. Allah ciptakan kita dengan cantik. Tak ada satu manusia pun yang tak cantik. Cuma, lain mata lainlah penilaiannya. Awak, tutup aurat tu molek molek ya. Awak tutup aurat pun tetap cantik. Sedih bila tanya kenapa tak pakai tudung dia jawab dia tak rasa cantik bila pakai tudung. Rasa macam nak nangis. Rasa macam nak peluk dia lepas tu cakap kat dia, "Awak cantik sangat. Awak tak perlu cantik cantik depan syabab. Dia stranger. Dia outsider. Cantik untuk yang sepatutnya je. "

Sebab saya sayang awak, saya tak nak awak pergi terlalu jauh . Awak ada saya, sahabat awak, kalau sunyi, saya boleh menemani.

Afaf Amran - owner ig @usrah santai

Yes, I retyped this from her ig coz I feel the need to sharee this to all and as a reminder for me when I forgot. Sejujurnya, saya yang baca dan taip ni pon terasa deep sangat coz I had been in those situation before this. But, after that saya bangkit and bina semangat untuk tidak lagi kecundang with the same mistakes. n here I am . a single lady but still cant get rid of crushing on people -___- but I will try to litter him. Kawan kawan, hayatilah setiap kata kata yang sis Afaf coretkan. Credits to her for such wise advice :)

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sincerely Miss LOL

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It matters to me .

 Susah ke nak cakap Thank You atau Sorry ?

Dont u feel it matters to express that when u did any wrong or even not .

Dont u feel it matters when someone do good to you or put some efforts on you or do anything that they deserve your appreciation ?

Saying thanks or sorry doesnt waste any money or time. Just say it. Lower your ego and make those two words as habit . You wont know how glad the people are to receive such words :) 

Actually , I was really upset with a friend. Im not good in describing people and assuming what she likes or dislikes. whether she is satisfied or not. whether she is happy or not. whether she misses me or not. So, I as always *think positive* "maybe die ni jenis yg tak reti tunjuk kot. tp die nak bekawan ng aku.tapi die jenis malu2 n nak aku yg kickstart dulu since ak kan jenis yg kurang malu gituh " 

Pada awalnya macam kuat lagi la , macam takpe Ain, sabar2 . lain orang lain perangai . I try to understand many people. cope with different kind of people . But somehow, lau sikit2 tu tahan lagi, tapi when it reached the utmost level , rase macam nak give up berkawan. tapi aku tak pernah pon putus kawan ng orang.and nanti nampak macam aku la yang desertedkan kawan .So , aku still layan baik lagi dia. but I dont know whether she realizes or not that im showing my efforts to befriend with her. I don know whether she realizes that I never forget her. 

Somehow, a friend of mine told me not to terhegeh hegeh. and then I realized that aku ni bertepuk sebelah tangan. boleh jadi dia dah tak nak rapat ng aku. boleh jadi dia dah jumpa kawan yang lagi selesa. Yela, semua orang macam tu. akan jumpa new friends yg boleh jd lagi rapat.Same goes with me. So I hope that she is not mad with me when I no longer ajak makan minum or what so ever anymore. Since, shes having a better friend , Im fine. I will be happier to see shes happier. But Im sorry for all this while if she wasnt so happy with me. But, please know that I did try to make her happy, make her feel appreciated . Yes, I failed. But at least, say Thanks for my efforts. Aku buat benda bukan sebab nak dapat pujian or apa2. But, dapat thanks tu mcm okay la. rase cam what I did wasnt wasteful . Tapi uolls jangan risau, sebab aku dah tak nak fikir sangat pasal tu. Sebab theres so much happy things that i can think and make me smile. I dont like pondering about sad things and distract my mood. 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Sad moment

Yesterday , Joy and I had a great moment with Salmi before she flew to UK to further her studies in Environmental Science at Sheffield , United Kingdom. So , we had put so much efforts to cheer her up that day . On Friday night , I had slept at Joy's place which was at Uitm Sungai Buloh or she adressed it USB -___- . The place is so rural and im so glad that i study in UIA Gombak where we can easily ride buses, taxi, lrt , monorel and etc. while here , she could only reach ktm sg buloh by taxi which cost rm10 per ride . no bus at all. and the nearest place to shop is The Store . That costs rm10 too She told that she did rather add up rm4 to reach Mid Valley as The Store was less equipped and most of the things needed are hardly available.pity Joy... So , that Saturday morning, we made up to meet Salmi at Times Square (my playground hoho ) as her hotel was not far from there. Previously, we planned to meet at KLIA 2 as she supposed to stay at Sepang. but, all plans were changed on that morning . at about 12 o clock, we met up and had a lunch at Secret Recipe . Honestly , this is my second time eating here. the first one was with Kak Nadya at One Utama. I rarely spend my money eating at costly place. I prefer eating at cheaper place which serve rice . hoho but since both of them crave for Secret Recipe , here we go. My chicken chop costs rm20 . and no drinks for sure.. i am quite poor lately . 

i loved it !

Joy ordered black pepper chicken with rice while Salmi ordered spagetti emm carbonara or bolognese. haha idk which one coz i prefer rice rather than than western thingy. Remember , i dont eat spagetti. no no. i just eat rice. im a pure Malay.  as always, Joy didnt finish her food and im the one who swallowed the leftover -___-. oh please, May i maintain with this shape forever .

Salmi is in yellow whilst Joy in her floral instant shawl :) 

Later on , we had a window shopping very  quick coz we needed to arrive at Salmi's hotel before 2 . window la sgt -__- i bought a skirt and a blouse. Joy also bought a blouse . haha. cut it short, we reached the hotel and performed Zuhr and Asr. and vroommed to KLIA. we arrived at 6.30 something. and we met lots of her family and relatives. and im the one who had to babysit all the babies there. idk why kids were so interested to be guarded by me. and for the first time at my age, 20 i played the slide and  crawled in not so tunnel to bring the two babies who hardly speaking, n needed to pick them up after the landed from the slide -____- . luckily im not that tall that ppl thought that im a highschool student . so here was the pic of the very cute baby, Rayyan Iman. but no pic of Dhia, huhu.. sorry .

i want a baby boy like this. exactly like this !!

at 8 o clock somthing, it was the moment when Salmi was going to leave all of us . this was the saddest part. from my previous experience sending ppl fly , Rina 's family managed to control their  emotions, not crying in front of her. so that she wont be upset to leave Malaysia. haha but i was the one who cried the most at that time, but this time, i tried to prevent the hingus from drooling. but all Salmi's family members cried. even her brother, 18 cried , hugged, and kissed her sister. i was so touched to see their family bond. and her sister, Dijoh ,8 cried , she was the first one who start the tears part followed by Amir,18 . Dijoh cried at the beginning and didnt stop though Salmi already gone to departure hall . Dijoh is the closest adik, and Salmi was the kindest sister that took care of Dijoh since she was born. she was the one who took care of dijoh,, taking bath, feeding food and tucking her in.. that was so lovely. how i wish i got so lovely adiks that love me that much,. idk whether they love me that much. but i love all of them,and yeah, i cried coz im touched seeing those family cried.. and i realize that my ex roomate was a very good girl and everyone hardly want to see her away. .
 i miss my family especially my dad. i want to hug  him rn.i miss his hugs and everything about him. i was the closest daughter coz others were like ' takut' . to me theres nothing to be afraid. haha. i always made stupid jokes with him .and he was fine with it :')  

take care salmi. big girl dont cry .

so im calling for all children to love your dad, not only  your mom. yes, u can love your mom but dont simply neglect your dad. He has a heart and feeling to be loved by you. dad is not someone that u just contact to ask money or sort of thing. he is also your mum. some of us seem to have fear towards their dad and assume that mum is more understanding. but to me, both of them are same. they understand us coz we are their children. their blood. so please love all your family.. your sister, brother, mum , dad and grandparents. though u got fame, friends and wealth , never forget where  belong :') . Try to experience sending ur friends fly and u will know what were my feeling everytime i sent them .

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sincerely Miss LOL

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the sole skin problem -__-

When it comes to friendship, any topics would be fine :D

Despite of being my fake "boyfriend" , he is actually my beauty consultant (SS also) yes, he's the one.the convincing one. i always love to hear his beauty tips and the reviews of products made by him. our wassap conversations were fulled with beauty and ugly stuffs .sometimes , we talked about gathering, his study (he would futher his studies at Queensland starting on 3rd Eid) sobs :,(

And as I reached Kelantan on 21st May 2015, I already grabbed some products that suggested by him and also used by him .(grabbed at guardian KLIA2) We share the same products and they are ..

all of them can be purchased at guardian/watson except the aloevera.
that one comes from Cosway .

Starting with St Ives Scrub until Oxy moisturiser,all of them are suggested by Mr Pretty Supi .. and alhamdulillah , all of them did a great job on my face although at the early stage, the "jerawat batu" grew one by one at my cheeks and my chin. Yet, all those big acnes were healed with that bioglo AloeVera gel. It was suggested by Zara. I used it after witnessing the testimony made by her.Somehow, the scars remain eventhough the acne vanished. So , i decided to find the remedy for scars.  I know it is impossible to cure the scars. I had used sensual serum, Nourain serum and traditional methods but nothing changed. and suddenly, i remembered about the garden of eden serum (Nature E ).. My roomate , Wawa once used it and after reading some testimonies (hardly trust them coz most of things  i bought previously also based on Google's reviews) and what a miracle, the serum had prevent the growth of big acne and any acne .. So, only plenty of small acne still dwell on my face and of course laa the scars... but this time, i really put trust on the products besides having faith towards Allah's power . im not changing any products anymore and wait till few months for the best result. Pray for my recovery because having a face free from acne and scars is one of thing that affects the level of confidence . Ohh, i almost forgot to mention about bb Cream.. Since I just realized that i already stop using "internet skincare", so my face might be burned if i didnt cover it with sunblock or spf. so after knowing the advantages of using bb cream (told by ss), i bought the cheapest one with spf 50++ with only rm17++.. thats the cheapest i could get okay . 

p/s : i took this picture when Kema asked me on what product that im using now. so , thank u Kema for being concern about my health :D and of course thank you to the beauty consultants for not getting bored with ur sick patient ! 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Imang si gaduh -___-

Assalamualaikum, 
Alhamdulillah dapat kerajinan nak update blog ni. baru sedar, slame ni caption kt insta tu panjang sbb inspired by pictures.So after i put a picture , baru tangan ni laju menaip. so next time kena letak gambar. haha. okay , insan yg duk depan ana ni name nye Imang aka Abang Sally.Kenape entri kali ini bertajuk "imang si gaduh" ? Al kisahnye baru2 ni, die dtg la tido kt rumah ana for couple days sbb tlg drive nk bwk my friend from uia yg nk tour kelantan.Almaklumla, i hardly driving after getting my license. so mase hari last Imang dk umah ana ni, ana bad mood. sudden without any reason dari mase Imang tny whats wrong with me until when we sent her home. i was so cruel right ??? yes i am. tu mase bulan 5 lagi. tp smpi bulan 6 ni pon, eventhough i already explained my situation to her, she still thought that she might do something wrong. yela tambah2 lagi ana mcm wasep pon dah jarang lately ng die n lau bls pon spatah2. Well , to be honest balik umah ni mmg jarangggggggggggg sgt main wasep lame2 ng anyone. xmacam kt uia, bleh main wasep lame2.. Lau duk umah ni, especially me mmg byk je benda nk kerjakan . xleh duk diam. so lau i feel free, then i will start the wassep. So, Imang.. jgn laaa "over" feeling guilty. told u already that u dont commit any mistakes. Im sorry if my treats towards u were so cold. i didnt mean to do that. ure awkwardness made me feel uneasy and just remain silent .

Dear Imang ..
yes, i knew we didnt close enough when we were in pc. not as close as u and aimi,n not as close as me and kubih. but, the moments at sickbay was the initial point where our friendship begun . or maybe , it started when SPM was over. :D and i guessed theres nothing bad u did to me. instead, u had helped me a lot when i was in hot water .especially the moment when i got a hearbreaking news that i lost my dad. thank you for postponing ure outing with kema and others just to accompany me to airport, bought flight ticket for me. That was the most unforgettable help from you to me.Surely, there are none of my helps for u that ever can replace such help . and the latest help was you were willing to be a tourist guide, drove around kota bharu to satisfy Zara's relish for visiting kelantan. -___- im sorry if zara ever made u feel uncomfortable or made you infuriated. I just realized one thing, she is so close with me as im the one that can stand longer with her. hehe. So, im behalf of her, apologised if we troubled u a lot . 

on garfield,heading to pantai irama :D

i thought u re a relax type.
but u arent.
next time, jgn gaduhh in any situation.
be calm .

Since, youre going far away from Malaysia, i didnt want to feel regret for tuning out you when ure still in Malaysia, In shaa Allah we will have ifthar and celebrate Eid together. i will make time for u when im free.but not at this early Ramadhan.im preparing for Muet speaking (not even start any revision). im so lazy to do anything except house chores. Im sorry for my ridiculous flaw that u wont find with anyone else. )

p/s sesuai tak tajuk ni "imang  si gaduh" ?? the 'gaduh' that i want to stress here is when she is so overacted with my sudden mood, so imang , jgn gaduh.dont gaduh make assumption. n even when ppl already made a clear statement, believe it (if the person is a trustworthy one), coz its not easy for a person to make one. siap mari ng kek lg nak pujuk. pdhl xdok gapo. bazer duit jee beli kek n mcm2 lagi . thank you imangg. lain kali bwkla ayam kfc.. n one more, psl yakult and coconut shake tu, dont worry. i still can buy it. lol. dah dah dah.. my advice is jgn la disebabkan rase besalah or mmg besalah,jgn kumpul sume kesilapan yg penah buat n blame urself.. stiap keslahan lampau mstilah sudah dimaafkan. ni siap nk cri kslhan mse kt sickbay lgi, 3 tahun yg lepas lg tuh. xde pape pon la,,  k bai ~  aku sayang mu lillah hi taala imang. ttibo2 aku rase mcm ak jd yg xreti tnjuk sayang plok ko mg. sbb mg behi oyk mg style "xretti".. Now you know n feel kan how is it to feel unloved by someone who doesnt know who to express their love.. Now u can learn to express the love !

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sincerely Miss LOL

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Fault of being me !

sebenarnya baru2 ni which is rabu lepas,aku ade masalah..and masalh tu efek giler kot. smpi xlalu makan n even xmakan nasi. kalau korang tau ak yg mkn mcm keto galo, mmg truk benar mslhnye kan.tp alhamdulillah, ade due org rumet ak yg gigih bg semangat dgn kate2 islamik yg ak xleh deny n smpi sentap ke hati, tertusuk2 bagai smpi sedar la yer allah uji ak nk ak ni kembali balik pd die,mybe slame ni ak blom ckup byk beribadat pdNya n maybe ap yg ak kerjakan blom ckup smpurna n ckup2 mkn je. Ya allah , terase betape bdosanyee ak skrg ni .. 

nak dgr ke mslhnye? mslh ni mcm bongok je sbnrnye.nk citer pon malu.aritu pon citer kt Shuhadah je,tp yg memalukan lg Sumayyah plak dgr.malu bertimpa2.. sbb mslh mcm budak kecik je.heeeee. so jom bace kisah sy..

kisahnya begini...
aku ade sorang kawan baik lagi, n mmg sorang tu je kalau nk difkir2kan paling rapat n paling baik gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! minggu tu die sibuk sgt dengan event rafest(mcm psr minggu tp under student) and teater.die director teater n hero citer tuh... so ak ni mmg baik sgt la ng die,so tiap ari ak pegi booth yg die jual,dhla reti masak.haih.. tiap ari pegi ,n ad time pegi die xde kt situ.pastu msg die,die trus dtg.. walau borak skit,tp  ak happy.sbb rase mcm dh lame xckp.lps atok ak meninggal,jrg jmp die n ckp ng die sbb masing2 sibuk even sekelas pon.. so time ni la nk eratkan ukhwah balik.kononnnyer.......... so smpai la weekend trsebut,hari sabtu tu, die ad teater tp ak xpegi sbb mama mari kl pulok dohhhhh.. sedih gilerrrr sbb ak tau die msti frust even die ckp xpe xpe... so hbis weekend tuh,masukla week baru kan?ak dk msg2 die tp die bls lmbt giler.n smpi stu tahap tu,die xmsg pon .lol. sbnrnye kitorg salu contactla kt wasep sbb kawan baik kan. so lau tetibe xmsg,msti pelik kan? dlu lau die busy dgn silat ke (presiden silat), die tetap ade mase utk wasep aku.tp not anymore........aku pon serkap jrg la kan "ang ad org len dh ka?" .. die ckp xla die busy giler222 pesume. tp ak terkilannye,rafest da habes,teater dah hbis.tp wallahualam la if die mmg busy benda laen plak kan.smpi la ari isnin malam rasenyer, die gitau die dh janji ng sorang pmpuan ni yg die akn tnggu pmpuan tu, n pmpuan tu pon tnggu die. and ak bengang giler2.sbb ape????? admirer ak dh xde dh sbb die dh ad org len.yerr, dlu die suke ak tp ak friendzonedkan sbb ak xde prsaan n xreti nk describe prsaan sndiri.n mmg sedihlaa ya allah !! bkn sedih sgt pasl admirer bkurang.tp sedih sbb ak bru sedar ak suke die right after he met someone that can replace me.smpi hari ni kitorg xckp lg.even kdg2 ak mention name die kt quote2 sentap kt ig.yg ckp psl friendship n so on.sbbnye ak rase mcm die dh xutamakn ak.bkn ape,die mcm dh xnk kwn or bkwn biase which is less wassaping.tp ade title friend je.sedihnye.. kitorg kwn sejak sem satu lg..lps dtg girl tu, die pon mcm kurang rapat ng aku..i love our friendship so much.i know bnda ni akn stable balik lps ak dh ok.sbbnye ak yg undur diri skrg ni sbb xdpt trime die dh dikebas org.die special sgt orgnye.. so mmg sedihla kan,kenape ak xsedar yg org yg nakkan ak slame ni sgt bernilai... kaki masjid, kuat agama,pandai masak,pandai n so on.tp die xkapel pon ng girl tu, diorg berjanji utk disatukan kelak je.. jelesnye rase... asalnye ak xkenal pon girl tu,tp seldik pny selidik jmp gk muke girl tu.mmg padan la.muke baik sgt lau nk compare ng muke ak yg nur ni mcm ad xde je.. so mse tu mmg downnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn sgt.. tiap malam nangis. tp lps kena tarbiah ng shuhadah n sumayyah, xnangis dh.sedih skit2 je. sbb mmg salah ak pon.sape suh jual mahal dulu.sape suruh aniaya die dulu.. pastu,diorg kate ad jodoh ad la..pastu suh study leklok utk sem ni,jgn main2 hahaha.pastu ckp,jgn nangis byk kt manusia,nangisla kt allah.allah nk tunjuk tuu.. haih.ain ain teruknye kau ni.pastu sumayyah pon suh selfishkan diri skit,jgn thinking too much about others.be selfish especially to boys. jgn fkir hal org laen smpi lupe psl diri sndiri.sbb last2 ak yg end up sedihnye..n die ckp dlu die pon penah gk sedih sbb laki.bkn main beria lg sedih.tp smpi satu tahap,die trsedar yg die sedih beriaa kt mnsia.tp kat Allah ?? :'(  and sumayyah jga ckp lau btul tu jodoh kite,in shaa allah dipermudahkan,xperlu efforts. fuhhh.. sentap  ~ n one pendirian of her "kalau btul die nak kt aku,die takkan cari lain" . even mcm xrelevan ng problem ak skrg.ke relevan ? lau shuhadah plak, die nasihat suh istikarah sbb ak sndiri xtau nk buat kptusan kan, btul ke x die ni trcipta utk ak.entah2 ak dk sedih mengenangkan jodoh org laen. huhu.. n kdg2 shuhadah ni phm jiwa ak sbb biasenye lau ak ad mslh gitu,die akn ad gk.so die pon ad gk skrg ni.tp die dh okay skit dh. aku ni bru alami. Ni potongan nasihat from shuhadah. "Ain ,sy xtau nak kabo gano either to stop or continue tu keep in touch with him sbb awk pon xtau ap yg trbaik utk awk.walaupon awk bleh predict what is the best for u,but istikarah la utk jwon trbaik ". . emm sbnrnye cerita ni xdetail pon.i only told you the main story.. minor2 xciter sbb pnjg laa.sblum ni ad dh penah citer kt blog psl laki ni confess dlu.tp entri tu ak xsuke die lg .hahaha. padan muke ain.. jual mahal,pastu end up trlepas permata yg dicari. ya allah , semoga ujian ini bg ak peringatan utk xlagi meremeh2kan agama.. sbb ak bru sedar, ak ni ckp je pcaye rukun islam n iman,tp lau btul ak pcaye rukun iman.cthnye la kan, pcaye kpd malaikat.knp ak still lg buat dosa if ak tau yg malaikat ni 24 jam ade utk catat kebaikan n keburukan yg aku buat. n knape lau ak solat, ak still bleh buat jht sdgkan dlm ayt al quran surah ankabut ad menyebut yg solat ni dpt cegah kemungkaran. byk lg yg bleh kite find out yg kite not fully Muslim or just Muslim dlm ic jer.. nenek ak selalu pesan, "ain kena byk baco buku ilmu agama.. islam ni bkn nk suh maye n poso jah.maye n poso ni benda basic.ain kena bce bku2 agame biar ain tau lg detail n berpengetahuan lg psl islam ni. umi nk citer pon xkan hbis.so ain amik jah buku2 umi ni.pinjam n bace."pastu die bagi buku by Hamka.tp ak bce satu chpter pon xhbis lg.. teruknye aku ni.tp lps nenek ak pesan tu, rase mcm berminat sgt nk tau lbih detail... alhamdulillah, if kite sedar khilaf kite tu maknenye kite still ade iman. bile lg kite nk berubah kalau bukan skrg?????? tetibe ckp psl agama.pdhl tjuk psl masalah kan? sokay la psl mslh tuh..doakan yg ak ni dpt convert balik syg as more than friends to as bestfriends smula. rindu kott kt die.. dh lame xwasep..tige hari je pon baru.hehehe. tp i miss my besfriend.seriously.. mase ayh ak meninggal dlu, die la yg solat jenazah ghaib utk ayh ak. sape xterharu tu xtahu la kan.. dhla tahun ni,kwn baik die ad meninggal.pastu ak plak buat hal,nk tgglkan die.jht kan aku ni.pdhl asasi nk hbis dh.i suppose use this time wisely.. saem molek2 n pisoh molek2. huhu 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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nak masuk bulan 5 dah

hari ni masuk 12 April dah which is ade  3 minggu lebih je lagi before final. Ya Allah dekat gile2 dah kan.. tapi tak tahulah kenape sy ni xsedar2 diri lagi. dahla azam xnak kuar sgt sem ni hancusss.tp at least tak keluar straight tige hari.tu je yg berjaye.. yg paling tak tahan nyer, minggu ni n next week dh ad plan dah.weekend ni gi tido uia gombak jmp kema.. pastu following week plak kena balik umah maksdare plak sbb ade birthday celebration !!!!!!!!! ya allah, i know im just ruining my future... kenape susah sgt nk dpt kesedaran diri utk berubah n spend the the time left to studyyyyyyyy !!!! semangat mase skolah n kt universiti lain sgt... xtau lahhhh kenape.tp xleh nk blame sape2.kena blame kan diri sendiri jugak !! tgkla skrg ni pdhl,ade subjek maths n comp sedang tnggu utk dipulun sbb ad kuiz minggu depan for maths and chemistry.tp stilll duk taip mlsh kt blog.. dahla midsem baru2 ni hancur. rosak habis carry mark,tkutnyeee allah je tahu...takut2 pon tak berganjak jugak..okayla doakan semangat ain dtg balik okay ? baiiiiiii. 

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sincerely Miss LOL

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